Real bad day
Hello goslings, I never posted anything here and I dont even know if I can post this. I'm just here for the memes. So I had a pretty bad life/childhood, Today someone from my family almost broke my TV and console, which I worked very hard for, this made me lose everything I went on a rant on my mom saying how horrible she always has been, and how I hated her for having so much ex-husbands and letting them abuse me, said that I hate my life and wanted to kms everyday, alongside a lot of other bad stuff she has done to me, which made her cry a lot, then I just walked off. Honestly I dont know what to do anymore with my life, I dont have a goal nor I can manage to make one, I dont have friends neither irl or web I have a few people I talk to but they re not active friends who miss me or invite me to stuff, I never had a family dont have a father my mother was always negligent because she was a premature mother, other family members hated me and even said that my mother should have aborted me when I was a kid, I am really tired I tried everything to make my life a bit better nothing seems to work, I tried making friends online via games, failed, tried to work, failed and quit, I tried dating, failed, my life is a constant loop of hope and failure which I dont know how to end, I even went to a psycologist for months and months, 0 improvements, I really am tired of everything and the worst part is that I dont even know what I did to deserve this.