frustrated by lack of opportunities with ba vs bfa in theatre
I got into tech theatre much later than a lot of people I know, and am therefore enrolled in a BA program where I am double majoring in theatre. I have been feeling incredibly frustrated because it feels as though I am not learning as much as I could be if I had gotten into things younger and applied for a BFA program. Now it's too late for a transfer and I have to finish out.
I have a small portfolio for scenic design and tech direction, but everything I do is basically self taught. I'm proud of the progress I've made given the lack of formal resources at my school and especially shotty design courses, but lately I've just been feeling not very hopeful about a future in this field. I'm not really sure how to land apprenticeships to learn more than I am at school when I'm competing with people who get so much more instruction. And of course, they deserve the apprenticeships and I'm not holding anything against them, but it just makes me feel sad that there doesn't seem to be a clear path for me to progress.
I am so eager to learn and love this field so much, and it hurts sometimes when I feel like I'm stalling or idling when I could be learning so much. It's also not that I don't pick things up quickly once I have someone who is willing to take the time to teach me. Tech and design is just unfortunately not something I can teach myself out of a few books in my free time. I need a mentor, but it feels like those are exclusive to those who just figured it out sooner than I did. I guess I'm just wondering if there are people out there who figured out a way to continue progressing and learning and turning this thing into a career? Sorry for the downer post, I'm just feeling a bit lost.