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As I said above I screwed up royally with a best friend of mine and I take full responsibility for it and she has accepted it …..but

I’m really really struggling with the shift in her dynamic (yes I know I caused it )

She’s asked for space which I gave her ….approx 3 weeks

Her messages are now very infrequent and flat .

She took me out for my birthday last night because she agreed to it before the big fight happened.

But it was quite uncomfortable to be honest - she has said she’s forgiven me but I hurt her deeply and I dont want to push the issue , but I’m an overthinker and it’s in overdrive at the moment

I used the 3 weeks to start to work on my issues and I can tell I’m making progress .

What I’m truly struggling with is her change and I’m in knots about the whole thing because I care so deeply for her and our friendship.

Any advice on how to approach things and essentially get her back (other than waiting and giving her space) because that’s what I’ve done and it’s not been good for my headspace

I’m currently essentially preparing to lose someone I would call a Best Friend …… I hope she chooses not to end the friendship but I don’t like my chances .

This whole situation is entirely my fault, we grew very close very quickly and everything was great until we got invited separately to a mutual friends wedding ..

Let me set the scene , I’ve always hated weddings because I don’t drink , don’t dance and just find the tough situations and have a negative personality to begin with but it’s magnified with weddings / situations out of my comfort zone .

She is the opposite vibrant , happy , excitable especially for weddings - and I made my feeling known about my distane for them but she convinced me to go purely because the groom took the time to invite me to both weddings ( one in his brides hometown in the USA and the other her in Australia) this weekend

I then got very selfish /narky about it and said some awful things to her over this past weekend

Again I guess this is more of an unfortunate vent than anything but I just pray that if I stay pleasant during the wedding she might want to keep me as a friend

The thought of losing her from my very limited circle breaks my heart .

I have apologised profusely and left her alone but it’s eating at me and I’m already struggling with it mentally, she spoke to me this afternoon and said after the wedding she wants to go no contact “for a few weeks at least “ to decide on “if I walk away entirely from you “ or if I allow you some degree of contact

Any advice on what to say to swing things around ? Aside from apologies and assurances not to let that happen again ?