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That's where I'm at right now. Admittedly I've been dealing with a lot of stressful things like finding a psychiatrist, but I think that's a poor excuse. All I can think about at the moment is how much I want to drown myself in benzos. Even though I have the medication and am taking it as prescribed, it's still there in my brain and I don't know to combat that.

It makes me think maybe I'm not actually ready to quit? Because I have to be honest if I went for a walk tonight and some one offered to sell me some Xans or K-Pins, I'd do it in a heartbeat. Obviously that would never happen because that never happens and also I'm away from any activity.

I keep fighting with my brain on finding a way to buy it online. Thinking somehow I won't get caught, or ripped off. That's really the only motivation right now, is getting caught, not even by the police but by my wife.

Is anyone who is sober experience similar thoughts? If so, how do you deal with them in a healthy manner? I know I'm technically not "sober" because I'm still taking benzos as a prescribed medication, but I'm not abusing them and honestly still feel extremely anxious because the dosage "feels too low"(a lie I'm telling myself or the truth?).

I guess a second side question, and again I understand not sober and probably will get me deleted/banned. I live in a state where THC is legal, I can buy THC pills. As stupid as it sounds, I kind of want to buy those so I can still "pop pills" and get a high but it's not the same? I guess that's probably stupid too, I was just trying to think of a safer alternative for when these cravings do come up

I am working on quitting benzorizapines, I've been abusing them since 2018.

I quit, I am done. I feel like maybe going to NA for support would be good. There is a place close to me that has a meeting this Saturday. It's at someone's house though? I guess it's supposed to be a recovery home.

I just don't know how to go? I feel very anxious about going and I'm anxious about the idea of just going to someone's house even if it's supposed to be a recovery home it feels weird that I can't sign up or talk to someone to make sure that I can actually go. It's posted online through Michigan-NA.

Do I just show up? Is that okay? How do I go? What do I do? I'm already feeling overwhelmed with the withdrawals. Can I even go? I still don't know if I can be done. I tried to get Klonopin on Sunday and got ripped off and in a lot of trouble at home. I tried to get CVS to refill an old script that is expired today.

That's why I feel like I need support but I don't know. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't want to do this or them or anymore. I just want this to be over.

Since 2020 I have had the luxury of being able to work from home. Within the past two weeks though, I've started a new job where I'm required to be in the office every day, at least until training is finished.

I'm trying to do the responsible thing to not carry the smell on me at all times. So I'm looking for a vape that I can use in the morning, and hit occasionally like while I'm on my lunch break. The problem is that any cart I've tried or disposable I've used, either taste horrible or doesn't get you high.

The closest thing that I have found from a vape product that did anything for me was HumbleBees. The fact that they constantly leak though, are sometimes broken out of the box, and burn through quickly has turned me off of them given the price.

For the past couple of weeks I've been using a 3g cart called The 8th, it's okay but honestly weak.

The people at the dispensaries don't seem to be as acknowledgeable about vapes, and anytime I've asked for a recommendation I have been disappointed. So I'm saying fuck it and coming to the masses -

What is your favorite vape product, and if you wouldn't mind providing me some more details I would love to know why. I don't need flavored things, I kind of like when they taste like weed. I like disposables because they usually are more discreet, but the carts seem to be fresher? And they hit a little different.

It's a very confusing game and a bit overwhelming. So I would love and appreciate any guidance and help.

Thanks all!

Also not sure if it helps but I live within the Redford area around 5 mile. I usually go to KOB on Inkster and Michigan Ave.

I just got into growing this year. I have a Sour Diesel that I think is doing okay, I had an OG Kush I lost in a storm. Right now I have an LSD-25, Jack Herrer, Amnesia Haze, and Gorilla Cookies in a 5 gallon bucket as my second grow.

I have come to absolutely love growing, even though I don't know what I'm doing. Admittedly all of the information and knowledge can be overwhelming or conflicting, but it's become a fun hobby. I was sad to hear about the seed ban coming up.

I plan on trying to stock up on as many seeds as I can given finances. Once I run out though - how/where can I purchase locally if at all?

Honestly it would be nice to visit a store about growing. I feel like I lack so much knowledge and it would be cool to visit a place to get my questions answered and get help with a successful grow.

I apologize for the novice question, I've only been using weed recreationally since it was legalized in Michigan. I'm still in the process of learning about different strains, and trying to learn what their overall effects are.

When I went to the dispensary last I asked if they had any strains that delivered more of a psychedelic/cerebral high, and was met with a weird look; so I figured I would ask here.

I'm aware of LSD-25, but I can't find it anywhere local. Are there any other strains that have the same apparent effect? I know I'm not going to have a full on trip, just curious what other strains I could look for.

Thanks!