I constantly fear that i’m terminally ill.
I am a 19 year old male who for most of my life hadn’t dealt with any serious anxiety issues. My mother and sister have had problems with it, but in both cases had traumatic experiences that lead to their anxiety worsening. As of recently (most likely due to my increased Marijuana use, and added stress from working) I have been having an awful, nagging feeling of dread mostly related to my health in particular. Anything and everything is connected in my mind, and I cannot escape it. Whether it’s a rash or a bump I just can’t help but feel like i’m dying. Sure, I am very active, eat well, and generally don’t feel abnormal in any way but something makes me think i’m wearing down in real time from some mystery disease. It doesn’t help that I haven’t been to a real doctor in many years, and simply can’t find the time to do so. I know that would be step one just to get peace of mind but I just haven’t yet. Just kinda wanted to put this out there to verify that i’m not crazy and maybe someone can relate. Thanks.