What can I do for others, as well as for myself, as someone who is autistic with severe social anxiety and selective mutism?
Everyone keeps stressing how important it is to organize and build community, and I agree and want to help, but I honestly don't know what I am capable of doing. I can't talk to most people most of the time and even when I can they look at me weird and try to get the conversation over with, which makes me feel more anxious.
Someone recently told me that only I can know what my skills, talents, and abilities are, and of course that makes sense and I guess it's true, but I honestly don't think I have any that are in any way useful.
I'm a pre-transition trans woman and I live with my bigoted conservative parents in a rural area. I'm an adult and I feel like I'll always be stuck here because there's nothing I can do to help myself leave. I have no job, no money, I'm not in therapy or see any kind of doctor at all except in rare emergencies. I essentially never leave the house and never talk to anyone outside of my family members who I live with. They're all either in a similar boat as me or they're like my parents. So I can't get any support from them.
I was originally making this post specifically about organizing and building community, but now I'm thinking about all the ways in which my life is limited. I can't even transition because my anxiety prevents me from making appointments and stuff. I feel like nothing can ever change and I'm gonna live the most worthless life ever in my parents house never being seen for who I am or given any kind of support for anything until I eventually die.
I don't expect to find some magical solution to my problems, I guess I'm just posting here because I need some kind of advice or encouragement or something from someone who's not just gonna dismiss my struggles or tell me to get over something that I've literally been trying to deal with my whole life. I'm scared of even just making this post because of how bad my anxiety is.
I'm sorry if anything I've said is in any way wrong, bad, or offensive to anyone. I'm still learning a lot about... basically everything.