u/312creep

Come take a seat

It's about to get deep

So relax, 

Kick up your. Feet

You see I was born elite

That's why the hill I climb is so steep 

Had to face all life's challenges 

& Could not cheat 

So many times I wish

To throw in the towel & claim defeat 

But grandad said 

Quiting for the weak 

Fight through the pain

& Better not weep 

Not a single peep 

 Or 1 tear leak 

With a kiss on the cheek 

& Some money to eat ,

The creep would speak 

I'm not raising no sheep

Be back. Gone to the beach 

A young girl in the seat

pull off in his jeep

Be gone for weeks  

Project halls is where I would sleep

That's how it goes in these New York streets 

Gotta be strong, 

so he started me young.

Surving the streets was

College 101 

can't afford to be dumb 

Want to end up a bum 

Smelling like Jamaican rum

Or have 1 of life's greatest runs...

We never know the day or hour

you could be here today gone tomorrow

our time is borrowed

fear the day a loved one expires

So let them smell the flowers

before the final hours

life has a funny way

to bring April showers

have me wishing I could see you tomorrow

now there's just sorrow

what follows

your mental swallowed

feeling empty

hollow

but there's no time to wallow

because life goes on

everyday you wake up

you're a day closer to dead

better figure out

what to do with that time instead

before you're next

in that permanent bed

Viewing your waist too head

wishing you did more good

than evil instead

dressed like a sea of seagulls

waiting to see

If deem to go,

thru heavenly gates you go

or into a fiery moat

Forever you burn & float

If you knew,

Why wouldn't you tell me,

Just kept it a secret & up & left me,

That devastates me,

To the point I hate me,

Mad you can say you date me,

3 is probably what you would rate me,

Because tomorrow never came,

Yes I hate me,,

A few hours a day wouldn't kill me,

But visits I missed eat me,

Hospital bed wondering,

How could this nigga not be with me,

Praying that you don't hold it against me & your family forgives me,

Not seeing you in the last days,

Is commiting sin to me,

After how good a friend you been to me,

You don't wanna know what I think of me,

Just know,

I hate me...

Some of us have gotten lost now listen before you give me a rebuttal we are being deceived and misled by false prophets not preaching but entertaining for financial gains I didn't come and see a show I came to hear the word now would you believe me if I told you it is all the same Muslims Jews Jesus Jehovah's Christians but not Catholics and wait I know y'all burning to speak but let me prove it first is anyone know what makes Muslims Catholics and Jews different the difference between the three main doctrines let's start with what they share and have in common they all tell the Old testament Abraham the creation Moses and yes Jesus they all preach the ten commandments not to eat pork now here's where we start to defer Jews believe that a Divine people God's people Catholics and Christians believe Jesus was the last prophet and Muslims believe it was Muhammad now this is why I'm non denominational not non-denominational Christian how that work you non denominational but Christian right but what is a prophet a prophet is a messenger of God now remember that I get back to that are we going places today I'm confused at this part they tell you talk to God he'll answer you or deliver a message to you or a sign a message assigned well that's communicating with God but if God delivers an epiphany while you're asleep some inspiration the piece of the puzzle that's been missing the right word that need to be told if you say God told you openly your label crazy well do you believe or not pick or choose because God is magnificent God is all powerful if God wants to talk to someone who's going to tell him no, stop you can't do that because in civilized times we don't believe you got the power to do what you want when you want how bout that your creations putting a cap on your might to suit their own plots and schemes. You know why they did that? To stop people from popping up with God's word real or not gaining attention and following away from the church and to keep the influence in the church. I don't believe I'm a profit but God talk to me to set the story right let me end this and transition on to the next thing with a little comparison to make you go hmm. I don't believe in the three and one they're all separate entities and ancient Greece there was Zeus Almighty and powerful who would that be today God right hold on hold on let me show you where I'm going with this now who would be Jesus then Hercules a human but son of God AK Zeus so who's the holy Spirit Hermes the messenger of God what about Michael the archangel who goes to war for God wouldn't that be Aries the God of war he fights for Zeus when I'm getting at it's all the same story whether they're labeled Angels or gods they all play the same roles just told them different language from different places am I making sense where am I the only one to see it now back to the three and one no it's God the holy Spirit and Jesus working as one because they followed the direction of one the only one the holy spirit is the messenger of God does God's bidding Jesus is not God I do not pray to Jesus I pray to God directly to God no other John 17:3 the only true God and Jesus Christ who you have sent Jesus calls the Father the only true God and himself the one sent John 14:28 the father is greater than I they are not equal Mark 10:18 why do you call me good no one is good but God alone secondly Jesus prays to God not himself Matthew 26:39 my father not as I will but as you will Luke 23:34 father forgive them not for himself top forgive them he tells you to pray to God not himself Matthew 6:9 our Father in heaven John 16:23 whatever you ask the father in my name he will give you the request goes to God not Jesus, fourth Jesus claims dependence on God John 5:30 I can do nothing on my own I seek not my own will but the will of him who sent me Matthew 4:10 worship the Lord God and serve him only John 4:23 true worshipers will worship the father in the spirit and Truth John 2017 I am ascending to my father and your father to my God and your God Matthew 27:46 Mark 15:34 Psalms 22:1 my God my God why have you forsaken me clearly separates himself from God hear me out, have you ever heard the expression put it in the book no one will read it God wrote it in stone no one read it but when they make the book of movie everyone goes to see it with God sent a lie-action movie starring Jesus so the world could watch and learn about God and his laws and it was such a box office hit they had to kill him to stop the sequel or they thought but the second coming is coming better get right with God. Now let me take you for a ride with why Catholics is different first let's start with a little history about the Vatican and the Roman Catholic Church keyword Roman so at one point in time Rome conquered most of the world the last things that history teaches us about Rome is that Brutus stab Caesar and the Republic went back to the people and the Senate but what happened to all of those governments and post they had in all these countries they didn't just go home like they did with Alexander the Great they rebranded the empire became the Vatican and here's why I say that because the whole time Rome was conquering they were also spreading Christianity and pushing the influence of it on to the people they took rule over so now they're not conquering anymore they're preaching the word of God they're the Roman Catholic Church and the Roman Catholic Church is all over the world the pope is the biggest landowner in the world if they didn't rebrand and Rome never fell then how is he the biggest landowner how does he still own all the places Rome conquered along with the knights of Templar which I'm about to get into so if they didn't rebrand tell me why when you greet the emperor it was custom to bow down and kisses ring well tell me isn't that the same custom when you meet the Pope who is the only person in history that Kings bow down to and kisses ring the Pope who's the only person in history 1800s and before to be the only person that can stop wars between countries and they listen the Pope if they didn't bring bran instead of conquering they were battling for God with an army that had rain and jurisdiction over all other armies in all countries they went where they want and did what they want without question everywhere spreading Christianity destroying other cultures and religions taking artifacts of what they believe was of value and destroying all reminiscence of the religion and culture that they didn't take and wiping it out of history books so tonight destroyed and spread Christianity until they figure it out the evil that was going on behind the church and that's when they were exiled and persecuted into Extinction they literally shaped the world pushing Christianity and politics behind the scenes if the Roman Catholic Church doesn't control the world why do all government officials and celebrities in America when they reach prominence turn to the Roman Catholic Church and start attending masses there but let me not preach conspiracy let me tell you that they also sanctified merry the virgin and other figures the sanctity and worship when there is no other to praise with God Jesus said there is no one good but God analyzing the holy covenant and The cauldron the spear the cross was Jesus died upon passing out rosaries how do you idolize Jesus at his worst moment being crucified on the cross and that's a symbol of spirituality it's like you're flaunting his death idolizing statues in cathedrals the only thing that should be worshiped and praised is God only God in Jesus name thank you God pray to you God only you God did you know Jesus wrote his own book know why we don't see Jesus doctrine because he spoke about not having to give praise just at although it's good to worship in mass but being able to just give praise anywhere anytime just give glory to the Lord the master the king of all kings the 1 and only God you see Jesus isn't the Lord to me he's my shepherd he's my light house blue print a diy video he preached about equalness whether rich or poor pure or sinful healthy or sick he intertwined with them all heal the sick walk with prostitutes kiss the feet of the homeless he preached humbleness he preached about humanity helping each other showing each other love not hate me divisions we've all lost our ways we've all lost sight of what's right in the Lord's eyes how to walk right with the Lord we've all gone astray now do you know why we read the King James Bible because before the King James version there was the Geneva Bible and in that Bible it spoke about not trusting governments and kings because they go corrupt and mislead and deceive.The Geneva Bible’s tone leans heavily toward this idea:

Human rulers are temporary

Power corrupts or at least distorts judgment

Trust belongs higher than political systemsPsalm 146:3 (Geneva Bible style)

“Put not your trust in princes, nor in the son of man, for there is no help in him.”Jeremiah 17:5

“Cursed be the man that trusteth in man, and maketh flesh his arm, and withdraweth his heart from the LordEcclesiastes 8:9

“There is a time wherein one man ruleth over another to his own hurt so king James had the bible rewrote to be more suitable more government friendly and that's how we got the king James version.

Some of us have gotten lost now listen before you give me a rebuttal we are being deceived and misled by false prophets not preaching but entertaining for financial gains I didn't come and see a show I came to hear the word now would you believe me if I told you it is all the same Muslims Jews Jesus Jehovah's Christians but not Catholics and wait I know y'all burning to speak but let me prove it first is anyone know what makes Muslims Catholics and Jews different the difference between the three main doctrines let's start with what they share and have in common they all tell the Old testament Abraham the creation Moses and yes Jesus they all preach the ten commandments not to eat pork now here's where we start to defer Jews believe that a Divine people God's people Catholics and Christians believe Jesus was the last prophet and Muslims believe it was Muhammad now this is why I'm non denominational not non-denominational Christian how that work you non denominational but Christian right but what is a prophet a prophet is a messenger of God now remember that I get back to that are we going places today I'm confused at this part they tell you talk to God he'll answer you or deliver a message to you or a sign a message assigned well that's communicating with God but if God delivers an epiphany while you're asleep some inspiration the piece of the puzzle that's been missing the right word that need to be told if you say God told you openly your label crazy well do you believe or not pick or choose because God is magnificent God is all powerful if God wants to talk to someone who's going to tell him no, stop you can't do that because in civilized times we don't believe you got the power to do what you want when you want how bout that your creations putting a cap on your might to suit their own plots and schemes. You know why they did that? To stop people from popping up with God's word real or not gaining attention and following away from the church and to keep the influence in the church. I don't believe I'm a profit but God talk to me to set the story right let me end this and transition on to the next thing with a little comparison to make you go hmm. I don't believe in the three and one they're all separate entities and ancient Greece there was Zeus Almighty and powerful who would that be today God right hold on hold on let me show you where I'm going with this now who would be Jesus then Hercules a human but son of God AK Zeus so who's the holy Spirit Hermes the messenger of God what about Michael the archangel who goes to war for God wouldn't that be Aries the God of war he fights for Zeus when I'm getting at it's all the same story whether they're labeled Angels or gods they all play the same roles just told them different language from different places am I making sense where am I the only one to see it now back to the three and one no it's God the holy Spirit and Jesus working as one because they followed the direction of one the only one the holy spirit is the messenger of God does God's bidding Jesus is not God I do not pray to Jesus I pray to God directly to God no other John 17:3 the only true God and Jesus Christ who you have sent Jesus calls the Father the only true God and himself the one sent John 14:28 the father is greater than I they are not equal Mark 10:18 why do you call me good no one is good but God alone secondly Jesus prays to God not himself Matthew 26:39 my father not as I will but as you will Luke 23:34 father forgive them not for himself top forgive them he tells you to pray to God not himself Matthew 6:9 our Father in heaven John 16:23 whatever you ask the father in my name he will give you the request goes to God not Jesus, fourth Jesus claims dependence on God John 5:30 I can do nothing on my own I seek not my own will but the will of him who sent me Matthew 4:10 worship the Lord God and serve him only John 4:23 true worshipers will worship the father in the spirit and Truth John 2017 I am ascending to my father and your father to my God and your God Matthew 27:46 Mark 15:34 Psalms 22:1 my God my God why have you forsaken me clearly separates himself from God hear me out, have you ever heard the expression put it in the book no one will read it God wrote it in stone no one read it but when they make the book of movie everyone goes to see it with God sent a lie-action movie starring Jesus so the world could watch and learn about God and his laws and it was such a box office hit they had to kill him to stop the sequel or they thought but the second coming is coming better get right with God. Now let me take you for a ride with why Catholics is different first let's start with a little history about the Vatican and the Roman Catholic Church keyword Roman so at one point in time Rome conquered most of the world the last things that history teaches us about Rome is that Brutus stab Caesar and the Republic went back to the people and the Senate but what happened to all of those governments and post they had in all these countries they didn't just go home like they did with Alexander the Great they rebranded the empire became the Vatican and here's why I say that because the whole time Rome was conquering they were also spreading Christianity and pushing the influence of it on to the people they took rule over so now they're not conquering anymore they're preaching the word of God they're the Roman Catholic Church and the Roman Catholic Church is all over the world the pope is the biggest landowner in the world if they didn't rebrand and Rome never fell then how is he the biggest landowner how does he still own all the places Rome conquered along with the knights of Templar which I'm about to get into so if they didn't rebrand tell me why when you greet the emperor it was custom to bow down and kisses ring well tell me isn't that the same custom when you meet the Pope who is the only person in history that Kings bow down to and kisses ring the Pope who's the only person in history 1800s and before to be the only person that can stop wars between countries and they listen the Pope if they didn't bring bran instead of conquering they were battling for God with an army that had rain and jurisdiction over all other armies in all countries they went where they want and did what they want without question everywhere spreading Christianity destroying other cultures and religions taking artifacts of what they believe was of value and destroying all reminiscence of the religion and culture that they didn't take and wiping it out of history books so tonight destroyed and spread Christianity until they figure it out the evil that was going on behind the church and that's when they were exiled and persecuted into Extinction they literally shaped the world pushing Christianity and politics behind the scenes if the Roman Catholic Church doesn't control the world why do all government officials and celebrities in America when they reach prominence turn to the Roman Catholic Church and start attending masses there but let me not preach conspiracy let me tell you that they also sanctified merry the virgin and other figures the sanctity and worship when there is no other to praise with God Jesus said there is no one good but God analyzing the holy covenant and The cauldron the spear the cross was Jesus died upon passing out rosaries how do you idolize Jesus at his worst moment being crucified on the cross and that's a symbol of spirituality it's like you're flaunting his death idolizing statues in cathedrals the only thing that should be worshiped and praised is God only God in Jesus name thank you God pray to you God only you God did you know Jesus wrote his own book know why we don't see Jesus doctrine because he spoke about not having to give praise just at although it's good to worship in mass but being able to just give praise anywhere anytime just give glory to the Lord the master the king of all kings the 1 and only God you see Jesus isn't the Lord to me he's my shepherd he's my light house blue print a diy video he preached about equalness whether rich or poor pure or sinful healthy or sick he intertwined with them all heal the sick walk with prostitutes kiss the feet of the homeless he preached humbleness he preached about humanity helping each other showing each other love not hate me divisions we've all lost our ways we've all lost sight of what's right in the Lord's eyes how to walk right with the Lord we've all gone astray now do you know why we read the King James Bible because before the King James version there was the Geneva Bible and in that Bible it spoke about not trusting governments and kings because they go corrupt and mislead and deceive.The Geneva Bible’s tone leans heavily toward this idea:

Human rulers are temporary

Power corrupts or at least distorts judgment

Trust belongs higher than political systemsPsalm 146:3 (Geneva Bible style)

“Put not your trust in princes, nor in the son of man, for there is no help in him.”Jeremiah 17:5

“Cursed be the man that trusteth in man, and maketh flesh his arm, and withdraweth his heart from the LordEcclesiastes 8:9

“There is a time wherein one man ruleth over another to his own hurt so king James had the bible rewrote to be more suitable more government friendly and that's how we got the king James version.

My deposition

So give me a ear and listen

Because officially my life is in disposition

Been lost in transition

Since she's been missing

Mine fenced in fishing

for the will to keep living

Knowing it's a seat missing next Thanksgiving

Questioning should prayers still be given

God are you listening

Your child is struggling

Depression is smothering

Only drugs ease the suffering

While my whole world is burning

She's the one thing I'm yearning

All this pain is discerning

For my mom it's concerning

Because cocaine I'm snorting

Weed I'm smoking

Alcohol I'm abusing

Drunk words be like

God I'm suing

Wake up and be like what am I doing

It's my spirit wounded

Ego bruised it

So much s*** in my life

I should be used to it

Finally in treatment

Back of my mind saying

Too late you blew it

But 28 days

I'm sticking through it

You ever live life care free,

Always knew when you get old where you'll be,

Met your soulmate at 13,

My story ain't no fairytail to be told,

Shit I went through will break the bold,

Under this pressure you'll fold,

Life turned shit from gold,

9m.m. was how it was stole,

Woke up in Mt.Sinia,

Didn't feel whole,

What was missing?,

My soul!,

family stole,

Doors closed,

Help told no,

Recovery was a ruff road,

Still I didn't fold,

Wondering why God so cold,

Destined to be alone and old,

10 years later still ain't found which way to go,

Drifting with no current or flow,

Sade why you have to go,

Tiff too,

Who would have knew,

A ice wall to break through,

But where are the tools,

Getting high like a fool,

Still being hated on too,

Abandonment issues to work through,

Crew fell apart,

I hate and love y'all too,

Yes Ramon,

We all blame you,

40 with no shorties,

Mother getting worried,

She won't see that grand Glory,

Add chemo to the story,

God I still praise your glory,

But I'm asking for your mercy,

Why have you cursed me,

Or maybe I just can't see,

it's just a rebirth for me,

That's what the preacher told me,

I just wish someone was here to hold me,

I'm unsteady,

Just love me

Have you ever died to come back alive,

not feel right inside

still spread your wings and fly,

and just as your life begins to thrive

your shot down by some jive,

it's been a long & bumpy ride,

suit up we almost arrived,

deep in depression we dive,

swim to isolation & hide,

now we get high,

day after day time passes us bye,

some nights just stay up & cry,

for weeks this how I survive,

questioning my will to live or to die,

what will I decide,

don't know what to choose it's an even divide,

but after all that

finally found the strength to go outside,

answer your phone and say hi

just to hear all the lies,

well this my cycle

it's bad like Michael.

It's weird,

I never had a love like this,

it's like she never cared,

or does she care,

my family don't care

& tell me,"you shouldn't care"

, for some reason I do care,

even though this relationship strips me bare,

karma from relationships I did unfair

& at the time never cared,

at 2 a.m. on the back porch with this emotion I'm filled,

crisp cold air

my lungs I fill

I shed a tear,

it's heartbreak I Revere,

I failed you my dear,

empty promises I filled your ear,

now a second tear

, for all the hurt you feel

, looking me in my eyes,

like daggers they kill,

i only ask that mercy, mercy, is your will,

questioning how long this relationship will endear,

I shed my 3rd and final tear,

knowing this our last year....