my mom is ruining my future
I live in a very strict arab household and my mom is very controlling over everything i do. i can't decorate my room the way i want or wear the clothes i want because she thinks my style is too ugly and she has forced her unappealing aesthetic onto me. she also rarely allows me to attend events if she's not there and i feel like i wasted my teenage years as i have not been able to express myself in any way. recently, i moved away and since i am near graduating, i have been searching for colleges near me. the only one next to me now is a college with an extremely low graduation rate and low average gpa. for context, i am a student that takes honors and AP classes because I think that would make getting into a great college easier and i have high hopes of pursuing a nursing career. i expressed my worries to my mom and she started yelling at me and saying that i will attend this low gpa college whether i like it or not because it's the only one nearby. a dorm is out of the question as she will not let me move out in fear i will be badly influenced by others. no, i cannot get a job to earn money to move out because she would not let me work and also because i would need a car which i do not have. i have no close friends and no one to drive me places. there is no hope for me and i am completely stuck, but i just can't accept that this will be my future. i'll be stuck with my controlling mom until she marries me off to a guy of her choice, and my life is basically ruined. it's like i'm living her second life and i missed out on so much because of that.
Apologies for my bad grammar, i am rushing this post but i really need to get this off my chest.