Either my partner and I are both going crazy or this flavor tastes overwhelmingly of cinnamon. Super super odd. Looking at reviews it seems only 4 of the 400ish of them mention anything about a cinnamon flavor? Although I'm also reading up on some controversy regarding alleged AI-generated reviews, so maybe that proportion isn't quite accurate....
I've had pretty mild visual snow for as long as I can remember - since I was a kid. I always have very light background static that's very easy to ignore, and get the occasional sky vortex and sparkles. I used to get aura migraines, but not anymore.
Regardless, eye-related things are still a major anxiety point for me. A few weeks ago I accidentally gave myself a minor cornea scratch with my fingernail. Got checked out at the eye doctor, all looked good; it was healing perfectly. He gave me some drops, and said I might notice some blurry/glare-y night vision for a few weeks.
Well, for those three weeks I spent SO much mental energy checking in on my vision, and paying attention to glare around lights, that now all LED lights look like this photo. I have no idea if they always did and I'm just freaking myself out, but it seems new to me. It's equal in both eyes, and doesn't improve with anti-glare glasses, so it does seem to be neurological.
I know the only way to go back is if I get ahold of myself and calm down. But I focus on it whenever I'm driving or outside at night. I'm SO MAD AT MYSELF for entering this spiral and creating a new problem via self-fulfilling prophecy. It seems like that's been the case with a few people on this sub. Does anyone have any advice for breaking out of it?
Health anxiety/OCD sufferer here! 30 y/o. I have a different fixation every few months, and this month a supremely mild cornea scratch triggered vision/eyes as my new fixation. Yay ~
Because of my poor mental health atm, I cannot tell if bright lights always had rainbowish streaks coming from them and I'm just noticing it now, OR if this is a new symptom of my diagnosed astigmatism. Of course, when I googled this, 'rainbow halos' keeps coming up with glaucoma as an option. This is obviously making me panic.
I wouldn't describe it as a halo - I'd describe it as whispy streaks of light coming directly from the source itself with a bit of a holographic/rainbow look to them. LED headlights are the worst offender. The effect seems to be in both eyes equally.
I went to the eye doctor 3 weeks ago for my scratch and my prescription had not changed. My scratch was already halfway healed, all I needed was some lubricating drops, which I'm still taking.
Basically - should I run to the eye doctor or my psychiatrist? Lol.
Any help is appreciated - thanks!
Totally losing it right now. Here's the timeline:
I've had a red, flaky rash that has appeared on both breasts - but mostly the right - starting over 2 years ago. The left one eventually faded, but the right one comes and goes. I'm a sweaty person and it's always worse in summer. It consists of a few red splotches that go AROUND my areola, but not on it. My nipple and areola have always looked fine. I had assumed this was eczema or tinea versicolor, which I've had plenty of times before.
Fastforward to yesterday, I was due for my period and woke up with super intense pain in my right breast. It feels like a firm water balloon is in my breast and is excruciating if anything presses on it. I got my period later that day, but now it's the next day and it still very much hurts.
There is NO history of breast cancer in my family, even going back generations. I'm 29 years old. If I google the symptoms by themselves, the most common explanation for a breast rash is eczema, and the most common explanation for breast pain/fullness is fibrocystic breast changes. But I am 99% convinced, with the combination of symptoms, that I have breast cancer.
I was out doing errands and just threw up in a garbage can. I don't know what to tell my partner. I'm keeping all of this secret from friends and family at the moment. I'm also too scared to make a doctor's appointment.
Can someone calm me down maybe? I'm having a freakout.
I usually get pretty mild breast pain/tenderness before my period. I'm at 27 days right now, and I woke up with INTENSE soreness in my right breast. When I poke the sore spot (kind of on the underside) it feels like there's a water balloon inside it.
My mom has fibrocystic breasts and is telling me this is normal, but I'm losing it.
It hurts so bad that wearing a bra at work right now is painful.
Zero history of breast cancer in my family going back generations. I know people talk about sore boobs a lot but I've never experienced it this bad.
TLDR: I was a pro-level masker. I graduated in 2017, I worked office jobs for two years and did okay in them before leaving. Now I'm going back for the first time in 7 years, and things that didn't used to bother me are now causing me to struggle.
I did very well in school (good grades, honors everything) and fine in the office environment pre 2019. Socially it was rough. I didn't have the words for it at the time, but for the majority of my life, masking was basically my #1 goal every minute of every day. I would give myself a "strike" if I did something weird, said anything strange, or got bullied (I saw getting bullied as something I deserved for being weird). My goal was to end the day with as few strikes as possible. I would internally berate myself whenever I got a "strike". I also surrounded myself with bully-ish friends who's goal it was to "fix" me (because I was 'pretty and funny' and 'could be cool if I wasn't so weird') and allowed them to direct me as they pleased. This was what occupied my thoughts from ages, idk, 8 to 25?
In 2019 a bunch of stuff happened - I quit my office job to go freelance (since that was always my goal) and moved out of my parents house and in with my partner. I handle the work itself very well - never late, praised for good work, and I have a pretty expansive portfolio at this point. Sometimes I overbook myself and struggle with scheduling, but other than that, it's been alright.
Working mostly solo has been very freeing. My partner is also supremely sweet and really prioritizes my comfort and expressiveness, and for the first time since I was a child I've really been feeling this huge sense of relief, like I can finally just, idk... exist without constant anxiety. I have a wide circle of friends who are actually nice. I find joy in being creative again. Sometimes I find myself acting a bit "childish" - I collect stuffed animals and make little dolls of my ocs and play with them. I even went to therapy because (shocker, I know) turns out monitoring and punishing yourself every day for almost 2 decades does some pretty serious mental damage. I think there's parts of me that are permanently fried, and I still slip into occasional but serious bouts of self-loathing.
Recently, an opportunity came up where I'd be working in a standard office environment two days a week. The pay is very good, and with the price of, well.... everything... going up, I couldn't really refuse it.
And man... I don't remember struggling this much at my previous office jobs. I dread meetings and feel like I'm gonna barf from anxiety. I zone out when people talk to me. The glare-y fluorescent lights piss me off, the sound of my coworkers eating pisses me off, anyone interrupting me while I'm working makes me feel like I'm gonna snap. When people ask me a question I get so flustered that I flub my words and can barely string a sentence together. I constantly feel overwhelmed and get horribly paranoid that everyone in the office hates me. Even though it's only two days, I'm so exhausted by the end of it that I can't do anything but sleep.
I really don't remember this stuff bothering me at this level, and now suddenly it does. I have no idea why; I don't know if my traits just got more "severe" somehow, or if this is a result of being non-masking for so long. No idea where to begin coping with this. I don't want to quit - the work itself is quite easy and everything else is pretty standard, I just feel like I'm going to explode by the end of every day and idk how to fix it.