i’m 16. i guess one of the things i really want to do one day is shave my head. i can’t really imagine having the courage to do that anytime soon, so i’m stuck wearing bandanas and hats for at least another few years, probably.
i just want my hair to be all the same length again!!
can anyone who has shaved their head (especially women) share what it’s been like? are there parts to it that people don’t consider? i hope i get the courage to one day.
it feels like recently i’ve got kind of...attached to my pulling. it’s the trich that got me in touch with mental health services and still it feels like the only certainty/proof i have when i’m feeling anxious or ‘off’.
which has basically led to the behaviour changing weirdly. it’s becoming more purposeful and like a way to communicate distress.
this has made it really hard to get the motivation to stop. it’s like i get this urge to sabotage any progress i make, so i never let my bald spots fill in too much.
i guess i’m asking for some reassurance that it’s a good thing to have my hair grow back. because of course i want my hair back. i‘ve just got in way too deep in these irrational thoughts that i need the certainty that pulling badly gives me.
I had a really bad pulling session about 3 days ago which ended when I suddenly really hurt my wrist. I don’t know what it was, but something felt like it just clicked really painfully and my wrist kind of buckled? It didn’t stay painful for more than maybe 30 minutes but it scared me out of pulling since then.
I gave in today and pulled a bit, but my thumb/hand still feels slightly painful when i grip/pinch too hard. I don’t know what this is. I think it happened because I try so hard to pull the super short regrowth on my head which is really hard to grip.
Has anyone else experienced this? Any tips?