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No wonder literally no one can stand me. I can’t even stand myself. It’s been maybe about a month or two roughly i think and I’ve just caused so much shit and made myself look like a complete joke even more so than usual. I don’t know how to come back from this it’s gonna be pretty hard to change anyone’s mind about me at this point, I’m actual trash. Wtf was I thinking?? I just fuck with peoples feelings and lead them on supposedly but I don’t even realise I’m doing it. Someone recently said I talk too much (about shit I shouldn’t constantly), I’m inconsiderate and don’t show much emotion or affection and “lots more”. I know I need to stop I cannot continue to do this anymore. Is there anything I can do specifically to even at least begin to fix this? I actually never want to leave my house ever again right now, I honestly feel like everyone would prefer it if I wasn’t here anymore but I don’t want to die. I just wish I could take it all back I hate myself so much right now. No one deserved any of that. I just need to keep to myself and stay away from everyone that’s the only way none of this will ever happen. You will all probably see this and laugh at me but if anyone could just give some sort of encouragement right now I’d appreciate it a lot. Not that I deserve any help.