r/NevilleGoddard

I had gotten out of it. I really didn’t want to do it. We had just had a new baby. My focus was getting used to that again. This other thing was just gonna be a distraction. A time waster.

Others would’ve called it my civic duty. They would’ve called it the right thing to do. I bought the pearl rather than sold it. For me, that meant I had to say to no to something that others might’ve valued.

I said no to my civic duty. But I didn’t say no to it directly. I said no through a computer algorithm. To others, I would’ve cheated the system. I wouldn’t have participated in what society would’ve thought was the right thing to do.

So, what did I do?

I got out of being on jury duty. But it wasn’t in the way that you think. I didn’t even lie on the form, which is super common for people to do—-nope, I ended up using the law to achieve my desire through a computer algorithm.

It was meant to a full seven days. In fact that’s what I was told. I had to keep checking in every day on the computer. Just to see if I got jury duty. I went in. Sometimes with a knot in my stomach. Was it gonna be today? Was it gonna be called in. Was going to have to takeoff work for a week, a month, or a year?

But, I stayed with it. I stayed with the scene that showed me playing with my children. It was a simple scene. It was just me and my kids playing. It was me and my wife smiling at them.

That’s it. Almost boring. Almost natural. I felt it first person. I was there in the moment. Three times a day. 2 to 3 minutes. Color. Sound. Feeling.

It overpowered my doubt. Did it stop me from having doubt? Not really. And that’s OK. Perfection is not the point. Perfection stop you from actually being present. Perfection is a form of victim thinking. Why? Because it relies on the same neural circuitry as someone who is stuck in a hyper vigilant loop of constantly looking for threats. Did I do this correctly? Did I do enough affirmations? Perfectionism is a form of control dressed up as spiritual correctness.

God and Satan—are always with you, for one is faith and the other doubt.— Neville

Neville, nor did any other person ever argue that we needed to be perfect. That’s a Social value. That’s something we get taught as children. You don’t have to get it right. You just have to persist. Did you hear that? People may disagree with how I’m explaining this. And get that. But I’m also trying to get us away from this fact that, we need to perform the law. Or that to perform is to somehow get the desire.

That key part of Neville‘s quote is the word always—-You don’t sit there and try to annihilate doubt. In fact, there’s another verse from the apostle Paul that really argues the fact that what we should be doing, as you keep persisting in the new state so much so that, doubt just gets bored and doesn’t hang out anymore.

The Greek word is implode. It’s a pretty violent picture. You just simply move on, you don’t give it oxygen. You give your new world the color in it and the attention it deserves.

Performance and a natural desire are not the same thing. When the desire feels like you already have it to the point of being natural, is when the performance drops.

This is not the same as acting like the personality has it. This is not the same as cognitive embodiment. Which is essentially a scientific form of explaining the law.

When I went to go check my computer, was I performing the law perfectly? Nope. Most of the time when I was checking, it was in lack. I was performing the person who didn’t have it. I was performing as the person who was going to be stuck in jury duty for a year or more with no income. The end of the story. Is that the algorithm shut down might need to check in for the full seven days. It was actually a legal requirement to check in for seven day.

But,the algorithm had to listen to the law because I held the picture of my family happy. It was the third day. The day of resurrection. The day of the imagination/Christ coming back to life. That’s when I was told that I had fulfilled my jury duty responsibilities. That was the victory.

But, in those moments where I saw myself happy with my family. The moment that it felt real, that was way more powerful than I doubt.

One of my favorite stories in scripture that really gets to the heart of this. And also I think clarifies the idea of persistence and levels work, is the story of Joshua. Just a quick reminder, these stories are representations of the states that we can enter an exit well.

Joshua, according to the historical Cannon of his role, would’ve been a seasoned general. Quite possibly someone had seen war. Someone who had seen battle. Someone who might’ve actually had friends who died in front of his eyes. Yeti was brave. But even in his bravery, he was even told by God/imagination, to essentially give up his fear and trust the imagination.

Trust God. Trust the inner self. Trust the future self. Whatever version of you that really fits with this definition hold onto that. It is not about dogmatism. It’s not about getting the terms correct. It is not about following it like it’s some sort of black-and-white rule. I know others may disagree with that as well.

But I’m trying to get people away from perfectionism. Perfectionism in the law are not the same. You have the power, because it’s always been there. You don’t have to perform as if you were earning the power.

That’s where the trouble comes. That’s where the problem seem to amplify. Why? Because you are performing someone who can’t seem to fix things that don’t need to be fixed.

Here’s something that works really well. Create a scene where you’re not even thinking about your issues. Create a scene where it’s so real, the smell, the taste, the sounds, are so vivid, that you simply just trust that moment. There’s no need for someone in it to validate anything because if you were truly in the state of the person who had everything, it would be way past needing validation. It would just be you in the moment drinking it all up.

You don’t have to be perfect. You just have to persist. And that’s already inside of you. It always has been. It always will be. If you understand that as part of your inner technology, then you don’t have to earn it. You simply just return. You return again and again and again.

You will get there. In fact, you are already there. Just accept it.

Warning - very long read.

This happened over a year ago but I just remembered at the time that if I ever managed to pull this off, then I'd write a post about it to encourage other people, because I felt like my circumstances were impossible and there would be no way I could manifest this.

I know this is an incredibly long read; it took me hours to write it. But I did it that way because I don't think people who share their manifestations go into this stuff enough. But I know when I was manifesting, if I'd been able to read something like this, it would have been really helpful. I think going into it basically gives huge context as to who I was being then, which will show how my actions made complete sense from that old state.

My story is an LGBT manifestation story and just a little disclaimer: it contains some, let's call it, 'unsavory behavior' that I partook in, so judge that if you want to, but I want to be transparent in my story here as I think it's important and I am simply not that person anymore. I believe we all act in some ways that are against our best self, and there are always opportunities to learn from these and become a better person, which, as you'll see, I did. There's also the fact that while I was in my process of manifesting, I couldn't find any stories with themes like this, and I really wanted someone to relate to.

Me and my boyfriend met on a gay app at a time when I was basically in a hookup phase of my life as a closeted gay dude. I stayed at his overnight because he lived around 1 hour 30 minutes away from me, and then went home the next day. I then went to see him again a couple weeks later and then started meeting up semi-regularly. During this time we started doing more date type stuff like going for meals etc. This happened for a month or so before he asked where this was going and expressed the fact that he was looking for something more than just casually meeting and a fwb type situation. I really enjoyed hanging out with him and decided to give it a go, thus our initial relationship began.

As you read earlier, I wasn't 'out' about my sexuality and so this relationship was essentially a secret from my friends and family, who I live with, and I'd lie saying I was going to visit friends, which was believable for them at the time because I previously lived away and had friends from different cities. So me and him would see each other every 2-3 weeks or so, but I'd end up staying longer each time and then just lying again to my family that we were doing different things and that's why I was staying longer.

To take a slight deviation, you might wonder why I was closeted. Honestly, I think it was a mix of different things, being that I grew up in a small dead-end town where being homosexual isn't accepted, combined with the fact that I am involved in heavily 'masculine' archetype activities. Like combat sports, fitness, action movies, rock music, etc. I had absolutely no peers who I could relate to and I wasn't really friends with anyone in the gay community, outside of guys I'd met on apps. So I think I subconsciously just made the conclusion that being gay was not an option for me and just reverted to being 'straight acting', with nobody having any inkling about my true sexuality.

Things progressed naturally and it was okay for a while, but I always felt uneasy and a bit weird when I'd come home to my family, we'd be eating a meal and they'd ask me how my trip was. To which I'd confidently look them in the eye, lying through my teeth, saying "It was great, we did some training, visited other friends and had some good food together", when in reality I was at my boyfriend's house.

Again, this lying/being in the closet became so automatic, I didn't even sit down to consider perhaps telling my parents the truth, who are very understanding and tolerant people. Well, I guess I did consider what it would be like if they knew and things were different, but as time went on it felt more like a 'big' thing to me and would be shocking if it came out. Like, 'oh yeh, not only have I been lying about visiting my friends for the past year, I have also been in a relationship with another man as well'. My mind just compartmentalised it and kept the act up, which will become an important lesson later in the story.

This is the part I am not proud of, but I'm gonna be totally honest about it, as well as the way I felt about it too, because I think this is far more common than people like to admit, but is a huge taboo and has a lot of shame attached to it. The whole time from basically when me and my boyfriend got together, I was unfaithful to him. I think the reason for this was a number of things, one being logistics and the distance between us, the whole secrecy thing, as well as the fact I never really recovered from the first ever relationship I had, in which I was essentially used as someone's entertainment who never really wanted me, which created a worthless and unlovable self-image that I held without even knowing it. (Before I knew this could be changed via LOA)

Let me state that I am absolutely not condoning my behavior by any means, it was a horrible thing to do and I take full responsibility for it. I was essentially a broken, fearful and shameful person who was seeking validation sexually and that was the ugly result of those conditions.

Another part that may sound bizarre, but is worth sharing, is that whenever I was unfaithful, on one level I didn't want to do it and after the fact would feel terrible about what I'd done, then vow never to do it again. I'd be okay for a while, yet that urge would come again and I'd find myself doing it again only to repeat that shame cycle. It's kind of like how a drug addict loathes the behavior they do. I see my old behavior very similarly to that.

This continued for a while and I believe the secrecy, the shame, my guilt about being unfaithful, and all other things considered made me start showing up differently in the relationship. Aloof, if you will, and less caring. Another symptom of that is that I'd also psychologically project onto him my own fears that he was being unfaithful to me (which happened to me in that toxic first relationship). The exact behavior I was actually doing - funny how that works, isn't it.

Things continued for a while, including us going on a couple of short vacations together. Then one day, I hadn't heard back from him for the whole day, which was odd, so I texted him asking if everything was okay, to which he replied simply that 'I think we should go our separate ways'. I responded 'wait, what are you serious?' and he just responded 'yes'. I was in absolute shock and I didn't see it coming at all, never in a million years. I'd gotten totally complacent in the relationship and I think I'd gotten into a state where I thought he'd never leave me.

I called him immediately, and we had a conversation. He told me he felt that I didn't care about him because my actions weren't of somebody that loved someone. He also said that I made so many promises of things that I didn't follow through on. Like with my career, as well as sometimes mentioning 'what if I told my parents about us?' but once again didn't follow through.

I hadn't known he'd seen all of these empty promises as just a lot of hot air, and through me doing this repeatedly, he simply didn't take what I said seriously anymore and he was absolutely right. I was a coward and had all these big dreams and aspirations as well as more than the capability to make them happen, but my internal self-image of unworthiness and less than was always stronger than any dream, and always won out, keeping me exactly where I was.

We spoke for around an hour, in which time I was really struggling to comprehend how these things were reason enough to leave me, and as previously mentioned, I was also in complete shock. I pleaded with him for us to give it another go, which I know may sound odd considering my behavior, but I really did love our relationship for what it was regardless of that. He mentioned the fact that I had never told my parents made him feel that I didn't see what we had as a serious thing. I told him on the call 'Look, if we give it another chance I will go and tell them right now about us' but he was having none of it. He'd clearly made up his mind. We spoke some more and I was trying to find out where his mind was at, and then he revealed something, which is that he'd previously known I used a hookup app at his place because of some kind of DNS report and had then checked on my phone for the app, which he'd been able to see was installed even without opening the phone. I believe this was absolutely a manifestation of the chronic guilt I harbored, and the breakup itself was a manifestation of my own unworthiness, combined with feeling like I didn't deserve him because of the way I acted.

When he revealed this to me, there was nothing I could say, and I just admitted to him that I didn't know what to say and I was so sorry. He told me that the other stuff, feeling I didn't care and so on, was annoying, but the app thing was the final straw that solidified his feeling that I didn't care about him, and of course that makes 100% sense. There was nothing I could do at this point other than to accept it. He said we could still be friends, but I said I didn't want that, as I felt at that time I'd always want to be back with him, and it would kill me to see if he got with someone else, so we went no contact.

Despite the way I'd acted in the relationship, my world fell apart at that moment. Everything came flooding to me all at once, how my assumptions and behavior had directly caused all of this. I felt so stupid, I hated the fact that I hadn't appreciated what I had at the time (which was everything I wanted) and couldn't control myself and just be happy with that being enough. I'm someone who has never done well with breakups and was also instantly hit with a massive wave of worry. I have a very active mind and straight away I started considering the fact I wouldn't see him again. What would he be doing? Where was he? I wouldn't know without his daily text updates. Then I started considering the real memories we had together, the meals we'd eaten, the nights chilling together watching movies, and the vacations we'd been on. I started feeling like I'd never recover from it.

I went out for a long walk soon after the call to clear my head and cried most of the way. I didn't get much sleep that night, but I woke up the next day and felt compelled to pull my journal out and just write a huge stream of consciousness about the whole thing. When I did this, everything started to make complete sense to me. With each sentence I wrote, I could see how the way I'd been feeling in the months before that had led up to the culmination of him breaking up with me. I couldn't believe how clear it was, and it was strengthened by the fact that in that same journal I could look back over older entries and read the words from my own hand about things I felt and struggled with.

As much pain as I was in though, this weirdly was like irrevocable proof to me of the law in action. I haven't mentioned yet that I have a very thorough understanding of the law and have experienced what I'd call minor manifestations in the past, yet I'd never consistently applied it in my life and always got a kind of amnesia despite knowing it's absolutely real.

Things became really clear to me. It was an odd mix of being pissed at myself and feeling like an idiot, combined with a kind of peaceful clarity, because as painful as it was there was no doubt in my mind it had all been my doing, even if it happened unconsciously.

Something came over me in that moment, and I vowed to manifest him back. But there was no doubt in my mind that I wanted things to be totally different. The pain I felt at the breakup caused me to make the declaration that the old version of me was no more. I vowed to myself that whether I got back with him or someone else, I'd never do anything like that again, as that was the primary thing I hated most about myself then. People tend to make snap judgements on cheaters because if they've been on the receiving end of it, it is incredibly hurtful and damaging, but as I stated before, despite doing this it was always something I felt terrible about doing and wanted nothing more than to stop doing it, but where I was back then, I just couldn't. Again, judge that as you will, I'm sure a lot of people will, but it's my job here to be totally transparent about this, and I think there's something to the fact that this was, in a roundabout way, a manifestation of that behavior ending in me—which was something I desired. It's not as black and white as we always like to think.

After I took some time to collect myself and begin to move forwards in my life, I came to this kind of peaceful clarity where I decided that yes, I wanted to manifest him back and things be totally different, but what felt empowering is that I said to myself, 'Even if we don't get back together, I am going to make it my mission to BE the person I always wanted to be when I was with him.' That included being a loyal partner with him or the next person, but also following through on the other things in my life I always spoke about but never materialized. When I say this, I by no means meant that my mental state shifted. I still felt deeply sad and anxious about the whole thing on a regular basis, but at least I felt like I had some orientation about where I wanted to go. Also, I wanted to manifest a relationship back with HIM, yet I still decided that whatever happened, that old me was dead.

Manifestation Techniques

So I got to work with the manifesting processes. I didn't do anything out of the ordinary, and traditional SATS never worked for me because I'm really physically active and would just be knocked out as soon as I hit the pillow. But I've been a meditator for quite a long time, so it was quite natural for me to use meditation to reach a neutral or void state, and then imagine what I wanted.

The way I do this is by listening to either a theta binaural beats track or simple deep brown noise, which I found very relaxing. But what I don't see many people mention is how deep to go in this. I would often just do straight meditation with these tracks, following the breath for like 30 minutes before I'd do the manifestation techniques. I'm not sure if this is the same for everyone, but I can 'feel' when I get into that state and the time is right, as opposed to attempting to do the techniques before I'm there, when struggle to focus and would always get distracted.

I used a few different techniques and initially would just get to the void state then ask 'how would I feel now if we were back together and everything was perfect?'. This worked a little, but the feelings weren't that strong, but I tried my best anyway. I've never been a fan of pre-selecting a scene and always preferred to let the scene emerge naturally. A scene that I would often return to was me and him sitting in my new car that I'd been able to buy because I'd executed on the dreams I had. I liked this because it combined a few things I wanted… The relationship as well as executing on my career aspirations.

Another one was I would imagine being on a phone call with a close friend of mine who I'd spoken about the breakup with and hearing him say 'Oh man, I am SO happy for you guys!' and I'd just hear that over and over again, often imagining the warm sensation of the phone up against my ear.

I also experimented with affirmations as well, which I'd never really gotten along with before, but from that void state it felt really different to just saying them during regular, waking consciousness.

I sometimes added scripting as well in the evenings, where before bed I would write a couple of pages in my journal about how wonderful our life was together. It contained things like 'Everyone is so happy for us; our relationship is better than we both could ever have dreamed of; we live a perfect life,' etc. And I really liked these. I found it wasn't like a super strong feeling of the wish fulfilled, but I found that when I was writing, the flow state of the pen on the paper kind of bypassed my analytical mind away from the circumstances (which were the opposite) and allowed the feeling to come through, so much so that after closing the journal sometimes, I'd think, 'Oh yeh, I'm just still here in my room alone.'

Eric from The Power of I Am had some really helpful material that I'd watch, and I love how simplistic he made it. One thing I saw him say in a video was a kind of 'remote seduction' technique where you'd imagine the person in front of you and say statements like 'You cannot resist me, you're just so in love with me,' etc. At first I found it corny, but I would often just randomly do this when I'd walk home from the gym in a good mood from training when the endorphins were high, and it felt good. Upon watching Eric's videos, I also began adding quite a bit of self-concept stuff in there as well, which I believe is massively important, especially for someone who was in the state I was in before, feeling unworthy and unlovable, etc.

I know this looks like a lot of techniques, and yes this was probably unnecessary, but I basically worked with my personality. I'm a type of person who likes to hyper-optimise things, like with the gym, which I'm heavily into. Yes it may not be necessary with manifestation, but why not give yourself the best chances? Perhaps that's a limiting self-image even saying "I'm the type of person who…" but it worked for me so I'm not complaining. So I'd say work with your natural way of doing things when manifesting.

The Bridge of Incidents

I think this is really the most important part of my post, and I really want to get across that the bridge of incidents is probably NOT what you think it is going to be and may very well include things you'd initially perceive as negative, as you'll see with my story.

I will say before I go into this that I had ZERO birds before land. On reflection I can see they were there, but I didn't perceive them at the time, so I want to encourage you not to try and look for these—just do the work. With your limited ego mind, you have absolutely nothing compared to the computation capacity of the cosmos/universe or whatever you want to call it, and so coming to the conclusion that 'it isn't working' because you don't perceive things going the way you expect is a grave error and could lead you to quit three feet from gold!

I also want to share the fact that I didn't believe or know for certain this was going to happen, but I still did the work anyway, which I think may be reassuring for people in the process. I often read posts on here from people who'd manifested their person and they said they reached a place where they knew without a shadow of a doubt it was coming. I never had this feeling, and so I can say that at least in my experience you do NOT need to believe or feel certain about your desire for it to come into full manifestation.

So, I was doing the processes just kind of like a regimen in a way, like working out. I just had these techniques I did on a daily basis, which work well with my type of personality, and I did them. Not perfectly, I might add; there were some days I didn't do them, and it doesn't even matter. I think it's more about the general consistency. So don't feel like you need to be 100% perfect for your manifestation to come to fruition.

I also still missed him greatly most days, so don't worry about this either. I panicked so much about this, thinking the fact I missed him meant 'I wasn't in the state', but once again that didn't matter. The times that would hit me were usually when I'd been distracted with friends, like going for a meal or something. Then I'd suddenly think about him and 'oh we're not together,' and I'd feel sad. I just allowed it to be there and did my best to not go into the emotion or react to it. Usually it would pass if I didn't give it too much attention, and I'd notice that when it came back later again, it had less of a sting to it, which was interesting.

I never tried to affirm over the negative feeling, but I would sometimes be concerned that the fact that it was there meant I wasn't in the state. I would often worry that the mere fact that worry came meant I was failing, but I've since learned that's not how it works. You cannot control your automatic thoughts, so whatever pops into your mind, you didn't choose to think it… And if it's negative, why would you? But what you CAN choose to do is not entertain it, and I believe that's the key! You don't give it any more attention than an acknowledgement. Just let it be there, knowing it has absolutely no bearing on your desired outcome—the ending of the movie.

The full manifestation from breakup to reconciliation took around 4 months, but again, please don't attach yourself to my timeline; I'd have probably continued doing this just indefinitely; it became a routine for me.

The first thing that happened was around 3 months in, yet I had no idea this was anything to do with the manifestation at the time. I used to have a bit of a drinking problem that at one time I had to attend rehab for, and that was largely gone apart from the odd short relapse, but I fell into it a bit during this time again. I got drunk with a friend and then continued doing it for a few days, which was how I used to do it before, like a binge drinking habit where I'd drink very heavily for up to a week at a time, then get clean and be back on a health kick.

I returned home from being out, and I was drunk. I quickly said hello to my parents and then went into a different room, but they knew. My mom called me and said straight up, 'Have you been drinking?' and I just admitted to her 'Yeah, I have' and she responded, 'Come in here and let's talk about it,' and I don't know what it was in that moment, but I just knew I was going to tell them everything. I think it was because my state had subtly shifted because of the work I'd been doing, but I was just done and couldn't be bothered hiding myself anymore. The lowered inhibition from the alcohol also helped. So, we sat down and I told them everything that had happened… About my sexuality, about the relationship and breakup, and that's where I'd always been going when I said I was visiting friends.

I explained that I just felt I couldn't be honest and got used to lying about it. They were totally understanding but also expressed sadness that I'd felt I wasn't able to speak to them but were otherwise completely accepting and understanding. They also said it made sense why I would turn to drinking again, as well as why I hadn't had a relationship or anything like that, so I think all in all they were relieved, but they said they'd had no idea until I told them.

Straight after that, I called my sister and told her everything as well. We're quite close generally, but she has her own life and family, so I hadn't told her about anything until now. She cried and was really understanding and said she was just relieved and happy that I'd told her. She told some of her close friends, who are also kind of my mutual friends, and I received some really beautiful messages from them telling me how happy they were that I'd felt comfortable sharing it and so on. At the time it felt kind of bittersweet in that I did think, 'It's great that this is now all out in the open, but it came a bit too late, and I already lost him.' But I say that to demonstrate once again I was by no means a perfect manifestor; not by a long shot, I had thoughts like this all the time, yet I just continued doing the work anyway.

I would say I felt kind of detached in a sense throughout the whole process. It was weird in that one part of me absolutely knew it was possible to manifest him back, yet at the same time I was okay if it didn't happen, or maybe didn't even think it would happen, but I hung onto some hope. Although I didn't have any firsthand evidence of 'circumstances don't matter' when it came to manifestation, I read enough accounts of people who manifested against what looked like all odds to live vicariously through that belief myself.

So I continued my processes, often doubting myself, often feeling sad, and I think the worst part was wondering where he was and what he was doing, especially since we were in no contact. I only checked his socials once during this whole time, as I knew it'd make me go crazy spiralling if I did it regularly. The one time I did, it was maybe 3 months after we broke up, quite close to reconciling, actually. I saw he'd been travelling to different countries, which was one of his hobbies, but it just made me miss him more. One thing I did notice though, and I'm not sure if I was just being biased, was that he didn't look happy. He was pretending to be and was smiling, but I saw sadness and loss behind his eyes. He'd also lost considerable weight, which was alarming to me because I always knew he liked food and was a little chubbier when he was happy. But nonetheless, seeing him after so long made me anxious, and I could foresee it becoming a spiral if I continued, so I closed the app after briefly looking at his pics and didn't check it again.

Another few weeks or so went by, and then it happened… I woke up to a message on Instagram from him one day, asking how I was and admitting that he had ended it abruptly before. He told me that there were some questions and things in his mind that 'haunted' him that he wanted to talk about with me. He asked if I would do a video call with him the next day to talk but said if I'd found someone else, then that was okay.

I was in absolute shock at the message. It all became apparent to me in that moment that the work I'd done had worked, yet I still couldn't quite believe it. It was a really odd sensation. I was obviously really happy, but it kind of felt like I should have felt something more, but it just felt… normal? Or like I wasn't THAT surprised. Nevertheless, from that moment on I just knew we were getting back together. It became a certainty in my mind then, and I knew there might still be challenges and signs that it wouldn't happen, because he didn't say anything about us getting back together at all, but some part of me just knew and I didn't care.

I responded a couple of hours later, saying that yes, we can talk tomorrow and yes I've been well. He responded instantly saying, "Actually I'll be free in about 10 minutes if you are?" So, it was clear he was eager to talk. I said sure, and then we called 10 minutes later. He was hedgy at first and I could tell he was feeling out the situation but was also nervous, but I felt quite calm and composed. All I can describe is there was a calm certainty and knowing I had reached by that point and I'd gotten there, I guess, without even realizing it. All it took was doing the work consistently and getting on with my life, becoming the best person I could be.

On the call, the first thing was he called me out for taking ages to respond and we then discussed the things surrounding the breakup. The main thing he wanted to ask me was why I was on the app, which is totally understandable. I just explained that I was in a bad place, seeking validation, and there was no excuse for it. We ended up speaking for nearly 2 hours about different topics, what we'd been up to and things. I don't remember all we spoke about, but we reminisced about some of the good times we'd had together, and at some points I became quite brazen, joking (but not really) that it sounded like he wanted us to get back together. This made him laugh, and he was trying to act nonchalant about it, but I just knew.

We agreed to meet up in person maybe a week or so later, because he was out of the country and was going to be coming back soon. He also asked if I'd like to come to Paris with him when we met up, as he was scheduled to go a few days after that. We didn't get back together on that call though. Like I said, I teased him about it, but he was trying to hold a position of power and make me chase a little, which is understandable given the past events. He said, "I'll decide when we've met up on that," but once again I knew then it was a done deal really. I mean, who invites someone to Paris with them when they haven't already really made up their mind?

I felt so good about the call that I actually told my mom about it, that we'd spoken again, and it looked as if we were going to be getting back together. Despite it not actually happening yet, I felt on a bit of a cloud 9 for a while. We spoke again the next day, and I think most days actually leading up to the eventual meetup, for like an hour each time. He'd call me in the evening when he was relaxing, just like we'd done before. It was like nothing had really changed, except we weren't officially back together yet.

Despite this, doubt did come back. Now we were talking again I worried if it might all go away and if it was 'too good to be true.' But in those moments I centered myself and reminded myself of what had transpired so far… That I had done everything correctly, despite wobbling, and that I had nothing to worry about. I continued doing the manifestation practices exactly like before during this time as well.

I was a bit anxious but also excited leading up to our meeting and waited for him at the train station with a big bunch of flowers, which I presented to him as soon as I saw him and made him smile. He was still acting a little coy and pretending to be nonchalant about the whole thing, though. We got on the train together to his place and sat next to each other and kissed not long into the journey and then numerous times during as well.

And that is pretty much how it happened really. We ended up getting back together 'officially' just before we went to Paris, which was literally like the day after we met back up, really, but like I said, I already knew that was the outcome anyway.

When we got back from Paris, I returned home and told my parents that we'd gotten back together, and a couple of weeks later he came over to mine and met them, and we spent time together. It was amazing and surreal at the same time; I couldn't believe it was happening, yet at the same time it felt like the most normal thing in the world.

I think ultimately my story is one of self-transformation (no one to change but self), which really it always is. We become the person who would naturally have our desire. With all that happened to me and what I desired… To be in this secure, loyal relationship, I simply couldn't be that person I was before and exist in that new circumstance.

So the old man had to die. But I think this is the nuance here: when we hear 'no one to change but self,' I think it's natural to think that WE have to change everything by force or something. You can see from my story I had a strong desire to change from who I was before; that desire was enough to put into motion the events that fundamentally changed who I was, as it would have been impossible to have the new relationship as that old version. So, I mean, I don't know what's going on or how it works, but there's clearly way more occurring than meets the eye!

Everything that happened during my bridge of incidents was absolutely necessary to bring about exactly what I wanted. Remember in my scripting sessions I wrote that 'we have an amazing relationship and everyone is happy for us.' That wouldn't have been possible if the relationship was a secret; hence, the bridge of incidents involved me confessing about my sexuality over a binge drinking incident of all things! But at the time I had absolutely no idea what was happening.

A few months after that, we travelled for two months around Asia together and made some amazing memories. During that trip we visited his home country and stayed with his family, and I met all of his childhood friends. Again, something that was in my script and something that would have been impossible under the old circumstances.

We've since moved in together and have gotten married and are both really happy together building our lives. So the story really made a full circle and has a very happy ending. It's also almost one year to the day since we got back together now, and so much has transpired since then.

What he was experiencing

I think it'll be interesting to share a little about what he experienced during our time apart from what he's told me, and I was really surprised by some of this, which again will provide some encouragement to others on the journey.

I was absolutely right about the weight loss. Despite breaking up with me, he'd experienced immense grief and missed me greatly. He'd taken up walking for like 4 hours a day in a local park and was eating only one meal per day. He'd lost something like 40 lbs doing this, but I'm happy to report he's at a much healthier weight again now and is enjoying life.

He shared with me that at night he would hug a pillow in his bed and pretend it was me and fall asleep with it.

He would talk to his friends often about me, one of whom had met me a few times and had told him he acted too quickly breaking up with me and eventually said to him, "Why did you even break up with him, because all you do is talk about him all the time?"

He'd also been on my socials regularly, but I hadn't known it.

There were also numerous other things, but it became evident to me that he wanted to be back with me perhaps even more than I did with him during this whole time, so that goes to show you have NO idea what the other person is thinking. I was absolutely convinced he wanted nothing to do with me, that he'd be better off without me and he was going to find someone else to be with and I would be just a fleeting thought in his mind, if that. Yet none of that was the reality of it. In fact, with the whole pillow thing and all that, I realized it was almost as if he was unknowingly manifesting ME while I was manifesting being back with him.

Conclusion

It worked, and I was nowhere near perfect the whole time, so try to relax and just do the work diligently. I will say, try your best to get on with your life and do other things as well, as it makes you realize you have other wonderful things in your life and you won't be as hung up on your person. It's still tough, and you will think of them often, but I think I realized that although I was in a lot of pain, I was going to be okay either way.

I see a bigger picture of this whole journey as a part of essentially becoming a better person through life circumstances and choosing to be better. I don't think this falls in line with Neville's teachings, but I personally believe we have some kind of higher self that is attempting to 'level us up' or calling us to be a better version of ourselves, and if we don't get the message gently, if we persistently want to be better, it might have to happen through painful life circumstances as it did with me, but I eventually understood. Humans often finally seem to get the message through loss or pain.

Normies say people never change, but I believe that is an incredibly short-sighted statement that comes from the paradigm that you ARE your personality/your actions and thoughts. But we know through Neville's teachings we aren't any of those things. We are the ever-present awareness that precedes all of them. I was showing up as a low version of myself, but through immense pain and loss, I alchemised those undesirable traits and became a better man.

I now look at the situation with a kind of gratitude. Like I said, I never wanted to be that person but kept finding myself going back there, and I honestly don't know if I could ever have changed had it not been for the breakup. I feel like God (or my higher self), in a sense, forced my hand in this because there was no way I was going to change without this. I have had another chance in this relationship, for which I am eternally grateful, and because of that I would never risk what I have again over some fleeting, instant gratification.

If you made it to the end of this incredibly long read, I thank you and want to wish you some final words of encouragement. I made it this long because I wanted to include everything. It's something I wished I'd had more of when I was on my journey searching for hope through success stories. I am someone who thought I'd totally blown it and didn't believe I'd be able to manifest a reconciliation, yet I just did the work anyway with a glimmer of hope.

So if you're in that situation now and you don't see anything happening, there is ALWAYS movement behind the scenes; just keep stacking those rocks on the side of your desire, and something eventually will tip, as it did with me.

I'm happy to answer any questions to the best of my ability in the comments, so fire away.

Ok, I have read so many articles and success stories in this blog which i am very thankful for, but also, I have noticed that even though we ready so many of success stories, when the 3d slaps something brutal in our face, the reason it is very hard to persist because we somehow can't completely convince ourselves "Our consciousness created that, and that this is all not true". If we very much certain that "Consciousness is our true reality which is rendered into 3d", they we can handle things better even with absolute certainty.

So, help people with these thoughts and share the moment where you realized "Your consciousness creates reality", and no way some one can easily discard as an absolute coincidence.

Thank you Guys!!

But until mastery then there is a technique.

— Neville Goddard

I had won $15,000. Except, it wasn’t directly me. But, I still won it. It was through somebody else. But I had written it down several times. I had, created an image of that sum of money coming to me. The image I created, was someone without a face.

All I saw was a man in a suit, reaching out to me, giving me that much money. Me feeling the excitement. But also, and I thought this was important, like the money was mine. Like I owned it.

My wife was invited to a televised Game Show. She was invited back to this Game Show, a week after I was on it. That first week, I only won $300. But I’d assume that I would win something. I just didn’t label what it was.

But I persisted that that amount would show up somehow. On the way back home, on the drive, we both were so excited. Then the thought occurred to me, that why doesn’t she go?

So seven days later, on television, my wife won $15,000. The money didn’t have to come through me. But get this, it did.

Neville states that when you were in the state, when you achieve the state, when you live in the state as if it’s already happened, people and things will start moving around you in relationship to the new state.

This is important. Because I was the one who created the scene. I was the one who accepted it is true. I didn’t always believe it. I didn’t do it perfectly. But somewhere deep inside of myself, I knew it was going to happen.

So that event had to happen. It had to happen that way. But the common denominator? It wasn’t my wife. It wasn’t the Game Show. It wasn’t even my belief. It was me.

Now, I know we can get a little bit obsessed about techniques. But one thing I’ve learned about this, and I think this is a really crucial to understand. Is you are the technique. I am the technique. Not belief. Not repetition. Not 1000 affirmations. Not how beautiful your scenes are mentally. You are the technique.

So then what are the techniques? The techniques are the way you shape self-concept here. The techniques are not the answer. The techniques are not your savior. They’re only to help you to get to master. If you get stuck in techniques, then you either fear mastery which is your own power, or you don’t understand that all the power comes from you within.

Now, I could sit here and write all of the different techniques that I use. I could focus on the numbers and how much repetition was involved, or even how much doubt was involved. But do you know what’s still the common denominator in all that? Me. It is self concept. That’s what techniques are used to do to help you shape the self-concept into the person who already has everything you desire.

So the question isn’t, what techniques should I use? Those will change throughout your life. It’s what kind of person has what I desire already? That is the person you become now. That is the person you accept. That is the person, if you need techniques, that you begin using to help shape yourself into.

That’s the metaphor of the Potter’s house— the process of you shaping you. In behavioral science, we refer to this as expectancy of effects.. it is what you train your perception, your body, your choices, and your emotions all to believe except is true about the world that you are in. THIS is where your project begins. Use all of those elements and begin asking who is that person? The person who has the money. What would their perception, their posture, their choices, and their emotions all feel like? Would they accept us automatically true and all of those various?

Answer those honestly. And that is weird liberation begins.

One time, I decided I wanted a specific vintage issue of a magazine that has been discontinued for over 20 years. Looking for it online was a bit of a hard experience, since I could barely find any being sold and the prices were, of course, ridiculously high. At some point all I did was think to myself: “whatever, I’ll find it eventually”. And then I went on with my life. A couple months later (not sure how long, actually), a friend asked me if I wanted to go to a secondhand bookstore. I wasn’t even particularly in the mood to go, but I went along anyway. And there it was: the exact issue I wanted, sitting right on top of a pile of books in a way that was practically impossible to miss. Funnily enough, it was unbelievably cheap as well.

This same friend was also the reason I managed to get my hands on a vintage designer bag I’d been searching for. Since it was relatively rare and pricey, I eventually just told myself “I’ll find it some other time”, and stopped actively looking for it. Some time later while we were out of state, my friend insisted we visit a particular store. On our way there, I happened to glance into another shop, and you can probably guess what happened next: the exact bag I’d been looking for was sitting right there on the counter.

These two situations are particularly interesting to me when it comes to thinking about the bridge of incidents, maybe because it’s so easy to see how everything had to fall into place. It wasn’t just that my friend happened to invite me to those places, there were all these little things happening outside of my awareness that ultimately led me straight to what I wanted. Someone had to pick up that specific magazine from one of those hundreds of messy shelves, decide not to buy it, and leave it sitting on top of a pile where I could easily spot it. The bag was much the same. The saleswoman had told me she’d taken it out of storage because it had been sitting there unsold for a while, and she wanted to put some older pieces on display to make room for fresh products. So many completely ordinary decisions, made by people who had no idea what I was looking for, somehow became the exact chain of events that brought both things right in front of me.

I had a similar experience when I really wanted to spend a semester abroad through an exchange program my university was offering. There was only one spot available and plenty of circumstances that could have gotten in the way, and at one point I knew there was a real possibility that things wouldn't work out in my favor. But instead of obsessing over everything that could go wrong, I decided to think in my favor (because why wouldn't I?). Whenever I felt doubtful, I'd just tell myself, “it's gonna work out.” And eventually, it did. Somehow, everything fell into place and I ended up getting exactly what I wanted.

All these things happened before I found out about Neville or the Law of Assumption, and looking back, they're just a few situations out of many many more that I would just assume as "luck" or "coincidences". What a coincidence it was, to find objects that were pretty much statistically impossible to come across randomly! Or how lucky have I been to get that exchange program opportunity, when there were issues that somehow did not get registered! (xD)

What stands out to me now is how little effort was actually involved. I wasn’t visualizing, repeating affirmations hundreds of times, or constantly checking whether what I wanted was coming. I think there’s something really important in the detachment I embodied without even being consciously aware of how powerful it is. I didn’t stop wanting the things I wanted, I just stopped treating their absence as evidence that I wouldn’t get them. And to be honest I don't think I even cared about the "how and when" at all, since wondering about those felt like allowing my energy to get drained for no reason. I just trusted that things would work out for me, and they did. And I think somewhere along the way all these experiences started solidifying into my self-concept: I am someone things work out for. I am someone who gets what I want. At this point, it feels like the belief has become self-sustaining. Everytime something I assume will happen actually does it strengthens my belief that things naturally work out for me. The more evidence I get, the more natural that assumption becomes.

The experiences and success stories I wrote here remind me of this one Neville quote:

>On reflection, it happens so naturally you begin to feel or to tell yourself, ‘Well, it would have happened anyway'.

You are more powerful than you think, and everything you need to manifest is already inside you. This is not a matter of knowledge or hard work, most things I have manifested have successfully materialized in my reality before I even knew about the Law. As a matter of fact, I found myself having a harder time when I started consuming a lot of manifestation content, but I'm working on it. So this is just a reminder that it really can be that simple. You can do this. You’ve been doing it all along, and it can only become more natural once you start trusting yourself, thinking in your favor, and letting things unfold.

This is something I consider a medium success; although I was extremely happy I got the confirmation that it worked, I didn't have too much resistance.

My mom told me a month ago that she was having issues with kidney stones and that she was in pain. According to her colleagues that she saw (she's also a doctor in a hospital) she was advised to go for a procedure to have it broken down and removed. The procedure is of course very uncomfortable and I knew it would cause more stress, pain and discomfort for my mom. On top of that, there was a trip coming up that she would be very happy to go on, which she wouldn't be able to go on after the procedure because it would keep her in bed for 40 days.

I find SATS very tough, because for one I take forever to think of a scene and concentrate on it, and for two I never know if I relaxed enough. But yesterday afternoon I tried it anyway after reading a post on here that really inspired me. I was relaxed and I focused solely on the idea and feeling of it in my mind. I didn't try to engineer a scene that would imply it was done, or anything that would require me thinking of hypothetical situations that would happen after the fact. I just focused, while laying down, sufficiently relaxed to be in my thoughts, I focused on the feeling of my mom and I "operated" on her, basically I imagined this higher power washing over her kidneys and bladder, desintegrating the stones and passing them out in one swoop. I felt the moment it happened. And when I had that feeling I "agreed" it was done and left it at that. Kinda felt like leaving your patient to rest after surgery. I imagined her sleeping peacefully.

Fast forward to that night (last night) she sends me photos and says "one of the stones came out, there's one more left". I was of course esctatic because I knew I did it, it was a WONDERFUL confirmation. I can show you the screenshots here but the kindey stone photos are not pleasant to look at lmao.

When I said I didn't have too much resistance, I meant it was something I trusted my mom can handle, it was not a medical emergency, and I knew she would be alright even if she went for the procedure. But I just really didn't want that to happen.

Also I proved to myself, you can use your imagination how YOU like. You don't have to do exactly what soem famous manifester said. That's it! Thanks for reading 🐰

I've been following Neville for quite some time now and I have manifested some truly impossible things, however physical pain in my body is a particular block of mine that is hard for me to transcend, specifically chronic migraines.

I have tried everything... meditation, sending love to the pain, ignoring the pain, becoming aware of the I am. However, the minute I do that, my migraine gets 10x worse and I have to give in and take pain relievers, which I really don't want to do. (I've already gone to the Dr's and did brain scan and my brain is fine).

So for those of you experienced with physical pain and have been able to manifest healing, how did you do it? I think if you've never experienced chronic pain it's easy to say "just ignore it and cancel the thought out" (which I've tried), but the pain is SOOOO intense that it's hard to misidentify with it. Any tips?

Checking in again to say, I’ve experienced nothing less than magic these past two days. After going through almost the exact opposite of my manifestation I stayed true and kept loyal to my desired end and witnessed multiple complete 180’s in the people in my life. I reduced my rent by £200! My Landlord who I was not on good terms with at the time changed completely!

We are now great! I had someone send me a heck of a lot of cash this morning for no reason out of nowhere, they said they just felt like it! Most interesting of all is I went out to celebrate all of this in Waterloo, went to a super popular bar and there was an NFL game on tonight so the place was packed and I could see the bartender was rather tired so I offered to get him anything he liked to drink, he smiled and waved me off and told me not to worry as he’ll get it for free after anyway.

After this he pours me what must be over three double whiskeys and two lagers, I had a budget but I tossed it out the window because I realised the me trying to protect himself is just an illusion. The truth is I AM and I am beyond this body and its worries – man does not live on bread alone. So once I’m done at closing after having an amazing time I ask for the bill and he smiles at me and says: “You don’t have one, I just hope you had a good time!”

I only paid for the first lager I bought coming in and deciding whether I was gonna stay or not which was £5. All my other 4 drinks were free. God is good, Amen!

The truth is, I’ve known about manifestation for quite some time, and despite all the trial and error especially since I started with the 369 method and 55×5, then moved on to subliminals, and then scripting surprisingly, scripting was the method that worked best for me. That eventually led me to Neville Goddard, because when I was scripting, I would write as if it had already happened. I would write about how grateful and happy I was, immerse myself in the feeling, and include very specific details.

Later, I realized that writing something as if it had already happened is basically what Neville talks about. You guys always talk about this, and it made me realize why subliminals, for example, didn’t work as well for me because they felt more like wanting something to happen in the future rather than assuming that it already was mine.

However, I still find it difficult to fully understand some of the ideas you guys discuss about Neville. I know I haven’t gone into the details as deeply as some of you have, and most of what I know is pretty surface level, even though it has still benefited me.

So, in your opinion, is there something different or deeper that we’re missing as people who are just getting into manifestation something we won’t really understand without reading Neville’s books? Is understanding the feeling of being fulfilled enough to grasp what Neville was trying to teach us, or are there other things that beginners should dive deeper into?

I saw an old post where someone asked how to get started with manifestation, and everyone recommended reading Neville’s books. That made me wonder are the tools I use, like scripting, visualization, and robotic affirmations, actually enough? Or am I missing something that people who have immersed themselves in Neville’s work and read his books already understand?

Or is this search for the perfect method something that never really ends, and is having a basic understanding of the principles Neville built his teachings around already enough?

You and I are the awareness that has dreamt itself to be a sense of self. What does this mean? It means that you are the one who gives power to the mental narratives that you've once occupied as factual. This ego identity. It was never truly us and that is the beautiful realization I've gained from applying Neville's work.

Neville Goddard is and always will be a mental identity that was being constructed by the awareness that is in you, in me, and in everyone else. He knew about that and thus he felt compelled to share the visions he experienced as a result of knowing himself to have been human imagination. And that's what makes his work brilliant.

Many people read Neville's work and think of him as a law of assumption teacher. I would argue he was more than that. He was biblical when it came to his teachings and he wanted to decipher the symbolic meaning of the Bible. So much so that he interpreted Jesus Christ to be the human imagination. The consciousness that sustains all experiences mankind has. He called that christ.

Towards the end of his teachings he no longer had a desire to teach how to "manifest". Instead, Neville was so passionate about speaking of the awakening. A great awakening. He called it The Promise. This is where the individual realizes themselves to be a spiritual being that is occupying mental narratives and stories about the Self.

Adam, Eve, Jake, Edward, Chris, Tony. These are all mental representations the human imagination uses to make sense of this world. They don't exist on a fundamental level because the "I" that is in these states of self cease to exist when the awareness is present. Neville called that God. And he believed that this unfolding process will happen to everyone. No one is an exception because it is all the human imagination doing it.

So, the point of this post? Similar to Neville's teachings and how they often manifested as a result of him having visions that went beyond ordinary sensory experience, put your faith and trust in the unfolding process. We may desire objects in the moment which is fine, but eventually there will come a point in life where you no longer feel satisfied. You will want to know who and what God is.

The day will come where you will only desire one thing and one thing alone - to know God. When that moment happens and it will, you will be revealed within yourself to be the human imagination expressing itself. This spaciousness awareness or consciousness, if you will. That's who Neville was pointing to and speaking towards when he spoke about The Promise. He wanted to reach the deepest depths of ourselves. He certainly spoke to mine.

Allow this post to act as a reminder that this work is more than obtaining items. It's more than simply changing the world. It's an act of awakening. It's self enquiry. Self-realization, self-awareness of oneself. Whatever you want to call it. Don't get too tangled up on the words or names. Meditate on the implication of Neville's work. When he talks about The Promise, really sit down and reflect on the implication.

I genuinely hope you gain a new and deeper understanding on Neville and what he was trying to convey towards the end of his teaching. Don't think you're here to constantly desire things and then fulfill them only to have more things to desire. Or that you are here to obtain some position in society. It goes much deeper than that. It's truly an awakening that happens inside the individual. That is the promise.

Thank you Neville and thank you if you've made it this far. Everything is going to work out beautifully. It already has. We're simply going along with the ride and we will make it to higher and greater perceptions of ourselves. I truly believe that. We are the purity, the fulfillment, and the love that we seek. Embrace that and embody that realization.

I’m not new to Neville so I hope this doesn’t get deleted but I always wondered why Neville didn’t heal his wife because a couple of times he mentions that she was in hospital. I understand that with his mother & his nephew their time was probably up but his wife lived on

Its been a while since things have started to fall into place and I know there is no going back because what is even gonna happen , I know the truth and I know it doesn’t matter if I obey it or not it will continue to play its part . So if the truth is never going to change I better long for a change in me and why not because that truth is literally the foundation of everything and running away from it will only result in self destruction and the thing that holds most  people back is the hypnosis that compels them to believe that there is something which is external to them. Days kept passing which turned into weeks and then into months and then it turned into years but no change still the same mess is seen around but now when I accept the fact that it’s all me , it helps me to break free from all of the bondages and chains , there are no strings on me . I now know my worth and my place , its all me so why do I fear even a bit and yeah why do I sit and beg some external god to give me all of the things that I need , I create all of my experiences and I am responsible for all of the things that happen to me and they do through me . Its time to know my worth and create from a place of abundance rather than lack.

 

The external reality holds no independent authority over me its only job is to reflect my inner states and its doing its job perfectly fine and now its just me who needs to work on himself and I know its all just a cake walk but also need to remind myself time to time of who I am and what I have done all these years and I also know its time to live the way I always wanted to and to break free from the hypnosis that compels me to believe that there is some external reality working and functioning on its own , the 3d has no free will and its me who holds the authority . I just cant even explain how quickly things started to change which I believed would take months but now I know how powerful I am and what are my abilities and yes now I am free and I don’t need to beg I have eternity to live and experience whatever I want to . There is nothing holding me back and I know its all me everywhere in just different forms experiencing myself .

Hi and welcome to an episode of Speaking My Damn Mind Regarding Manifestation Whilst Hoping r/NevilleGoddard Mods Will Not Delete My Post.

So, recently, in the past month, been going through a very interesting (I call it "unconscious") process, that built up into a lot of and unnecessary (if you don't consider learning from it being a part of it) Drama, with a D, not a dick, but a douche. I named these "botched up manifestations", because it's a very weird process where I go numb from my creator mode and my past hurts and prejudices take over the directorial chair and cause another of the same old shit to happen in my 3D, aka causing the movie to go sideways, not according to will.

Because manifesting is the full package for me. I cause everything, the good and the bad, the desired and the undesired, and the undesired is a result of either a current lack of discipline, an unseen old imprint activating itself, remaining ignorance, or this weird state mentioned above, where I really just go numb, unconscious like, like am completely losing the faith and knowledge of conscious manifestation altogether, and fall prey to what is probably known as the "shadow", a bundle of repressed and disempowered moments that are not honouring my true beautiful soul, but are still there, on the tape, somehow, they have not been dissolved/sorted through.

I do seek to dissolve patterns. It's basically confronting ideas and breaking their prison. What I mean by this, a bit like hunting for trances of the self, when you go for the same old story you always tell yourself, the stories that "make" (a better word, maybe, "dress") you. The sum of these stories is the mind. And the mind is the projector. Why?

Because the entire 3D screen is simply an orchestrated apparition of sensations, through the five sense channels. It is even improper to call them "channels", as if they are a thing of the machine, and not a base manifestation. The machine, the dream machine, is invisible, it is not a manifestation, though it is manifestation. Meaning, it is unseen, though it renders the seen, and by rendering the seen it is itself how it is seen. And it is dumb. Meaning, that it has no conscience. It's actually not to my liking to speak of it in terms of a machine, but more like a womb. Not cold per se, but unknowing. Mr. Smith had a degree of hatred in him, the Matrix was an entity, but the machine is as if sleeping, it does not know, it renders whatever is imprinted, so if you get to hack it in your favour, you can turn Mr. Smith into Neo's loyal servant, without actually encountering any real enemy in Mr. Smith himself. Or, you can continue feeding the war and it shall continue, and with it, your idea that someone else controls the show. I get it, it is comfortable, to be ruled by an ancient AI I-thought. It is why we have tribalism, tradition, religions, nationalism and other isms.

The mind is the renderer of sensations, through the very complex and misunderstood process of memory. And am not referring here to memory of what happened yesterday or five years ago. But rendering memory. All creation follows seed blueprints. And what are all these blueprints? Stories. Ideas. Concepts. Signs of base qualities. When scientists try to find the tiniest particles "causing" the universe, they are going in the wrong direction. Because the firing up of the universe happens in this mental "space", like buttons being pressed and activated. And because they are activated, the light of Consciousness passes through them and renders them on the 3D screen, like the cinema.

The light of Consciousness is the sense I Am. Its neutral quality is to be awake (lights), its active one is to dream (camera), its passive one is to sleep (action). And now you are probably asking, "but what does sleep have to do with action?", so, I will evoke the cinema, again. The actors in the movie aren't even there when we watch the movie, yet all action takes place - not on the screen, but in us. In the same way, going through life is a bit like watching a movie of what the movie crew created at a previous time. The camera made sure to catch everything, according to the Director and its degree of imaginative openness, building up an entire dreamed map made of signs. These signs enter the mind of the audience and start pushing and pulling files and folders and buttons and all this paraphernalia of memory, and there you have it: raw emotion and heartfelt understanding, caused by nothing but shadows on a wall.

... But getting back, cause I lost the flow...

Okay, so, the "botched up manifestations" caused by unconscious thought.

How they happen: Something new comes into my life, but I tend to respond to it in an old pattern. Next thing you know, I am already having inner conversations about it and slowly imprison myself into a same kind of situation I swore many times I will not let myself fall in. This event that I am speaking of took off in about a month and a half, leading to a full-on traumatic manifestation, that shook me and pushed me to fight it even after passing, and keeping the wound open, and ruminating over it. It took two, three days of intense negativity to finally get myself out of this victim seeking revenge mode. Now that I look back, I am starting to see the trace of shit I left behind and how much it resembles the movie I saw on the wall. And how much I could have avoided, if only I would have set a new tone, a new direction of thought and perspective. This is the learning curve. Where I go over, again and again, the numbing moment in which I believe my own shit and continue it, by acting on it, with word, thought, feeling. I go over, practicing, strengthening, realising more and more, that whatever I think is not reality and does not have a base in reality, but in a 3D world caused by my past mental activities. And that if only I can wake up in that moment and subtract the belief in it, whilst introducing a new version of "reality", I can then change the architecture, thus the flow of events.

Hi everyone. I’ve been following this subreddit and learning about Neville for almost two years now.

Like many of you, I found this path during a low point in my life, when I needed some hope and needed to believe that my life could be different. I can say I’ve had some small successes, along with quite a few failures. Unfortunately, I feel like I’m lacking faith and discipline, but I still haven’t let go of this path.

Lately, from a place of calm, I’ve been focusing my mind on manifestation again, thinking that maybe being in this calmer state would help me manifest faster and more effectively. But honestly, I haven’t manifested anything at all. Before, meditation helped me get out of a difficult mental state, and visualizing the end result gave me a sense of peace and calm. That’s actually how I managed to manifest some things. But now I can’t seem to do it. I even fall asleep while trying. I feel like being calm has taken away my motivation.

The main point of this post is something that has been stuck in my head lately. I can read countless techniques and success stories, and they give me hope, but then this thought comes to mind:

"If I’m the only one who exists, and the 3D isn’t real, then none of these people or their success stories are real either."

So, if only "I AM" exists, does that mean I’m truly alone? What makes all these experiences and stories meaningful if everyone around me is simply part of my reality?

And yet, last night I had a comforting dream. I dreamed that everything I wanted would come to me simply by thinking about it. I trusted so completely that it would happen. It felt natural and effortless.

But when I woke up, that same concern came back.

I’d really like to hear your perspectives. How do you deal with this? What made you take that leap into experiencing the 3D the way I experienced things in my dream?

Have you ever struggled with the feeling that you’re truly alone because only "I AM" exists?