Could this be analogous to alot of people's experiences here on this planet?
It appears as if there's some form of force that wants people alive enough to survive but not thrive. Sometimes when I'm at peace and all is aplomb, the equivalent of an incendiary device is detonated on my plans and I'm dragged back into the abyss. It's as if Bill Maher's quote is being made manifest, "there's no money in healthy people, and there's no money in dead people, the money is in the middle, people alive, sort of" and George Carlin's quote "They want obedient workers, obedient workers, people just smart enough to run these machines and do the paperwork and just dumb enough to passively accept all of these increasingly shittier jobs with the lower pay, the longer hours and reduced benefits and the end of overtime and the vanishing pension that disappears the moment you go to collect it". They want the masses (macrosystemic/exosystemic/mesosystemic level if talking about bronfenbrenner's ecological systems) to be self policing crabs in a bucket, living as an amorphous grey amalgamation of socially acceptable forms of belief templates and domestication programs, self-propelling the endless ouroboros rat race hamster wheel of conformity and "indentured" (after working for half ones life if lucky with no divorce) economic servitude. Is this template also archontic in stifling the human spirit of creativity into a hectic heap of endless unfulfilled wishes and desperate desires for economic freedom, a perfect recipe for a limbic limbo for maximal amygdala hijacking and minimal prefrontal cortex use. It's like there's an unseen power that seems to attract mayhem into people's lives as soon as they find peace, I've seen it with myself and a lot of others around me (microsystemic level). I feel like there's a physical and non physical component to this madness.