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Alam ko malapit na BE and lahat tayo nagpeprepare for it. Pero lately, kung kailan malapit ang BE, saka humihingi ng tulong sa pagrereview.

For context, simula nung nagstart na ang review sa RC, I told myself na bawasan muna ang mga gala and labas ng labas para makapag-focus, lalo na graduated na and I don't have the obligation yet to find a job immediately. I tell myself na this is a privilege na kasi may iba na working students who juggle their time talaga para ma-fit nila ang sched ng pag-aaral nila (saludo sa inyo talaga!) Kaya ayun, last 2 months ago, dinidisiplina ko na self ko to manage my time.

Yung mga kaibigan ko na nag-RC din, I've noticed na sobrang bihira lang nila pumasok sa RC. At first I don't mind naman kasi baka ineenjoy muna nila yung vacation nila. Kaso habang tumatagal, it's becoming concerning na rin. I noticed na yung stories nila sa IG every week may galaan, lalo na tumatapat talaga sa sched ng RC (kaya majority of that time, absent sila). May times din na kapag nagsostory ako ng review ko sa IG, nagrereact sila and naghihingi ng reviewer, to which I give naman kasi tulungan na this exam.

As they continue this, na-ooff ako kasi napapaisip ako kung sineseryoso ba talaga nila yung review nila, lalo na parang bakit nakaasa na sila sa akin sa mga notes ko that I take when I am at the RC (like di pa enough yung sinend kong reviewers). Dahil doon dinidistansya ko as much as I can sa kanila na kasi parang umaasa na sila sa akin kesa umattend ng RC na binayad nila.

This week naman, supposedly pahinga ko, nagchat yung isa sa kanila for help. Inaask na paano gawin ito at ganyan sa PA. That's the same topic that was discussed over and over ng mga iilang lecturers noon sa RC (mga parametrics and nonparametrics, validities, and reliabilities, etc.). Sineen ko lang siya kasi ayaw ko na ng ganon, lalo na I feel like I am being taken advantage. Tas mamaya, after what happened, may makikita ako sa IG notes na "damot amputa" like ????

Tangina dapat BE ako nasestress pero di ko alam bat sa mga "kaibigan" ako nasestress. Parang gusto kong magalit na ewan sa ginagawa nila, lalo na parang nagmumukha akong selfish sa part na yun kahit sa totoo lang, napapagod ako sa ganong pag-uugali nila. Gusto ko lang irant out here kasi ambigat na masyado sa puso ko ngayon, lalo na I am mentally exhausted din.

It's okay to feel what you feel ngayon. Mahirap talaga, lalo na alam niyo sa sarili niyo na you all did your best in studying. Pero I hope na kahit man ganon nararamdaman ninyo, don't forget why you started taking boards in the first place. And regarding sa scores sa drills, take it in a new perspective na may mga di mo pa alam pero ready kang matuto para handa ka na sa susunod. Kapag nanghihinaan ng loob, it's okay to let out what you feel. Pahinga muna, both mentally and emotionally bago sumabak ulit.

If may di ka maintindihan na konsepto, don't put yourself down. Ask for help, lalo na sa mga people na nandito who are willing to help. Even sa mga nakapag-enroll sa RC, don't be afraid to ask for help and support. Yung theory ni Vygotsky nga ay nagsasabi na we learn through the help from More Knowledgeable Others (MKO) and through the support from scaffolding before we reach our Zone of Actual Development (ZAD). And just like sa theory ni Piaget, we need to assimilate information (fitting new info sa exising schemas natin) before accommodating it (modify our existing schemas). Treat the drills as a challenge sa sarili mo, as tool that we can use to improve ourselves.

And like sa psych assessment, may test-retest and doon sa test-retest, may mga practice effects, carryover effects, and test sophistication, na in simpler words, kapag paulit ulit napapractice in short intervals, magagamay na ng test takers ang test taking. And that's what's happening: paulit-ulit ang pagsasagot ng drills to enhance our test taking skills and add more on what we didn't know before. Para pagdating ng BE, less ang hirap sa pagtatake and alam natin paano masasagutan ang mga questions.

Let's try to treat these drills as a tool for us to improve. Like sa psych assessment, may referral question yan: "ano pang di ko alam?". You can treat this as a referral question to yourself, take the drills, and when you see your scores, that's the time you come up with an "intervention" on which specific concept/s need mo pang aralin.

Tying your scores from the drills sa self-worth mo isn't going to do you good. And like natutunan natin sa psych assessment, there are tests that measure a specific concept, and the test you are taking does not measure your WORTH as a person, but rather with what you know so far and what you can do to improve. If you are relating your score sa self-worth mo, aba, mababa ang face validity, content validity, and construct validity ng test na sinagutan mo para ma-measure self-worth mo (joke time lang para gumaan pakiramdam ninyo).

Going back, wag kayong mag-give up just because of the scores. If anything, sobrang nakakaproud kayo na you all made it this far, for trying even if it is hard. And for those wanting to take next year din (because of other reasons), it's alright, kasi regardless of timeline, makukuha ninyo pa rin ang license ninyo 😊

And if no one has told you this, again, sobrang proud ako sa inyo for showing up and continuing to improve (even if it may not seem like it).

Hoping to see you all soon sa field. From one day to day one!