fell in love with my friend's ex
okay. i'm cis gay male
F1 = best friends with F2
F2 = M1's ex
F3 = F1's ex bestie
M1 = GAY? STRAIGHT? WHO KNOWS
the title seems bad. i met F1 in summer, we got really really close. I trusted her with my whole heart and we became so very close. I joined a club that F1 made, and I met F2. F2 and I were really friendly, and we went to a party together once and it was fun! A few weeks later, I saw her in the halls with her boyfriend, M1. I didn't think much of it because...yk...THEY'RE DATING. I WON'T DO THAT!!!! but a full year later, I joined robotics. M1 was a main person there, but wasn't a leader yk? So he and F2 were still together at that point, so I made friends with him because he was funny smart and all of it. a few months later, they broke up. it. was. bad. i saw him crying in the corner at robotics(its a very VERY large area, easy hiding spots) so i went and comforted him. He told me to go away, which i fully understand. we never really talked about that day until a few months later when my friend mallory unexpectedly passed away. i obviously cried in robotics because duh(theres another story about that, so we're focusing on this) and i packed my bags and started to leave early because I'm not crying in front of people, and he stopped me and i pushed away. i pushed him away because i was going to do horrible things to myself that night. he held me while i sobbed. that man is the most manliest person you would ever know, but he held me and walked me to his car. drove us to get ice cream, then went to our little spot. that's when he really really opened up. he talked about his abusive dad leaving him, about his mother overdosing, about living with his sister and grandma, about his horrible past, the hwolething. i sat and listened because he obviously needed someone. he was so alone and i was one of his first friends that didn't become friends with him just for his body/dick, i genuinely knew he was a good person. we bonded so much that night, and we became inseperable. fast forward to halloween, we go to halloween partied(he's popular and i'm mysterious type popular) so we party hopped, which means go to many parties in one night. and I had a liiiiiitle too much to drink, and so did he. (WE HAD A DESIGNATED DRIVER. I DONT PLAY WHEN IT COMES TO DUI) but according to our DD, she caught us making out in the backseat. i dont remember a single thing about that night, other than watching a movie then eating leftovers. the next day she told me what happened and i was shocked. HE WAS STRAIGHT. I AM GAY. i highly doubted that happened because we were only friends, but when i thought about it...i really would date him. he's taller than me(i', 6 feet 1 inch for reference) and he's a little bit older and he's stylish and UGH anyways...what do i do. i would date him, but it would be weird... I NEED HELP!!!! WHAT DO I DOOOOO???? HJASGDFAHGDSAGHJFADSGKFGHADKGAFDSGA