Abusive parents (19M)
Humiliated and abused by parents for pocket money (19M)
So I me 19M is in 2nd year BTech currently and i have to travel almost 1.5 hrs daily for college .
My parents had told me i will get some money a week but they dont give me anything , just for travelling i need money per day without getting anything else for myself and yet they give me nothing , i have to walk quite a few kms a day , travel in train ticketless just to come by , as i cant buy a train ticket or get into a cab
It had been a few days today since i had no money and i asked for my pocket money and my mom and dad started ABUSING me with the worst bad words you can imagine , and then my dad threw a single 100rs note on my face. I just couldn’t take the humiliation and i threw it back and said i dont want it , and they just kept on abusing me giving cusses and gestures and when i tell them it is wrong and i feel bad they say just go and die then it would be better.
Mind you they arent poor or anything , they order 1000s of worth of stuff from food delivery apps , they have 3 own homes in Mumbai but they cant do anything for me and i live like a beggar
I see my friends who have comparatively poorer parents who put their heart our for their children
Please tell me something which i can do so i can have hopes regarding life , i sometimes feel i dont deserve to live , i see people so happy and parents so loving and then i say to god , do you even exist?