HOW I COMPLETELY RECOVERED - Only for the people who are truly trying to quit - If your content this isn't for you .
I don't expect you all too read this , It's for a specific type of person , Even If it helps a one person who needed some motivation, It's Rewarding . STAY HARD
You say it's the last time , But it's not . Because your mind Goes into auto pilot right ? It begins too feel like a black hole , You submerge deeper . You have , friends , Families , Siblings . People who genuinely care about you , But they have no idea what Your actively dealing with . it's absolutely the last thing they would ever Imagine , It's so absurd that It doesn't even make sense what your doing .
But you keep following the trail deeper and deeper All driven by your impulse , Do it now quickly think about it after . Every single time you say it's the last time , before you realise a day has passed and Your in the middle of it again . It gets too the point where normal Things don't turn you on . You restrict yourself from being with normal people , Because You genuinely feel like Your crazy . You know your too dysfunctional to have a Normal relationship . You can't get into a relationship with someone in fear Of the side of you that you hide from the world, You actually feel scared that eventually when you get comfortable Your mask will slip And they will know . It's a constant act . You know your mind is polluted with a disease people can't understand .
But what hurts most is that You weren't always like this . Sometimes you ponder on the time you were 'Normal' , You miss those times right ? But the thing is , You are crazy now . Let's be honest , Does it get any crazier ? You literally Pay someone too tell you that your worthless . Im sorry for the reality check , You need it bro . But it gets better , Just read below .
I just want too put a few words out here straight from my heart , I hope you all have a read. Firstly I just want too make clear , Anyone In this Community , Anyone Under the hooks of this Devilish Addiction Has my sympathy . People don't understand Us . Used , Abused , Degraded , for what ? Because our own minds have gone against Us . It's more than Humiliation , It's betrayal Of our own minds . When your mind Doesn't have the best Intentions for you , We should for each other . There's something heartfelt about this , Because We all know Exactly what each another are dealing with . It's like Living with a curse , something which incapacitates Your social Life . When people talk about mental health , this is the pinnacle . We PAY Money for someone to tell us How Worthless we are . I just want too make 2 Points which helped me break free and never look back ever .
Change your View on Doms . They are genuinely criminals . They are not intelligent , they are not cool , They are actually predators Preying on people who are down Bad . You are genuinely funding a Malicious predator . They Are Waiting at the bottom for a Weakened man To fall Into there grips . They are monsters , Im not exaggerating. When your asking to be degraded , Humiliated , pissed on or whatever it is you want , Do you believe your in The right state of mind ? Now , I want too Add something on to this . Next time your in this state of mind , I want you too think of a loved one . Whoever is most dear to you In the world , preferably someone younger . It could be a little brother , sister or someone your naturally protective over . Now Imagine, you found out your younger brother / sister were paying someone too literally abuse them . How would you view the person carrying out the act ? You would want too destroy them . Be angry , I want you too be . I want you too really shift your perspective on how you view these so called women . It will make you appreciate normal , Healthy , Kind , Gentle women . Some may say , "Oh but he asked for it , he enjoys it " . Does that Mean Crack dealers are also exempt from Morality ?
If you really really want too break free , Monitor your mind . impulsive behaviour is your enemy . As long as your unconscious isn't conscious, You will never be free . The underlying issue of All of this Is Having a Peek , trust me . Discipline your mind. I don't mean that in a corny Monk Way , I mean Genuinely discipline yourself . The more You punish Yourself , The less You will want someone else to punish You . Become obsessed with dominating yourself . Look at yourself in the mirror and declare war . I would look at myself and say , " You want too be dominated right ? Well watch now . Just watch the shit im going to make you do . Im going to dominate you in a way No women ever could . You run when I tell you to run . You wake up when I tell you too wake up . You go to the gym when I fucking tell you to go the gym , Im going to show you real Domination". Be driven by anger , Your mind Betrayed You And Now it's time for you too show it who is in control . Genuinely Do What You tell yourself to do and Listen , The more you do this You will listen to What You tell yourself not to do . You can't tell Yourself Don't peek , It doesn't work like that . Until you have Pure control of your mind through Discipline , It just won't work . Your brain Knows Your are A liar and It's not scared of you, So it will Act on impulsive behaviour and walk all over you. But Believe me , Once it's scared and It knows who is in charge , Boy things get much easier .