Feels unfair
Posted a day or two days ago I don't remember. Told my friend that the only reason I went to the village was because of her and since I came here we haven't hung out almost at all. Tomorrow she's going to town all day and I can't come with because there's no space in the car, she tried to find some compromise but nothing, and all that bc i told her that I've been staying at home since we came here and haven't hung out like it is. Also the friends she's seeing she sees them already all the time, i know it's selfish to be mad about how she spends her time but I see her like twice a year and come and go at her time being here. From like the 2 weeks I'm here I've seen her in like 2 and a half days, maybe even less if I take out hours from the day.
Idk this doesn't even make sense I'm crying while writing this. I've been crying almost every day I've been here this feels like waste. I've been so sad that it has made me think that everyone hates me even my partner who's not even here. I don't want to come here again but probably will this is a summer routine I've had since i was little. I really wish she'd include me or tell me her actual plans so that I don't waste time wasting away feeling alone.
Sorry if this was too long :(