Am i weird
Hello everybody i am an 18 year old male.
I'm really confused and i don't know what to do. so for a really long time (about two years) I've had a dire and deep urge to be a female. not trans but like i wish i was born a female. whenever i watch "content" i ways wish i was the female instead of the male. i want to be a girl so much to the point that just thinking about how i cant genuinely almost brings me to tears. i would experiment with how i feel about being trans but my family are hard Christians. And my dad is one of the most homophobic people I've ever met but back to the main point. i don't know what to do anymore i genuinely feel like i need an outlet for how i feel and it bottled up until i came here. the thing is i don't feel attracted to men (well at least not nearly as much as I've been attracted to women) i just want so badly to feel feminine and cute and it feels like i cant breath when i think about it and i get a headache. this is a burner account because I'm am not letting any of he people in my life know this. it feels good to say but at the same time scary even though i know that this is a safe space. i hope this isn't disrespectful to the trans community, if so please tell me. i was raised in a Christian household where they would say the F slur to refer to the LGBTQ+ constantly and normally so i don't really know what would be disrespectful. anyway bye and thanks for reading. please if you have any advice let me know.