I need help
I'm sensitive towards noise, bright lights, intense temperature difference,the texture of clothes, the texture of food, negative comments (even though I believe some of the comments are justified), negative vibes, specific sounds,etc. I also tend to get extremely angry when someone makes false assumptions about me even if they're jokes.I cry easily and can feel the emotions of others and their emotions affect me significantly. My parents often tell me that I'm too sensitive and that I can't live in this world like that and that I need to change myself since I was a child. I thought that I was crazy.
I found a video about HSP and I thought that I was a HSP up until now. Today, I found that HSP is not a real term and that it can be ASD, ADHD or Autism. I tried to learn about these terms but they didn't fit the criteria. I think that maybe I just don't want to accept it. Maybe I don't know myself anymore since I tried to change myself so that others may accept me.
I can't get professional help because where I live going to a psychiatrist or psychologist labels you as a "psycho". Even my family believes that. Therapy here is expensive and my family is not financially stable.
I need your help to know about myself. There's no one I can ask about it. It really bothers me because I spent all my life thinking that I was crazy. My family would tell me to "stop playing victim" and "why are you so dramatic".At one point they even called me a psycho and I believed it. It is really hard for me to go on living like that. I'm tired of my life.