Did Molly with husband and he spoke to me like I was the other woman during sex..we have had sex daily since 💀 sometimes 2x a day
Married 15 years, together 20 years. Both nearing 40. We tried Molly together and later that night he was hallucinating while we were having sex. It was like the serotonin flood attached to every fantasy and intrusive ego driven thought. He detailed acts with other women saying he would end his marriage for me… saying don’t tell your boyfriend I want to fuck you so bad. Detailing logistical meet up spots and calling me baby girl. He called me doctor at one point and said Im such a good neighbor. A lot of it was threesome based/multiple women. But it was intermingled with work/business comments and details about ongoing investments that were true. I honestly panicked internally but was turned on by the dirty talk and I rode him soft for about 2 hours just asking questions while he detailed various fantasies with different women 💀 it’s taken over my brain for the past month wondering if there was any truth to what he said or was it just fantasies. He mentioned financially supporting her asking how much she wants and if she wants a Porsche. He is adamant that there is no affair and there’s nothing he’s hiding from me. He admitted that his mind has been wandering lately though and he struggles with lusting over other women. I always catch him checking other girls out even when I take really good care of myself. I workout daily and put all of the effort in on my appearance to be my absolute best.
Anyways it really was a wake up call for me and rewired my brain entirely. We have had the best sex we’ve ever had this past entire month. We had sex 3x yesterday. I know it’s so toxic and trauma induced fear of loss. When we have sex I literally get off thinking about him actually doing the things he said to me that night but outside of intimacy I’m in a state of panic & hyper vigilance overthinking everything. Waking up panicking and short of breath. I know I can’t go on with the mental gymnastics. I have to decide what I believe to be true and just move forward. I feel there’s something hidden but I just don’t know what. Either way, I’ve had a great time trauma riding him like I’m 20 again to make me feel better every day. If all of this was really just fantasies and his brain being hijacked by Molly then I’m embarrassed by how much I’ve let it impact my life for an entire month straight. Im not sure where to go from here like is it just daily sex to feel secure from here on out. I have to get out of my head with this whole thing and find a way to move forward. How would you react to all of this? Also this is not a promotion to do molly for the men wanting to get laid daily 🤣