u/2BLTS

I am a single mom to two kids, they are the only light in my life, and I promised I would always be there for them because I've never had anyone for me. But the truth is I can't do it anymore, I've been working 7 days a week, running on 4 hours of sleep a night, and my youngest just turned 2 yesterday. I'm drowning, I'm completely burnt out, I've reached out for help which was very hard to do, and nobody is hearing me. I was in foster care until 18, and I was under the impression if you finish school, don't do drugs, hold a job and a good moral compass that everything would be ok.

I don't lie, I always put my shopping cart away, I help those less fortunate than me 100% of the chances I can. Every single morning I wake up with my chest so heavy trying to figure out how to get through the day. I work full time, and have no help, so the baby has been at work with me since he's been born, I can't shower alone or eat, and that doesn't bother me because I love my kids and will do anything for them. But I physically and mentally can't do it anymore I've tried so hard. Today was the last day of school, I'm going to send my daughter to be with her dad in Florida,I hope she will be ok. But my baby doesn't have anyone except for me, and I'm terrified of where he will end up. He is autistic, so it's hard sometimes, and I know nobody will ever have the love for my kids that I carry... I have drowned myself just trying to stay above water, i have always said no matter what happens, at least I know I'm a good mom, and that's not even true anymore. I can't push one more day and just needed to get it off my chest. If there is a god, my final prayer is that he will protect my children, and give them everything that I couldn't. I'm so sorry for whatever I've done to put me in this position.