I’ll never be chosen
I’ve never actually been cheated on as far as I know, but in every relationship I’ve been in, there’s always someone else that comes along that my partner says they find attractive or want to pursue something, or they just end up leaving me for said person. It’s left me with this feeling that I’ll never be good enough for someone to choose me and to stay with me. When I’m in love, that feeling of wanting love and affection and attention and wanting intimacy doesn’t really decrease all that much in compared to other people from at least what I’ve noticed. For some reason they always lose interest in me.
I’m in a relationship right now that’s a little over two years, and my partner right now has a tendency to get very fixated on new people that she has grown close to, then move to the next exciting person. And I feel kind of left in the dust already. I’m not new so I’m just there and unimportant. I guess I wonder if it’s normal for this to be an inevitability in relationships or if I should just stop trying to be loved by someone else because I’m getting a little exhausted. Like my heart can’t really take much more of it. I understand as well that this must be from somewhere that I’m lacking if it keeps happening to me over and over haha I mean no one is perfect