u/3cWizard

Does anyone have a dog walker they Love who is very reliable as well as insured? Would really like to find someone great!

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I'm having a rough time. My wife and I started as friends and it grew into what I thought was a beautiful marriage. The support and Love we shared was unlike anything I ever had before. I was in it to my dying breath, locked in and dedicated. I really put in the work. I did my part. I was a great husband. I could only imagine, even with my flaws, most woman dream of someone who was there for them like I was for my wife.

We lost the spark for intimacy as soon as we tied the knot 4 years ago. We got into therapy maybe 10 months ago. I cut the porn out- I was willing to do anything to get into bed each week- regardless of how I felt. I needed that connection. After a year of therapy and workshops, $10K- she just. Didn't. Budge.

All of that rejection killed me. I still can't understand how she couldn't provide the most basic marital duties. Especially for what we had and what little I needed from her. We really had it all.

Everything else in our marriage was great. We lived and ran our business like machines. We keep the energy high and grateful and didn't fight and bicker all the time.

Long story short: we are seeing a mediator for divorce this coming week. We own and operate a busy business together. It's a lot of scheduling and messaging. She litterally is going on like nothing is happening. You wouldn't even be able to tell we are separating. My best choice right now due to several factors is to move into an RV in the woods.

I went from being in a happy marriage (so I thought) and a pretty fucking dreamy financial situation to- living in an RV, barely making ends meet- missing my wife- being so fucking angry that she would even consider walking away from this.

We have no children. We are splitting everything 50/50 and are avoiding attorneys. We will continue our work with the business.

I don't know what I'm looking for here. I hated the world of dating. I was so happy I was done- found my life mate and all that was over. Am I doomed? Are there support groups I should look for? My sobriety is at risk, which risks everything. I am in total disbelief. All I can think to do is to blast TRT and pour myself into the gym. Is that wrong? Anybody have anything hopeful to say?