18 months into TRE — from intense crying and grief to laughter and yawning?
I’ve been doing TRE since April of last year, so about a year and a half now. Initially, I started with 10-minute sessions, then 20-minute sessions, until I eventually began to tremor automatically. Since then, I haven’t needed to intentionally induce the tremors because my body does it spontaneously.
What began as hours of crying and intense, powerful emotional releases, often involving immense grief, has now become… laughter? I seldom have crying episodes anymore. Now it’s mostly laughter and yawning.
The tremors themselves have always occurred in cycles. Sometimes they’ll happen every day for weeks or even months at a time, only to disappear for several weeks before suddenly returning with considerable intensity. One session in particular was just 5 hours of nonstop tremoring and crying, then followed by deep relaxation and a nap.
Something else I’ve noticed is that I often experience this inexplicable wave of fatigue shortly before the tremors begin. It’s almost as though my nervous system is going into airplane mode before the tremoring starts.
So I guess what I’m asking is:
Why do my tremors disappear for weeks at a time, only to suddenly come back online and occur intensely every day?
And why has the emotional component shifted almost entirely from intense grief/ crying to laughter and yawning, with only intermittent crying?
I’d especially love to hear from people who’ve been practicing TRE for several years and whether they’ve experienced anything similar.
P.S. The tremors are beyond my control at this point and are at times so intense, that I sometimes feel as if I am losing my mind. Luckily they rarely occur in the presence of others.