u/Previous-Aardvark220

Hi im going into my senior year and like an idiot I have put zero effort into looking into colleges because my academic record is very rough so I gave up the dream of going. The First 2 years my gpa was a 1.53- im looking into what I can do to help raise that gpa because part of the reason it was so low was to severe personal struggles that kept me out of school for basically the entire year but my parents did not withdraw me from school which caused literally all my grades to be zeros for about 3/4s of that year. I transferred to a different school, the next year was mostly the same just f/d/c grades. Finally last year things got way better and somehow when I looked my gpa last year it was a 3.8. So my gpa is terrible I really wanted to go to a Florida college or some sort of nicer college not like ivy or anything but the dream school was Uni of Florida but thats not happening. Some of the state colleges were I live high acceptance rates and my brother went to one and I hear that can help, But I really dont want to go to that college I really wanted to go out of state lol. My question is it to go to a state college or just go to community for a person like me?

Not including community college- Im going into senior year and I have to start looking for colleges, Literally all of the colleges I see all have an average high gpa of like a 3.8. My high school gpa is very rough in my first 2 years im not trying to make excuses but I had horrible mental health troubles that kept me out of school for about 2 years I had a gpa in the first year I think a 2.1 and then the 2nd I had like a 1.9 but junior year I got back into school and finished with a 3.88 Im pretty sure off the top of my head so what are some colleges that are actually possible? And if there arent im willing to move further away into like the San Francisco area

It happens to me with almost all nin songs I sit there and think "holy hell how does someone even begin to make a song sound like this?" They have so much going on and each being so unique sounding while also being so complicated it breaks my brain to even try to think of making something like that lol. I feel like even if you werent a fan but listened to some of their songs they sound so interesting that it you would just have to sit through the song.

hi im 17m and I think one of the worst parts of just bipolar/depression for me is having literally no one to talk to when things are really bad. Its so hard to just feel like the water is up to your head but have no one to turn to, to just talk about it. I have gotten rid of most of my old friends and its probably for the best most of them werent good people but with that I basically have no one to talk to anymore about anything. One of them gets real uncomfortable around me when I talk about anything remotely about whats going on with me. I have another friend who is great to talk to we share a lot but lately I have lost the ability to be honest I cant ever just say whats going on with me its so frustrating and like I said incredibly isolating and lonely.
What do you guys do about this realistically, because others without bipolar have told me to just get out and make friends but I dont think they understand just how hard it is to do that when everything is going wrong.

A couple of things im 17 so im not going to be graphic at all and if anyone comments please keep that in mind I also will probably take this down soon because its embarrassing lol. I have bipolar and a part of my mania is hypersexuality- when I was manic I just was all sex and I engaged in what I would say was stuff I dont agree with. Now 1st question is that something that happens? With hypersexuality I know its a heighted sex drive but does also effect like chasing more extreme stuff compared to what you are used to. Now this is the harder one to explain what about hypersexuality outside of mania do people get that? Normally im not a sexual person at all I dont enjoy it and dont like thinking about it

I have been in a rut were I go weeks to even month to months without wanting any sexual thing and then I just feel like an animal pent up in a cage and go insane. And this is happening way to often now, before it might happen 1 time a month now its bi weekly, And im so scared because my brain is so messed up right now, I feel like I sexualize everything and that I want to have sex with everyone I see which is so scary because its so far away from who I normally am.

This might be a messed up question but its coming just out of pure curiosity and not saying people should cut themselves but it crosses my mind when you are itching and its that itch that you just dig deeper and harder has anyone just tried to cut it? does it feel the same as itching or do nothing? Again sorry if that is a very messed up question its just one I was curious about and not wanting to actually do any of that

I cut myself but its never super deep just surface stuff just enough to feel it without causing more serious harm. I have recently read and seen some images of more serious scars and stories and it has left me almost disturbed- Not towards the people themselves because I understand why they do it im just disturbed seeing how bad it can truly get its really jarring. I think it would be best to stop so I dont even have the chance of getting to that point.

I hope this isnt reassurance seeking but I think im just more curious then trying to solve a worry. I get a lot of thoughts that are alarming but are different from I guess a typical what if I do this or what if I do that, I sometimes will get thoughts of me just doing the bad thing and then worry after having the thought, example this isnt the ones I get because I would rather not share but something like this- I get yelled at and then my brain thinks or gives images of harming that person and then right after the thought passes im like wtf was that. Those thoughts are the worst for me because it feels more real its like my brain didnt flag it before it went through

The game was so much better than I ever thought, I had no idea just how good and twisted the story was I thought it was going to be more of one of those games that are like a haunted house were its scary sometimes cheap scares and no real story it was just made to scare you but it wasnt that- so so so good with real depth and great art and narrative it felt much more than just a typical "scary" game omg it was good. The one tiny thing I wish was different was during the loading screens when they give you those little bits of lore that it wouldnt automatically just disapear and send you out of the loading screen, I wish it would pop up and when it was done loading it gave you a press x to continue so that you could really read the lore and take it in because sometimes I would feel rushed and have to quickly read it and sometimes miss bits of it. But besides that amazing game

Ok so im trying to make the weyers tonic I have the bone and the poison thing, BUT I was confused on where to find the vitae so I was just walking around all of the places and walked into the chancel I then was captured and put into that prison, After escaping I learned what to do to get the vitae by combining the glass jar and the string to put into that pit in the transept, BUT after escaping the prison and the shadow I come back to find everything is destroyed and the pathway to the transit is blocked. Am I just screwed? Is there anyway to still get it?

Im in a state where just nothing feels good, my brain feels sick same with my body, I want to sleep but I cant, Laying down doesnt feel good either I just cant seem to get comfortable, This is going to sound weird but whatever the bones are called that are right near the front of your ears feels like an huge amount of pressure on them and just resting my head on a pillow feels awful. Nothing helps right now, watching videos and doing things isnt helping, I just cant fill my time through the day

I have had full blown manic episode where I didnt sleep for something like 7 days and just tons of other craziness I know that happen. But I feel like nothing has happened since no signs nothing just deep depression. Im on meds but when I first was put on them I stopped for months probably for 6 months and nothing happened I was depressed but nothing else whatsoever, I dont feel bipolar whatever that means, If I ever get any sort of feeling that could be something its gone in a day or 2 it never lasts. I know this is not a great sign but the only symptom I feel like I have of bipolar was the manic episode and the crash I know thats a big sign but I would think there would be more to.

Nothing has happened since to make me believe it. I was 6 months off meds basically besides the times I had to give blood- and I was completely fine no one knew, no one suspected anything, So I know I can at least to some extent be fine off meds, Im not saying im going off but it makes me think about it

I would have moments when I was really depressed and I got a sudden burst of energy I would try to convince myself I was going manic and even started doing similar things I would when I was manic to convince myself obviously not to the extent of what I would if I was really manic but still lol is that something that people do?

I might just be stupid but im trying to play this game for the first time and so far I love the atmosphere and story and vibe all of that, but for the life of me I cant solve some of these puzzles im stuck in this stupid wine cellar for an hour I ran out of all oil and tinderboxes I just keep running in circles am I just stupid or is this how its supposed to be?

Like the title states does medicine induced mania count as a real manic ep and same with abruptly going off causing a mania, would these be considered a "real" mania or an artificial mania

I didnt take my meds last night idk why and I just feel sick my brain feels like its filled with poison partly cause of just weirdness happening in my head but still. Is this something worry about or is that a normal reaction for you to have from missing 1 day

Im 17 and I have asked my friends and family to make a topster of their favorite albums because its fun but every time they always say they dont know/listen to enough albums to make a list. They only listen to select songs from the artists they like- example my sister says she loves radiohead but even from their most popular album ok computer she didnt know paranoid android or climbing up the walls. For me when I find a new artist I will sit down and listen to their albums start to finish to see if I like them does anyone still do that?