I really miss my daughter.
I’ll do my best to sum all this up and explain it as quickly as possible. I had my daughter a little over a year ago and as of now she’s a one year and 3 months old. I love my little girl more than anything and all I want is to be the best father I can be to her. But things with my child’s mother slowly became spiraling and everything fell apart last month.
My child’s mother has seemingly always had mental problems(at least as long as I’ve known her) but it was never really concerning until But about 3 months after our daughter was born it became clear that she had severe mental issues and slowly it began to affect our relationship. Honestly there were times where she seemed like she hated my guts or like she wanted nothing to do with me and because of that I will admit at some point once I realized our relationship was doomed to fail I became distant from her.
The first day she became physically violent was our daughter birthday. I had gotten off work later than usual and she assumed I was out cheating. As soon as I opened the front door she began attacking me. Punching and screaming while our daughter was in her playpen watching all of this go down. I tried to explain to her why I was late but she refused to listen only stopping when our daughter started crying. After that day it was like a switch was flipped in her. She became emotionally and mentally abusive as well basically saying horrible things about me while also saying horrible things about my family and friends. It seemed like her goal was to isolate me by basically saying she was my only friend and that she was the only that cared about me.
The second incident happened at the beginning of April. I woke up to get ready for work and as I was changing our daughter diaper. She came into the living room to question if I had already been up. When I told her no she questioned why was there already a dirty diaper on the table. I genuinely had no clue I figured she left it there from the night before. So once I told her that I grabbed my daughter to sit her in the playpen. As soon as I turned around she attacked me. But this time it was worse. She kept hitting me over and over even when our baby started crying she refused to stop. I ended up on the ground and she started kicking me and stomping me in my head. Once I was able to get her back up she grabbed a butchers knife and lunged at me with it. I was able to stop her but then she began hitting me again. When she stopped and grabbed the knife a second time I grabbed my phone and walked out the front door.
At that point I had bruises and marks on me and I knew that all of this had escalated too far so I called the police. I guess I must’ve had some pretty serious bruises because when they arrived and after I explained to them what happened they immediately arrested her. She ended up being charged but then things got worse. While she was in custody she falsely accused me of sexual abuse of my daughter which got DHR involved and my daughter taken from me and placed into the custody of her great grandparents. As of now my daughter still is with her great grandparents and luckily it seems that DHR and the investigators also saw through my child’s mother accusations but because of standard procedure they still have to do an investigation. Also because of her domestic charge and the fact that she did everything less than 5 feet from our daughter DHR won’t let her mom get custody of her and most likely when the investigation is concluded I’ll be getting sole custody of her. So far it’s been a month since I’ve had my daughter and it’s been 2 weeks since I last talked to the investigators. I will admit it hasn’t been easy this past month. My mom thinks I may be dealing with depression and honestly she may be right. I just really miss my daughter and I wish she was here. I get to see her once a week and as much as I enjoy those days it’s also the hardest because I can only see her for that one day. Again sorry if this is long winded but I just had to kinda vent my distractions