Ran into my ghoster after 2 months since his departure from I, lmao
Saw my ghoster while at work in the city. We were in a relationship for about 10 months. But met each other in march 25’. And he abandoned me in march 26’. Almost like clock work.
I was walking back to my job after making a run, and while approaching the corner to wait and cross. I saw a silhouette out the side of my eye, and took a double take. And long and behold, it was him crossing the street to stand at the exact same corner as I to wait and cross…
His energy while approaching seemed aggressive to me. As he was speed walking like he was late, but also like I maybe saw me first and wanted to be seen by me. I’m not sure. But the energy felt odd to me, as he didn’t really acknowledge me at all, when he knew damn well.
I was in my head kinda thinking no way. I didn’t speak initially because, why would I… So I just stood there peacefully. And he once again stepped forward aggressively it felt, so that he was standing directly on the side of me… I then just looked over to really look at him, because his aura gave I was an enemy or something and I was just like are you good?? He looked nonchalantly in a way and through up a half ass peace greeting. And I just verbally said “hey” because even after countless nights of despair, I don’t want to have hate in my heart.
We then stood on that corner silently side by side. Then the light changed. I walked mildly. He speed walked once again as in a rush. And just like that he was gone again.
After that I was shaking a bit, kinda sad and didn’t know how to feel. But the next day and two, I kinda felt more relieved like I was helped being released. There’s so many answers I’ll never get, but I felt more content then ever to never need to know them, especially seeing how his energy felt ugly that day. It made me feel like he knew he was hurting me this whole time. And that was so ugly to me to never need again.
Just sucks this has become our reality after such a deep connection. I admit I never met anyone like him and could possibly be a long time before I find anything mutual like it again.
When he left it was so unexpected and uncalled for. But yeah I think I’ve been healing pretty fast and well. I still feel guilty, talking to others, and longing for that once felt care as each other’s first partners (age 25 & 26). But I know I deserve so much and all my emotions will return to normal one day.
Thanks for letting me share.