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Soy nueva en el fútbol. ¿Qué selección me recomiendan apoyar? Preferiría que no fuera Argentina, Brasil ni Estados Unidos.

I was doing well for 5 weeks, only noticeable change was intense dreams about my mother or the women in my family. I also have PMDD and was about to have my period the last week. A couple days later my emotions were super intense, and i was experiencing suicidal ideation, it was weird tho because it was realistic feelings from the peiod of time we were last working on and i was able to notice that, however noticing did not stop the intensity. I also have ocd so it can be confusing. But it didnt feel intrusive to the 'then' thoughts but intrusive to the adult version of me. anyways, I shared with my homies and my therapist and even texted the suicide hotline (first time ever) and ive been sober for 12 years. My therapist was as surprised as i was. we spent two week after back in safety mode and then shes been moving across country for two weeks. i have gotten back to baseline, however, im now terrified or scared to go back.

any experience or thoughts would be helpful. thank you all

are there any women who would like to be friends on discord or so? i’m a 41 gay woman whose week 5 or reprocessing my earliest memory and i feel insane. i also have ocd and i have been sober 12 years. really looking for community like i have with ocd and sobriety

My first target was my earliest memory. That then jumped around as thoughts often do. I have never had a good, decent or loving relationship with my mother. She has never called me (refrain from telling me to call her) and thats the norm. We do not talk. She seems to be utterly uninterested in me, her first daughter. all that to say, since ive started emdr i have dreamt of her twice. i never ever dream of my mother.

I felt pretty great after the first 4 sessions, nothing really to report aside from the dream of my mother. But this week ive been anxious physically and very tired. I also have OCD which hasnt really flared up at all and for that I am grateful. All this long winded to say, anyone else have emotionally charged dreams with their target memory/person?