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He slashed my car tires because I wanted some alone time and promised to pay me back the next day and never did. He called the cops on me when I kept asking for the money outside his door saying I'm crazy and there is no money that he owes me. Cops said I need to move along or they will arrest me. He lied to my face and asked me to pay half the cost of a new vacuum cleaner from his workplace which he gets for a discount. I gave him 300 dollars. I later looked up the vacuum cleaner at his workplace's website and it sold for 200 dollars. He lied saying it was 600 dollars and kept the remainder of my money! None of his money went towards it!. He totaled my car and said he will pay me back one day and buy me a brand new one. I had to pay to get my stuff out of a totaled car. 🙄 I was done with this I finally left him after I found someone better to be with. I told him I have a new man and he didn't care and said we were never even together after 4 years. I was 22 and never again will I do that lmfao. These type of people don't change. I seen him only feel bad for totaling his grandparents car and one of them died like a week later probably from stress. I remember dismissing his feelings and changing the topic and I'm glad I did. Fuck you.

For context, I am 18. And this is just ridiculous...

And everyday, it makes me feel like a creep. And it hurts.

I am legally an adult, I only fell in love w. this fictional character when I am, well, 18. I would have never ever had guessed that I would ever find myself attracted to a minor as an adult but here I am... And everyday it's actually killing me really bad.

I had tried a lot of justifications for it too, like... They were 15-16 in 2010, but I was born in 2007... nvm.

Oh–wait! But this show came out when we were both age appropriate! Yet, I didn't even acknowledged them or even had seen them, potentially until 18. So, I am very conflicted.

But for more context, I DO NOT like like real 15-16 yr olds IRL. So why am I attracted to this fictional one?

Just end me already. Can somebody tell me, it's not bad or something? Because I really need to sleep without being this depressed over it my GOD.

When I was junior in highschool I was sexually assaulted by a group of boy at party which was filmed and put on twitter and then taken down. This was like 10 years ago. And it lead me to a very weird friendship with then English teacher

My English teacher during this time got super interested in me, she started driving me home from school. She would ask very very sexual questions. She admitted to me she was virgin and would have me describe male students genitalia, things we did together, how it felt, how I felt, etc.

She also was supplying me with weed.

Just like wtf? At the time I was oh surly this mandated reporter is just getting more info so they can report. (I was a very naive person) and I don’t think I have thought about her since then. She had allegations she was sexting a student and never returned to out school.

Just like wtf

apologies for the probably very messy and inartiulate post I'm going to write.

my gf and I just broke up a bit more than a week ago after 2.5 years together. we have had nonstop sexual issues from basically the beginning, and that included porn consumption. i had had an account on nsfwtwt for a year or so before we started dating and eventually introduced her to it basically right as we started dating. as time went on, we started to grow resentful of each other's porn habits, and i suggested that we should just cut it out altogether in an attempt to fix our sex life.

spoiler alert: it didn't! I'd caught her probably 3 times (2 for sure) on secret reddit accounts watching porn afterwards, and she always promised to never do it again and that she's really sorry blah blah blah.

ff to like 4 or 5 days ago, I'm looking through her phone (yes, without permission) and BOOM another nsfwtwt account. but she had has stuff saved from like 2 days after we broke up.. genuinely fuck you. can you really not wait even a little bit before you start whacking your shit to gooner fuel in the literally 3 hours or so while I'm at work?

what actually pisses me off the most about it and what prompted me to even have to vent about it is the actual content she's watching and saving; all things that i had previously brought up as an issue on our old accounts. she's watching content specifically catering to "gooners", goth porn, strange amounts of black men on white women (so I'm suspecting raceplay), and also fucking findomme shit.meanwhile she literally cannot pay her half of the rent because she's horrible with money.

she's also saving like non-lewd photos of women, which is also a giant slap in the face.

anyways that's kinda it, just needed to vent.

I accepted: I'm only going to get a relationship with a Stacy when I have money and muscles. For those without qualities, what's left are trash people. Fair

I quit trying until I have those two things.

While working to get them, feelings of frustration are inevitable. But, along with medical drugs, there is something I do. I like to call it: face deprivation.

Basically, I avoid looking at other people as much as possible, especially at their faces. There are classmates I don't even know what they are like, if you showed me a photo of them, I would not know he's a classmate.

I wear sunglasses ALL the time, so that I can close my eyes when talking to someone.

I wake up as early as possible to go to class, so that the risk of meeting (and looking) at other people is smaller.

Oh, and headphones. They are amazing, I wear them all the time, for me to not listen to what everybody is talking about. But the most unusual part is always working to not look to other people and know what they are like. Of course, this is not possible all the time, the thing is doing it as much as possible. I end up having to know what most of my teachers look like, for example. Fortunately, I have so far managed to not know any classmate's face.

I avoid not only pornography, that's not enough. I don't even watch live action movies anymore. They show hot people. The chad that you aren't and the stacy you don't have.

But I do watch cartoons.

On YouTube, I just watch content that is face-free. For instance, I love how some YouTube channels like RealLifeLore are faceless.

Are you thinking of posting pretty girls photos in the comments to mock me? No worries! I scroll down carefully.

There are no-go zones, like malls. Oh, that's just a magnet for Stacies.

Friday night? Truly dangerous

Be away from people who are smarter or prettier than you. The goal is avoiding resentment and envy, because you are already frustrated enough, you don't need any more negativity.

Going to the gym is always dangerous, it's full of Stacies! But keep your sunglasses and know beforehand your training. While going to the machine, heads down, while exercising, close your eyes. Thus you won't know that stacy nearby exists. Oh. And nope. You are not killing opportunities. You know she despises you. By avoiding looking at the people training, you free yourself from resentment, you won't remember that stacy that you can't date or that chad who has muscles far bigger than yours.

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Doing it all has not fixed me, but I have greatly improved. Now, I can pay attention to classes and be more productive, for example. My depression has reduced.

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Reality is clear: dating is easy! As long as you are willing to take any trash. What's hard is getting a Stacy.

It's not like I have achieved what I want yet. But I have gotten improvements since I understood: Just don't look at facades of stories that sell things that are too expensive. Not even out of curiosity! "Turn the other cheek" and don't look!

Believe it or not, but I don't stay home much. I love to go out. Thus, I do all this to survive.

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Everyone is complaining about not having a date... They are lying to themselves. They can date an obese woman or that ugly female next door. Will they? Neither I.

They are complaining about not having a stacy.

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Yes. I'm childish. And I don't care.

Is a stacy that you really want? Is the want of it what's bothering you so hard? Don't deny your wish. If you need a childish way to cope, so be it.

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I wonder that many people would benefit from this "lookist sensory minimization" or "lookism presence fasting."

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How about my mom? How did she react? She did everything to get me out of these ideas. But I never relented. She has become more tolerant, but I wish she were fully accepting it. She hates my wearing sunglasses including indoors.

She doesn't want others to think I'm a weirdo, so I promised her that I wouldn't wear them during classes. Well, I lied. I do wear them all the time. I'm just not going to refrain from my medicines.

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Some might say: But Jacob, you are losing potential opportunities... Nope, I'm not.

It's dumb playing on a lottery where the ticket costs a lot.

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So, yes, I became a North Korea of a person, sort of. These walls are just going to go away when I can compete. Otherwise, I want all riddance from the world.

I won't go to war without weapons, if you don't have any, the best course of action is hiding on the jungle until you get weapons.

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Have you watched Bird Box? It's not an amazingly good movie. But it allows for an analogy.

It's as if you are in the world of Bird Box, but the beings you can't look at are the chads and stacies. They don't end you on the spot, they make you resentful and full of hatred, you chronically sicken.

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Lookism is the reality.

currently over halfway through my first international trip with my roommate. I put in a lot of OT and hours at my second job to afford this. there are a bunch of smaller issues that have come up around this trip, but I’ve found people don’t normally share my perspective on things so I was trying to work through them myself.

first, we were meant to stay with another one of her friends for the whole trip, but she didn’t ask until we had already bought the tickets. their parents said no, so we had to book an airbnb. this trip was already really expensive for me, and at that point I thought we had all major expenses covered so I was really hurt.

she planned a lot of this trip with her friend while I was at work. she works nights and these friends are in a timezone that aligns with when she is awake. they would send things to me when I couldn’t look at them, after they already pretty much decided on it. ultimately it’s fine, but after asking clarifying questions I get snapped at for not knowing the details when I can’t look at any of the bookings myself and I wasn’t there when they happened.

my biggest issue, I did not know this was a birthday trip for her friend. I didn’t even know they would be coming until 2 days before our flight. at most I thought we were just going to spend a day with them. I’m not good around new people but I figured if they were friends with my roommate they would be nice enough.

this friend I cannot stand. they’re a streamer. they spent half of the first day streaming our trip. he is incapable of navigating or googling things for himself, makes us use our international data to search things. he left during dinner to go to a grocery store so she had to pay for him. (which they decided to split dinner evenly, though I specifically ordered cheap) he threw up in public, almost on the feet of some strangers, after chugging an alcoholic seltzer (he boasted of his history with alcohol and throwing up). we went to a pub, and once the two of them got their drinks, they went to sit without me. by the time I got there they were finished and were ready to leave. on top of all of this he is rude to me, talks to me like a child, but this is on par with how strangers treat me bc of my neurodivergence.

when I don’t like people it’s very hard for me to hide it. I’m interacting with him as little as possible. and my roommate seems to be taking his side on things. another last minute change of plans meant we had to buy train tickets. when I said I didn’t want to buy tickets for her friend (who was streaming ow while we were figuring this out) and that if she wanted to book together she would have to do it, she started to really shut me out. this morning, I tried to ask if she remembered if there were any grocery stores by the station so we could grab snacks and she snapped at me.

I just feel like I’m not wanted on my own trip. I almost want to just book another hotel by myself or go home early. normally I would just write this in a journal but I don’t have any privacy to write. I miss my cats and don’t want to see any other humans for a month.

So me and my best friend has been friends since 3rd grade I’m 20 now and recently we stop being cool because let’s start to day one okay so her gf got kicked out of her auntie house and my best friend mom was okay with letting her stay with them okay cool everything smooth everything is peachy then literally out of no where we starting hanging more had a sleep over end we were vibing for some reason I guess her gf had an allergic reaction plus was going through a trip but the 🍄 were strawberry flavored and she’s allergic to strawberry plus she was going through a hallucination 🍄 trip so boom she gets put into the mental hospital a week go by and she’s gets home after that she started being weird mind you her gf was already texting my phone asking me about why me and my man allows poly and she just kept pressing me for my chooch boom then after that she started being weird back to the mental hospital part when she gets out she started being more distant my bsf started being distant then she unfollows me which everybody knows don’t unfollow me unless you have a problem or want a problem so boom then I blocked her then I was getting ready to go on my cruise so I told my bsf that I’ll talk to her and stuff after my cruise so boom then we get to after I get home shit started getting weirder and weirder I texted her and said is she ready to talk so apparently she unfollowed me for a completely different reason to what I thought she said she didn’t like how the girl I invited over was flirting with her gf and I didn’t say anything which I didn’t know cuz I was there to have fun wasn’t thinking anything of it now we get to the now I just had a whole argument with my bsf because I was trying to tell her about her gf how she’s not who she say she is and I genuinely wanted the best for her but instead of trying to work our friendship out she wanted to change on me and sided with her gf which is understandable but me being your bsf for 13+ years over a girl you just met is crazy then her gf is making it to where she’s isolating everyone and wanna keep her caged in I need someone opinion and see if I’m tripping cuz I tried to send her screenshots and everything but she still acted blind and like she didn’t gaf as if what I said to her didn’t matter

after my ex broke up with me nothing has been entertaining. it's been 6 months, I rarely feel excited for anything, and I rarely feel any other emotions besides guilt, sadness, regret, and loneliness

porn doesn't interest me, music doesn't make me feel the way it used to, playing the guitar gets boring even though it was my passion, sleeping doesn't sound good because I'll dream about my ex, doing drugs isn't exciting, tiktok or playing games is boring, what do I do? why am I feeling this way? how do I cure this?

Seriously though, I’m so fucking fat. And I have no self control, i’ll eat an entire family size bag of chips EVERY DAY if I had enough money. I try to work out and I just end up laying on the ground or watching weightloss videos. Not even my 500lbs life works, i’m just so fucking lazy.

I grew up in a conservative household in a very red state, ofc things like homophobia and transphobia were common wherever you looked and for years I was told that West Coast Blue States were full of Transgender people being together and had an actual great leadership and agenda and overall great cohesion (but like they said in a fear mongering sorta way).

Well finally after years I moved out on my own and started a new life twice in two different blue states and honestly, it's nothing like what was said, people are still pretty similar here as they were back there, and the trans community is well... it's pretty bad in my opinion, I've met some of thee most unhinged and unwell people I've had to interact with in a while, it's hard to start and keep a conversation with them, there's a lot of talk of sex and polyamory and people being openly and evenly obnoxiously physically sexual in public with anyone they meet, and they only show interest in you if you're willing to engage in that with them otherwise they give you the cold shoulder.

Racism is still quite prevalent within trans communities, gatherings almost never contain more than one or two black people at most and discussion of racial equality topics or even just black culture topics like Hip-Hop music results in a "That's overstimulating" or something similar, which I know is just a deflection from topics (and people) they find uncomfortable.

Not to mention the uncomfortable amounts of age regression going on, the amount of grown trans women I met who talk about their named stuff animals and talk to and about about them as if they are real living people, even wanting to make that a thing in sexual intercourse (which TMI made me feel like pdf when I tried to have sex with one person who was into that) is surprisingly common.

I've been meowed and barked at more times at a trans bar meet than offered an actual conversation about literally anything, and the people who I do meet that do want to just have regular bar talks almost NEVER stay in touch, you'll have one good talk, get an insta or number, and never hear from them again, every single time, it's impossible to maintain friendships or find a sense of community without lowkey giving your body to them as something they can play with when they bored of adulting.

I really don't want people to assume I'm trying to grift or spread hateful rhetoric but I've been trying my hardest at this for almost 3 years now and the disillusion and depression I'm starting to feel from this is driving me crazy, I've found myself becoming more judgmental and confrontational towards the community in recent months because of how much this has been affecting my mental health and I'm worried one day I'm just gonna have a mental break and become a TERF or something, again I don't mean to offend anyone here, please call me an idiot if I'm being stupid but at this point I'm a complete brick wall.

I have never been a fan of having a guy choke me during intimacy, and im seeing a lot more posts about it on Instagram - mainly through booktok.

I get women are exploring kinkier sides through book tok and choking is one of them. But not everyone is a fan.

Disclaimer - domestic abuse -

I went into work today to find out that a coworker went to the emergency room under her own power after her ex boyfriend strangled her last night during an argument. Hes in jail now and she has an emergency order of protection against him.

Seeing things on choking and hands around a woman's throat now make me sick to my stomach after it happened to a close coworker.

**Edit - yes there are people who enjoy it, and as long as its done with consent, thats fine.

But I dont like it and now that a coworker has been strangled by her ex, who's in jail, choking is very off limits and a trigger for me.

i have no friends, i have no one, we did grad walk at my school and i almost cried alot of times knowing i have nobody. im so pathetric and lame, i have no personality. i jsut wwant someone to be my friend, i wany people to hasn gout with i hatew the person i am, sometrimes i say i wantn to die but thats not even true either, im so pathetic i make no effort to change anythingn or just end things i just wallo9w, ive tried toi make friends but im so annoyinhg snd pathetc and i ruin thw friendships i do have, im such a fucking loser

Im currently 21 years old but I feel like I’ve lived a century. My best friend recently told me “you have been through so fucking much and I’m honestly surprised you’re still here, but I’m proud of you” and it honestly really impacted me. I truly have been through a lot and I’ve never really moved past it or worked on my trauma and I feel so mentally drained.

When I was 7-9 years old my brother would periodically make me dk sexual things with him and it really changed me as a person. It made me more paranoid and anxious and scared of sexual intimacy. Hell my brain blocked out and i didn’t fully remember it until I was 16. I’ve been sexually harassed, cat called and hit on by multiple boys/ men since I was 10 years old.

Every single day from first to 8th grade I was severely bullied. Kids would call me fat, ugly, annoying a pig, a cow, they would make fun of me for every little thing they could find. I was a very bubbly out going person, I’d say I still am despite it all but so many people have tried to snuff out that light.

Once COVID hit I was in 8th grade i became severely depressed and I tried to go through with suicide multiple times. This was the start of a long dark rabbit whole of depression, suicidal ideation more suicide attempts than I can count, drug use, falling into the wrong crowds, eating disorders and much much more

My mom was an alcoholic for a long time and was in and out of rehab from when I was 10-14 and she used to drink and drive with me, she used to come to my school drunk and she almost killed us in the car once when I was little. My mom had also suffered with psychosis episodes since I was little. I remember being pulled off the bed at 7 years old at 2 in the morning being told there were men with guns outside and my mom actually ended up calling the cops. I have way more stories about her too

In 11th grade my mental health Became more than I could handle. I was going through bullying again and it was even by my own friends. My best friend at the time texted me one night that she was going to kill herself and that she was self harming I genuinely thought she was going to die. So I called 911 later that night I got several threatening texts and calls from her. All I wanted to do was help. I was already in a dark space and the next day I got very drunk and I took over 4,000 mg or different medications. I then went to bed and slept for 8 hours because it knocked me out. I woke up and could barely speak or walk I instantly panicked and I told my mom. She rushed me to the hospital and I was told I was lucky to be alive. 2-4 more hours and I would have died. I went to a mental hospital for 5 days and when I got out that so called best friend had told the entire school I tried to commit suicide and that I was in the hospital. Her and several other girls took a point in my life that i literally almost died and turned it against me. I will say I said things i shouldn’t have but I was in so much pain and I’ve since apologized to those I needed to. But there was one girl in particular who took things to a new level she spread awful mean rumors about me and my mental health and she tried to jump me in the school bathrooms. When that didn’t work she screamed st me infront of at least 30 girls shoved into a bathroom and people still have recordings

I moved to a new school for a month of my junior year and my senior year and I had absolutely no friends I spent that entire year getting high and drunk in the school bathrooms because I felt so alone and none of my old friends ever reached back out when I tried to text them. I graduated with no friends, no one to run to after crossing the stage, no one to take pictures with. Nothing. And the 3 girls i thought were kinda my friends and at least tolerated me all blocked me the day we graduated. They used me for my stuff.

From when I was 17-19 I was in a very toxic relationship where I was controlled and used sexually and for my money. I really don’t wanna get into that lol

Since then I’ve graduated in 2024 and I’m so lost in life and I feel so behind. I can’t imagine living more life with more heartache and mental health issues when I’ve already spent the last 21 in pain. I could really use some kind words and motivation 🩷

This is a really stupid one, it's probably just me whining abt nothing but my mom buying me bras without ever asking is just embarrassing. I've told her before I don't like that?? Then most the time I tell her I don't want her doing that she just pulls out one of the times when we were first bra shopping and how I freaked out and got upset. Yeah, mom, but I was like 12 or something, don't you think I was still getting used to the fact I was getting older? Ugh, and she got me bras today. Like dude, stop, you DIDN'T EVEN ASK ME IF I WANTED THEM?? She didn't even text me. Not to mention they have patterns on them. I don't like patterns? I've told her a million times??? If she's going buy bras without asking me you'd think she'd at least try and remember what I like. It's like she tries to force this stuff on me. Idk, I cant tell if im just being upset to be upset or if its okay to feel like this.

turning 18 has to have been the best and the worst thing of my life. I finally got legal autonomy, and I started college. I’m still able to call myself a teenager and be young and just enjoy life.

but huge thanks to the media!!! turning 18 has given me a sense of existential dread and impending doom. The idea that I lose all of my protection because the law recognizes me as someone who can make my own decision decisions. The idea that my childhood did a “hard stop” the second the clock strike 12 on my 18th birthday. The idea that I missed the window of where not only was a university protected, but my rash, dumb decisions would been passed off as “dumb teenager shit” the feeling that I didn’t take advantage of a time where everything was supposed to be “easier”

I guess the idea of losing a layer of my protection really hurts me the most. Everybody is (rightfully) outraged at a 24-year-old dating a 17-year-old. But what about a 24-year-old dating an 18-year-old? It goes from “that’s a disgusting predator” to “they are two consenting adults. I don’t see the issue.” 18 being the legal adulthood age was probably the best/worst law depending on who you’re talking to.

I was just on a sub of a 20 year-old female dating a 16-year-old boy. Everybody was rightfully outraged in the comments, but what make me sad was that if it were a 23 year old female and an 18-year-old boy, the reactions would’ve been completely different, and less sympathetic on the boy’s end.

I feel like whenever I hear the word “adult” I just tense up like a traumatized war veteran who just heard a gunshot. 😭 don’t call me an adult. Don’t even call me a YOUNG adult. call me a girl. Or a woman. Or college student.

I have no support system. The only person I feel comfortable crying in front of who lives within five hours of me is my ex.

My mom is five hours away, but anytime I even call her to vent she just wants to “problem solve.” So I never even feel heard.

My ex thinks I’m this broken thing and I just don’t feel like anyone else even sees me as a person anymore. I have been posting on my close friends story with people I thought were my close friends because I’m getting so desperate and alone that I’m posting literal cries for help. And I’ll get one response but the conversation always fades after a few days of back and forth. Usually it’s when we start to plan something. It’s usually me who wants to make a plan but I’m just forgotten about.

I’m just so fucking alone. I’m going through so much shit and I’m only 24, and I’m dealing with things that no one else my age (or even people older than me) have ever had to go through. I feel like I’ve been broken before I can even really get started at all.

I know people have it worse than me, so I know my life isn’t awful. It’s just the really bad stuff always overshadows the good.

im 19 (f) yet i still feel like im a child, i never got to try anything people my age try (alcohol, parties, or even going out with friends), i cant make decisions of my own, cant stand up for myself, and even deep inside.. all i want is someone to protect me and decide for me, idk :/

So just now my friend told me the reason why he's been drinking a lot and been having problems, he sent corn to his underage sister and i begin to call him out for it, she got mad and just told me he's trying to change and he was drunk and under the influence of drugs, but that's no fucking excuse? I begin to crash out and ask her why she defended him for it. She just acted so no chalant about her boyfriend being a creep, is it bad to call out creepy behavior like that and not be okay with it

It completely irritates and infuriates me whenever I leave a comment on someone's comment section and my comment is never acknowledged, not liked and not even replied to. There could be only four, five, six or maybe seven comments in that comment section and all of them receive a like or a reply easily. My comment is the only one that doesn't get liked, replied to or acknowledged and I commented around the same time the other people did. It only takes a second to leave a like. If you don't want to reply, that's cool. But what does it take to get a like from people?

I don’t eat healthy food I don’t eat enough or I eat to much, which leads to me starving myself. I have liver inflammation, and my stomach is clogged. Instead of my mother realizing the threat in this situation she choose to make fun of me for it. When ever I say I feel lightheaded she’ll say something like “well it’s your fault for not eating” when I was 6 I was severely cautious of what my body looked like I would get mad if I looked fat. I was also depressed at this age due to constant yelling and physical abuse and mental abuse. Anyways sorry off task, but no one takes me seriously anymore my sister makes fun of me as well blaming me for my eating disorder…I genuinely cannot take this anymore I want to end my suffering but I’m to scared if it will hurt when I take my life. I met a lot of people and I don’t want to hurt them by leaving them; I hope I can recover and will find some better support… [F] 14