u/Weekly_Flounder_1880

Went to the doctor and realised I don’t go out so much I am on the verge of having vitamin D deficiency

Whenever I try to change my lifestyle for the better, the habits just never sticks and it feels like a chore trying to force myself to go out or do something, eventually i will get tired and give up

I do nothing but rot on my bed and go on my phone everyday. I made an effort to eat more (meat, carbohydrate, vegetables) and drink more water, that’s the easiest thing to do. But other than that, I’m not doing anything else meaningful.

Surely I have my goals and aspirations, and things I want to do and become in the future, but they’re not enough to motivate me in the moment.

I really want to change my life for the better and improve on myself physically and mentally, I can’t stand watching myself procrastinating so much anymore. I tell myself oh I should really do XYZ right now but I kept making excuses..

How do I commit to anything without feeling like I’m forcing myself to do something, and eventually get tired of it, and give up?

Obviously I can’t use English we use irl, I mean I could use some reference but not much.

I’m thinking of like creole languages where they adapt features from one language or another or simplify (correct me if wrong)

We can see how much old, middle, and modern English have evolved, too.

But yeah I was wondering, I wanna make a conlang based off of that because my characters in my conworld don’t speak modern English, but it’s too much to just call “modified English” since I’d consider it to be 2 different languages after ~2000 years according to my worldbuilding..

I read the rules idk if I’m breaking them

I wanna tell them about the stress and anxiety I’ve been having lately

I have the whole draft typed out but I can’t figure out when to send it to them and I’m kind of scared that they won’t take me seriously but I also feel like I have to tell them

Don’t get me wrong I love my mother(s)

Recently I’ve been extremely anxious about my bodily health. And I know I have phone addiction, chronically lazy and is not the healthiest person out there, but I know I won’t randomly get a tumour. But this is gnawing at me.

Everytime I felt throat discomfort I think of anaphylaxis

Everytime I felt my heartbeat going up I think of heart attack

I felt pain in the side of my body I think of kidney failures

My head hurts I think of brain swelling

This is so bad I am perpetually stressed at this point. I kept trying to tell me that the odds are in my favour and I can’t be having anaphylaxis, heart attack, tumour, kidney failure and brain swelling at the same time, but how can I be sure that nothings wrong with my organs?

So ykw today I chose to talk to my mother about it. But she just gives the most generic answers like “don’t google your symptoms” no shit I know. But I told her I’m feeling stressed and it’s like she doesn’t take me seriously

It’s so bad this haunts me to my sleep and the only time I get a break from this is by sleeping

I have a coin collection book and I’m just slipping coins in there, I want to organise them like putting their names and stuff but idk where to put it and how to start. The book kinda looks boring

Also I bought some coins from the mint and Canada post, and some of them are far too big for any of my slots to fit, I’m just putting them on my shelf but I feel like it’s not the best place

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