Why does bipolar makes so much sense
I been seeing mental health providers for yearssss. It’s always been ADHD and anxiety.
This last year I feel like I get into this fog for a week or 2 where I have no desire to do anything. I do the bare minimum if even that then eventually I just pull myself out and become the best version of myself for a while where my house is clean, my needs are met and everything seems back to normal. Then all of a sudden I feel like I’m back at square one where I don’t want to do anything. I won’t shower, barely would make food, I’ll completely neglect myself then it’s like switches off and I’m back to “normal”. Never really seen this as a problem but I know there was times I couldn’t figure out what is wrong with me.
For cost reasons, I had to find another provider and I met with them for the first time a few days ago. I gave her my usual history. Then I started mentioning like my impulsiveness which I always thought was apart of having ADHD. She asked me about taking risk and I told her I’ve always thought about doing risky things but never do them because I don’t wanna deal with any consequences. I might not have been completely open but also I didn’t see it as a problem where there’s days I’ll sleep like 4 hours just be okay like nothing wrong. I’ll start hyper fixating on getting my life together and planning out my future. I never seen these things as hypomanic. I didn’t even know hypomanic was a thing.
She mentioned to me it sounds like bipolar but for now it’s unspecified mood disorder while we work out what’s going on. She suggested a mood stabilizer and I’m going to give it a try and continue to see her.
I never thought I could have bipolar but the more I realized what I thought was normal is actually hypomanic. It makes so much sense. I have friends that would make comments about how I act and they call me the careless impulsive friend. I love to live life on the edge and that’s just how I been especially this last year since I moved away from home.
I think I’m just in this sub looking for some support. Is this what it was like for you before you got officially diagnosed? It eventually gets better ?