Venting
So I'm a bad student. I don't study, I don't score grades. A disgrace to family. Disappointment. This is who I'm. I don't even know if I'll pass the exams or not. I'm sure to fail in Urdu. I have no preparation for practical exam. You see the exam is tomorrow. I'm also going to fail. I hate the silence from my mother. She won't say it but her face shows that she is disappointed in me. I don't know what to do anymore. I think day night. There isn't a day that I don't think about taking my life. But I cannot do that . Cause that is Haram. I know if I tell you this, you're going to tell me to consult to an helpline or a therapist . But in Pakistan no ones gives a damn what you think , what you feel . If you're rich you're depressed etc. but if you're poor like me you're making excuses.
Sorry for venting.