wanted to get this off my chest, a confession of my shame. when i was younger, my cat had cancer and the day we were going to bring her to the vet to be put down, she was incredibly sick and weak the morning of. i knew she was going to pass at any moment. i was rushing my mom to go to the vet sooner, and i decided to brush my teeth before we left the house.
i held my cat in my arms on the way to the car and she passed away a few steps out the door. we never made it to the vet.
6 years later, i still think that if i hadn’t brushed my teeth i could have held her for a few more moments and i’d do anything to have that time back. i feel guilty every time i think about it. my cat was my world and she still is, her memory is one of the few things i have. i still find it hard to brush my teeth most days.