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I’m a 20 year old engineering student ( female), and honestly… I feel like I betrayed myself.

For months and months, I worked so hard to save around $700. In my country, that amount means a lot for a student. Every dollar came from sacrifice. I stopped myself from buying things I wanted, stopped going out sometimes, kept telling myself “later” because I had goals and responsibilities.

Part of that money went to getting my driving license, and I was so proud of myself when I finally got it. It felt like proof that all my sacrifices were worth something.

I also help pay for my little brother’s football club because it’s his dream, and my parents don’t really support it financially. Seeing him happy on that field honestly makes me emotional because I know how much it means to him. I also pay for some of my own study essentials. I still don’t even have the phone I wanted. I’ve been surviving with just my laptop and trying to stay focused on engineering and building a future for myself.

But a few months ago, I found gambling groups on Telegram.

They post “safe” predictions, screenshots of huge wins, people celebrating money like it’s easy. Deep down I knew it was risky, but I think I was mentally exhausted from always struggling and sacrificing. I just wanted life to feel easier for once. I wanted to stop worrying about money all the time.

The first time, I won.

I turned $100 into $200, and that moment changed something in my brain. For a second, I felt hope. I thought maybe this could help me finally breathe a little financially.

Then I tried again with $300.

And I lost all of it.

I can’t even explain the feeling I had in that moment. My chest dropped. My stomach hurt. I just stared at the screen in silence. Since then, I keep replaying it in my head every single day wishing I could go back and stop myself.

What hurts the most is knowing how hard I worked for that money.

I think about all the moments I denied myself simple things just to save. I think about my little brother. I think about how long it took me to build that money slowly, only to lose a huge part of it in minutes because of one emotional decision.

I know people lose more money than this every day, but for me, this loss feels huge emotionally. It made me feel weak, stupid, ashamed, and disappointed in myself.

I’m not posting this for pity. I think I just needed someone to hear me because I’ve been carrying this alone and it’s eating me alive inside.

Right now I’m trying to move forward slowly instead of destroying myself mentally over one mistake. I know I can save money again because I already did it once with discipline and sacrifice. Maybe this experience was a painful lesson about desperation and trying to escape stress too quickly.

If anyone has advice, subliminals recommendations that genuinely helped you ,I’d really appreciate it.

Thank you🤍

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I’m a 20 year old engineering (female) student, and honestly… I feel like I betrayed myself.

For months and months, I worked so hard to save around $700. In my country, that amount means a lot for a student. Every dollar came from sacrifice. I stopped myself from buying things I wanted, stopped going out sometimes, kept telling myself “later” because I had goals and responsibilities.

Part of that money went to getting my driving license, and I was so proud of myself when I finally got it. It felt like proof that all my sacrifices were worth something.

I also help pay for my little brother’s football club because it’s his dream, and my parents don’t really support it financially. Seeing him happy on that field honestly makes me emotional because I know how much it means to him. I also pay for some of my own study essentials. I still don’t even have the phone I wanted. I’ve been surviving with just my laptop and trying to stay focused on engineering and building a future for myself.

But a few months ago, I found gambling groups on Telegram.

They post “safe” predictions, screenshots of huge wins, people celebrating money like it’s easy. Deep down I knew it was risky, but I think I was mentally exhausted from always struggling and sacrificing. I just wanted life to feel easier for once. I wanted to stop worrying about money all the time.

The first time, I won.

I turned $100 into $200, and that moment changed something in my brain. For a second, I felt hope. I thought maybe this could help me finally breathe a little financially.

Then I tried again with $300.

And I lost all of it.

I can’t even explain the feeling I had in that moment. My chest dropped. My stomach hurt. I just stared at the screen in silence. Since then, I keep replaying it in my head every single day wishing I could go back and stop myself.

What hurts the most is knowing how hard I worked for that money.

I think about all the moments I denied myself simple things just to save. I think about my little brother. I think about how long it took me to build that money slowly, only to lose a huge part of it in minutes because of one emotional decision.

I know people lose more money than this every day, but for me, this loss feels huge emotionally. It made me feel weak, stupid, ashamed, and disappointed in myself.

I’m not posting this for pity. I think I just needed someone to hear me because I’ve been carrying this alone and it’s eating me alive inside.

Right now I’m trying to move forward slowly instead of destroying myself mentally over one mistake. I know I can save money again because I already did it once with discipline and sacrifice. Maybe this experience was a painful lesson about desperation and trying to escape stress too quickly.

If anyone has to help in this community how their expérience or techniques , tips that tried to manifest money,