r/bipolar

My girlfriend has recently gotten out of the hospital from a psychosis episode, we went to see her psychiatrist recently and we talked about getting her off of one medicine right now cause she thought it was making it hard for her to function, she cut it down to half one week and then completely stop, about a week later she started ",hearing the TV talk to her" or felt like it was sending her a message. Today she is having the racing thoughts too we started back on the medicine she took off last night as a precaution was kinda wanting some advice on where to go from here (also she is on her period i have seen some say that effects them as well)

TLDR: Should I quit my new high pay high experience job to go travelling for half a year?

So when I was 18 I did a solo trip to British Columbia. I loved my adventure so much I vowed to come again and travel the world. Now I'm pushing 30 and I haven't done any of it.

Here's my situation. Not long ago I got slacked from old job and got employement insurance. 1 month later found my highest paying job with the kind of experience I've had a hard time finding. I like it but after my probation they'll put me on the night shift for years and i'm not sure I'll be too happy in that situation.

The Plan: I get fired from my new job probation for bad performance and I get my Employement insurance back. Then I travel Canada for the summer and go to British Columbia again.

Before you judge me for using EI there are plenty of guys in construction that spend every winter on EI. God forbid I use it once when I get it for the summer when is that going to happen again.

After that i'd spend the fall traveling europe and if I'm still game I'd spend winter travelling hot countries.

I've got the funds. The only thing I'm risking is a pretty good job.

Oh yeah and I'm bipolar too. One of the reasons I haven't traveled since i'm 18 is because I wasn't feeling so good. I'm feeling good now and it feels like the time to achieve my dream. What says if I stay working on the night shift for years I won't be depressed and will not want to travel anymore.

Start my second ever 8-hour job next monday. First one was a disaster, and it was easier because it was a retail job so I was on my feat all day. I was fired after 3 months. This one's a desk job. It's really hard for me to stay awake from 830 to 430. It's really hard for me to be productive for 8 hours in a row.

I'm trying really hard. I'm practicing. But I'm still not managing it. I'm scared. This job is a huge opportunity and I'm scared of blowing it.

I don’t have medications, a doc, insurance, or a support network. If I check into a hospital, all I will be doing is starting this over yet again. I just can’t. I’m 50yo and burnt out. There is nobody to ask for help in my life.

I need to move far away & don’t want any of the stuff I have. I don’t know how to list it for sale or even if it’s worth trying. I have a few things of value, but they only of value to me if at all. A bunch of nickel and dime crafting materials that I really should just throw out or give away. A lot of failed art projects that I don’t want to look at or think about anymore. So many broken things. I have nowhere to go.

I really want to stop thinking about killing myself, but it won’t cease. Being homeless in my car sounds nice, I am unemployable. I only want to sleep forever. Please make this stop.

That one is giving me weird effects.

First, most annoying, this slightly anxiety, as I can not sit still and just pay attention to something, I need to do something, I've cut my hair, done a whole beauty care, reviewed my clothes/outfits, I couldn't just watch netflix.

Also, I can not.. finish.. you know, no pleasure.. I get there but nothing happens.

I have nausea as soon as I do a little jogging and I'm not hungry

I get up at effing sunrise every morning (???? Why?????)

Should I tell my psychiatrist? Are all these side effects too much and I'm suggestioning(?) myself?

anyone else on this mix? just started on vraylar and am wondering about other ppls experiences :^) so far i’m taking it at night with my lamotrigine, when i was taking it during the day it made me feel really out of it but so far so good

Hello, I've had schizoaffective disorder for three years and I'm new to this subreddit. I was recently taken off lamotrigine, which I'd been taking for two years, due to possible Stevens Johnson syndrome, and after that I started taking Rexulti (sorry if the name is spelled incorrectly, but I hope everyone understands what I'm talking about). I've been taking it for about two weeks now. I read that side effects can include weight gain, but it's like my anorexia has worsened. I have no desire to eat at all. Could Rexulti be responsible? In 2024, I took Prozac, and it caused my anorexia. Could it happen again?

I'm curious to know what are the most paired medications that seem to work best for bipolar II.

I have a psychiatrist appointment today and want to add something because although Caplyta has shown positive results, I am still struggling with rapid cycling.

Due to this, avoiding any SSRI seems to be safest. I am thinking lamotrigine, which I've been on before, but only by itself. Would love to hear from anyone's experience on what works for them!

How does having BD effect having a romantic relationship with someone ? Sometimes I try not to get in my head about certain things but I’ve also evolved and became so much more aware of myself and everything the more I embraced being bipolar lol and I’m a healed Virgo btw, dating or soon to start dating this beautiful ass Aquarius woman

Does it depend on meds you take?

When they say alcohol is bad for bipolar does it mean heavy drinking or even a small amount?

I was just wondering if one or two cocktails won't hurt. I just want to enjoy life and one of the things that used to make me happy was going to different cocktail bars and now I just feel like I've been stripped of it.

Hey guys.. So the place I was renting was up for sale, and unfortunately it sold - the person wants to move into it, so by law I do have to move.

I just found out yesterday. I was very shocked but i was calm- for most of the day. I did break down twice, but not as bad as I thought I'd ?

I get waves of complete rage where I want to destroy everything - but surprisingly Ive been able to hold myself back from doing so.

I'm worried I'm not letting out my aggression or sadnesses and more or less bottling most of it... that I'll snap and itll be at the people who dont deserve it etc. I am very confrontational right now.. Ive for the most part kept away from my phone so I don't lash out over things that have nothing to do with my current situation- because of how bottled I feel like I'm being.

Ive contacted the LTB for guidance and paralegal. I do know my rights, but I'm so paranoid I'm being lied to I'm having a hard time.

I also haven't been sleeping properly in over a week. Maybe am hour or 2 a night..

Im also very worried this will triggered a huge low ajd I'll shut right down. I have a lot to do before I move and I cannot go into a low and shut down. Im scared of that.

Am I handling this well? Should I be concerned about my reactions?

Fyi ive been properly medicated for 1.5 years which has helped tremendously so I know that plays a huge factor.

I've recently been getting very, very anxious and frankly scared about my future. I'm supposed to graduate in December, but we'll see. I was supposed to graduate in December 2024...and then December 2025 but had to drop out both semesters, and of course one of the courses I need is only offered in the Fall.

I'm 29 and autistic in addition to bipolar. I still live with my parents and am 100% financially dependent on them. I have also never had a job. At fucking 29.

The degree is in political science, but everything I ever saw myself doing in that field or related ones requires grad school/law school. I currently have a 2.1 GPA and can only raise it to a 2.2 max, so that's clearly no longer an option. Plus I'm not all that sure more school is a good idea considering this has taken me 11 years. Taking easy courses to boost my GPA also isn't financially feasible. I've done the math, and it would take 36 credits of a perfect GPA to even get back up to 2.5.

I really have no idea what to do. I've never had a job, and I don't have any useful skills. I've been told I write well. My grades on written assignments back that up, but I don't know how exactly I'd prove that. Otherwise, I wouldn't say there's anything I'm particularly good at. I have terrible, terrible social anxiety so a customer facing job would be hell. I'm getting bored just thinking about learning to code and have no interest at all in the tech industry. I've been thinking over the last few days trying to come up with some field/occupation that I feel I could be passionate about, and I'm coming up empty.

So that leaves me with....what? I seriously have no idea, and that's why I'm asking y'all. It's a longshot, but maybe your comments can help me figure something out.

I'm under no illusion that most people love, or even like, their jobs, and that's what scares me the most. Even if I can get a job that I can tolerate while not depressed, I know myself and know that in a depressive episode I will not be able to make myself get up and out of the house if I'm not at least a little bit interested. But it just seems like my options are so limited that it might be impossible to find something like that.

I've always felt like I have given up on life. I'm just here existing doing what people normally do (studying, getting a job, buying a house, etc) because it's in a way the stages of life. Now I'm not saying I am suicidal. I have a phobia of death, but I just like I have no passion or goals in life, especially after I've fulfilled the one goal that I've been starving to accomplish for years that it was unhealthy at some point. It's more like "what do I do now?". One thing I truly believe is that maybe I was supposed to die sometime in the past (Accident, sickness, etc), but I somehow avoided that, and therefore I'm lifeless in a way if that makes sense. That I'm not supposed to be here. I don't know if anybody feels this way, but I hope it makes sense.

So, finals are essentially next week and between that and all my graduation excitement I feel I’m hypo manic. I’ve slept about 4-5 hours a night the past couple of night and tonight I’m having extra racing tonight. Like my eyes burn from how tired I am but I can’t seem to fall asleep. Has this happened to you before? I know what goes up must come down but I’m hoping it’s not before graduation in 2 weeks. Scary hours! I am fully medicated and in therapy.

Hello,
I have a boyfriend for a couple of years now.
I have been diagnosed with Bipolar 1 while being with him.
It has been a rollercoaster but we love each other.
He lived in Japan and Korea for his work and moved there from Europe to follow his girlfriend.
I have never been jealous in my life, never.
But I feel quite ugly next to the super hot women he dated.
The most important one is a stewardess and she is super beautiful, like the perfect Korean beauty.

My weight varies depending on which mood I am in.
I am not ugly but not beautiful, average I would say.
When I am up, I certainly am more radiant than when I am down and totally grey.

My boyfriend also dated a hot japanese woman who did pole dance, some SW and some highly intelligent women, all with high degrees and beautiful.
All with long hair and very feminine.

I have two kids and am already happy when I showered and put some make up haha !
My hair is curly and each time I try to wax my legs it all grows back underneath my skin, not at all sexy.

I am an artist, more of a loser profile, but with my low self esteem I always forget I am not that bad at my job.

I just don’t know why I get so jealous.

He slept with another woman (also Asian) while we were together and I knew and did not care.
I never think about it. The only thing I didn’t like was the smell of her perfume on him when he came home.

Maybe being jealous is more about projecting my own doubts on my partner.

Everybody keeps telling me how crazy in love he is with me when we are together.
We weren’t supposed to fall in love, he was just a tinder date and I felt deeply in love the moment I saw him thanks to a very high maniac episode.
I then felt like the most beautiful women in the world.

It’s crazy how Bipolar affects our body image.

Thank you for reading me.

Hi! I'm 25F. Long story short, I know that is very important to have a professional to talk to, but I've been trying since I was 19. Yes, I tried different therapists,and they also make me realize a lot about my family and what shaped so many things about my personality but I'm the problem I don't know how to change. The last one I went to was nice, she heard me but it was like.... yes the same I told you last week I'm a mess and the meds (luckily) make me feel anesthetized. It feels like I'm going to being scolded like a dumb child. I'm being self destructive wow 😲 so crazy I can't change it

I don't know what I'll do next. Lol I was feeling invincible and now I'm just getting tired again. I do a lot of silly things when I feel good. And now I'm like, oops. anyone else do dangerous or loose things during certain times? I don't know how to manage it.

Hi all! I was thinking that bipolar should be viewed as a super power. I think so many of us come up with some really brilliant ideas when we are manic that never get realised after the episode because we run out of steam and have to go back to the rat race. I’d love it if we could all reignite each other ideas and help each other peruse them. Let’s hear all the ideas!!! 1,2,3 GO!

Here we go again, another day to get through and here comes the depression. I really don’t want to participate in life today. I don’t have the energy to push through. The couch is looking better and better. I’ve been obsessing over ridiculously stupid things and can’t stay focused. I had a really good, balanced 3 days and now I’m gonna pay for it. I have an appointment with my therapist today. It won’t do anything for my depression (never does) but I like talking to her. Kind of enamored with her so I find it easy to tell her things.

Anyway, here we go. God help me.

I don't know how to explain this feeling, maybe it's just overall exhaustion from life, or some kind of doom that keeps growing each day.

I feel so empty, yet everything's so intense on me. There's a lot of things I used to love, now I can barely get myself to get out of bed to eat. Not that I'm hungry, I feel nauseous at everything that goes in.

I don't want to feel like this forever, but it's been 6 years. Can I get one peaceful day?