First outbreak, got lied to, was protected, I'm terrified.
Hello, I'm 32 male, got out of a 8 years relationship recently and met a woman that I thought was nice. We got intimate after she told me she had nothing wrong sexually. I wore a condom. We had sex 3 times over two days and the last time she told me she was in pain. Next day she goes to her doctor and he tells her that she has genital herpes.
But instead of telling me the truth, she told me her doctor told her she was just sore and she was fine. She told me we could have sex again any time soon, but the connection I felt with her stoped and we didn't see eachother again after that.
17 days later I got few pimples on my scrotum, I'm very aware of my body because I already have chronic health problems, so I immediatly send her a message and she did casually answer that It should be herpes, which she tells me, is really no problem.
I obviously freak out but try not to spiral too fast because I was protected.. few days go and it seems like the little pimple don't turn too bad even if some of them looks like herpes. Until this afternoon where I go for a walk and my anus was itching. As soon as I got back home, I checked, and of course there many many white pimple near my anus.
I'm so scared right now, like many I feel like my life is over, I'm having a hard time realising this is my new reality. Also, first outbreak usually shows were the next one will be, and near the anus is not exactly where I would've liked it to happen since I'm an avid runner..............
Please tell me I'm going to be okay, I already have my fair share of chronic health problems, this is way too much for me to bare.
I was still trying to get over my ex who dumped me, this is too much. I feel like ending my life, but as usual, I'll fight and try to get through it instead.