u/AN0NYM0US-Bat

I have a presentation I need to do for college in the morning and I don't think I've not done one since primary school. Usually I get really anxious when doing them and before doing them and in highschool I'd often try avoid doing them if we had to do them and I don't remember having to do them in high school. I really don't want to do this presentation but we have to, I think it's one of our last assignments but I'm so anxious, I don't want to go in in the morning just so I don't have to do it.

I don't want the usual advice saying "imagine them naked" or something as that never really used to help and often don't think I could really ever do that. I could barely even do it infront my parents when they told me to try practice infront of them before.

I don't know what to do anymore. I have a job, I go to college but I hate it, I have a boyfriend who I love more than anything. But I have no friends, nobody talks to me or anything, sure at college some people will occasionally talk to me but almost never. Won't hangout with me or anything. I'm used to being alone but.. it hurts. I don't want to lose my boyfriend but it feels like he doesnt love me anymore. He's been getting more annoyed with me and stuff. He reassures me that he does love me but.. I don't know. I'm so tired. I don't want him to fix me or.. help ig idk, I just want him to sit with me, be with me. But it's always been about me, there's always been something wrong with me, always me talking about my problems. I'm tired.