I finally did it! Left 3 weeks ago and i feel so much relief
Im(24m) and i had been with my exwbpd for 5 years. She was my first official girlfriend and i had been thinking about breaking up for multiple years and i never thought i would be able to do it. I made 2 attempts before but she was able to manipulate me back by blaming me, gaslighting, promising change and threatening suicide etc. But this time was different, i had talked to everybody i trust and they all supported me leaving.
I had thought of breaking up all week and finally i felt so much stress that i just had to get it out of me. I told her and she tried to feel my back in all her ways but i stood firm. I finally had to leave to make her stop. She tried to call me 20 times a day and she called my parents and everybody i know to get a hold of me. I cried myself to sleep everyday of the first week, i thought many times that i had made the wrong decision but i was able to hold off. This third week has been such an eye opener.
I can go hang out with friends and not expect to get punished when i get home. Im not critiziced constantly and being told how im not enough. Im not threatened and pushed around. I for sure miss having a girlfriend to cuddle with, have sex and someone to care for that also cares for me, but i dont miss having her. I wrote a diary of the things she did the last three months of our relationship and its a huge help to get my head straight when i start to believe we had it good.
I did not think it was possible for me to leave. I had tried before and i felt so insanely weak for not being able to stand up for myself but i finally did it! I hope this can help some of you thats still with there pWBPD that want to leave.