r/BipolarReddit

Supposedly I have adhd, ASD and bipolar.

I think I have completely made it all up. I’ve never done any of typical bipolar stuff. No crazy mania nothing more than a good mood.

Depression, yeah, but everyone gets that from time to time right. I am no different.

I know exactly what’s wrong with me . I am a sad middle aged person with a boring life who needs attention. That’s it nothing else. I want be in a club or a group because I’m not. I’m nothing.

As soon as my responsibilities are done I’m out of here.

I am bipolar type 2

I have been taking quetiapine 600mg xr once daily since September 2025.

It has stabilized my mood very well. During the first few weeks, I felt groggy every morning after taking it at night. Now, the grogginess has gone away.

I still feel sleepy throughout the day and have very poor concentration. I'm a medical student, so I need to study for several hours every day. I take my quetiapine every evening at 8:00 p.m.

To help with my low energy and poor concentration, my psychiatrist prescribed bupropion. Unfortunately, I don't feel that it has helped much.

Quetiapine has also caused me to gain weight and i think it affects my memory or like brain fog... but i also think can be due to daytime sleepiness

I asked my psychiatrist if we could switch to another medication, but she said she doesn't want to take the risk because quetiapine has stabilized my mood well, and there's no guarantee that another medication would work as effectively for me.

I'm looking for advice from people who are taking (or have taken) quetiapine. How did you deal with the daytime sleepiness, poor concentration, or weight gain? Did anything help?

My meds make me tired but I otherwise like them so don't really want to change them. Is there anything that can be prescribed in this scenario?

Ever since I started taking Abilify back in 2020, I’ve gone from being 77lbs to 170lbs(I’m a 5’2” woman for reference) and now that I want to start dating, I’m finding it impossible to find anyone decent to date, especially since I can’t lose the Abilify weight with diet and I can’t get on any GLP1s because I also have Crohn’s Disease(my gastroenterologist told me that he would never let me go on GLP1s). The only guys who want to date me are those with feeder fetishes and that makes feel me feel even more repulsive. Unfortunately, I can’t take any other antipsychotics because I’ve tried them all and they’ve given me horrendous side effects. I seriously am thinking about going off my meds and trying to get back down to 77lbs so that way decent men would find me beautiful again. I miss my old body so much.

Since being on meds my sex drive has gone done a lot. I haven't dated seriously since being diagnosed bipolar and I worry it would affect a future relationship I have since I used to want it constantly and barely have any drive at all.

I’ve been called crazy my entire life. Men never take me seriously because of my bipolar. I don’t even tell people that I have it, and they figure it out anyways. Just had a guy I was talking to tell me that I belong in a straight jacket and need a lobotomy. I’m so tired of hearing things like this and it’s not the first time.

A lot of times I can brush it off, but now that I’m almost 28, I want a serious relationship especially because my siblings are in relationships but, I’m having trouble keeping one.

I need advice and support right now. 🙁

I keep hearing voices from former bullies and/or acquaintances in my head - not physically. Usually it’s just criticism. Anyone know if these are auditory hallucinations or something else.

Olá, eu não irei expor meu nome por motivos óbvios e afim de me preservar, mas gostaria de esclarecer algumas coisas. Sou mulher cis de 28 anos e desde muito cedo (desde os 8 ou 9 anos mais ou menos) lido com sintomas ansiosos e depressivos, o que me levou a ser diagnosticada com transtorno misto de ansiedade e depressão. Eu tenho problemas de automutilação, ideação suicida, explosões emocionais, irritabilidade, tudo me atinge em cheio.... A uns três anos, em 2023, tive um episódio depressivo bem grave. O psiquiatra me receitou venlafaxina de 75 mg e me tornou suicida. Eu cismei que tinha que me matar pra ter paz finalmente, o que levou à suspensão imediata do remedio e precisei de sedação durante o episodio de crise para evitar que eu fizesse besteira. Me recuperei depois disso, sem remedios porque ficaram com medo, mas sempre estou lidando com muita ansiedade, me automutilando, estressada, explodindo e perdendo amizades por isso.... Também não estou suportando ir pra festas ou lugares lotados e com musica alta. Até que esse ano de 2026, por motivos familiares, eu voltei a entrar em crise, novamente querendo morrer e muito nervosa, agitada, sem dormir, e voltei a tentar outro antidepressivo, dessa vez a sertralina de 50 mg, mas com alguns dias de uso eu fiquei agitada, sem dormir por 3 dias, com muita taquicardia (coração chegou a 120 batimentos por minuto), muita sudorese, agitação, pensamentos negativos, uma irritabilidade nas alturas (tanto que eu surtei durante o jogo do Brasil contra Japão porque comemoraram ao meu lado e o barulho dos gritos e apitos me fez surtar, além de que mordi todo o interior da minha bochecha). Dia 1 de julho tive uma intercorrência e precisei ir para a emergência psiquiatra, onde me sedaram. A psiquiatra de plantão acredita que eu possa ter borderline ou bipolaridade, afinal eu sempre pioro com antidepressivo. Gostaria de uma ajuda sobre o que vocês imaginam que seja. Tenho retorno com a psiquiatra dia 18 de julho e a minha psicologa está acompanhando dia a dia (estou fazendo um diário do humor). O que me intriga é que eu não sou compulsiva por compras e nem tenho hipersexualização. Tenho uma amiga bipolar tipo 2 que ela compra tudo na hipomania, mas eu não tenho nada disso. Apenas deprimo e depois fico melhorzinha, mas com comportamentos "normais". Quem entende de bipolaridade/borderline, vocês acreditam que eu possa ter algum desses? estou desesperada querendo entender isso, porque é horrivel ficar tomando antidepressivos e não me dar bem com nenhum deles.

I take 600 mg Oxcarbazepine, 0.25 mg Clonazepam, 150 mg Lamotrigine, 10 mg Nexito. (All prescribed)

I used to take 2 tablets of 300 mg Oxcarbazepine everyday. After taking my meds today, I realised I had taken 2 tablets of 600 mg Oxcarbazepine instead without realising it wasn't my usual 300 mg (my mother forgot to tell me she got new dosage of my meds).

Is this serious? Should I just sleep it off?

im not diagnosed with bipolar disorder but ive been showing signs. i feel reall reall really good rn. i could go on but i’ll hold back. how do i know if im manic? or hypomanic? what would make it necessary for me to go to a doctor or something? could i talk with someone who’s bipolar?

For the last few days when I'm by myself I just want to be sleeping. I don't want to do anything. I'm on 3mg of Vraylar right now, just increased my dose due to newly being upgraded from Bipolar 2 to Bipolar 1 and having a bad manic episode.

I need to snap myself out and can't do it. I barely even cared enough to make this post. Any ideas to help? I have therapy tomorrow.

I was having what I think is a mixed/"weird" episode, decided to stop taking my meds than took them all at once, plus more pills washed down by a fuck load of hard liquor, then did something else I shalln't say on here. Ended up in the ICU for almost 3 full days and now I'm at the psych ward. Pretty low security, so I have my phone and laptop.

I feel like a drugged up zombie with the occasional crying fit right now, that's my best way to word things. I'm working closely with my parents and psychiatrists/nurses/etc. Hoping to get some sense of normalcy in my life because I have been missing that for years now. Not even sure why I'm posting this here.

Inform your providers if your treatment isn't working for you: don't try to take matters into your own hands, lol.

i was 192 before antipsychotics. i had become obsessed with boxing and hot yoga (and diet) the year and a half prior to being diagnosed. i had started at 237.

i began olanzapine and went back up to 225 ish in a few months. then i switched to asenapine and was stuck at around 218 but still was gaining a bit. then i switched to geodon and my weight stayed the same at around 216-220.

i’ve gone down on the geodon dosage the past three weeks and now im down to 213. if anything i had thought i had gained weight because of how poorly im eating. the only thing thats changed is dosage

anyone else experience this ?

It’s like I have 20 tabs open in my brain

I haven’t been on here in a long while so how is everyone else doing?

I am turning 40 years old in two days. My whole life has been depression and OCD. Really bad OCD, and pretty bad depression. I finally saw a psychiatrist when I was 21 years old, who diagnosed me with a mood disorder, along with OCD. I didn't understand how that was possible when the OCD and depression were the only two things I ever felt.

He tried me on trileptal, and after a month I insisted his diagnoses was wrong and just wanted to try an SSRI. He let me try lexapro, and I felt great. He continued to ask visit after visit about my mood, and I just told him I'm doing great, I feel great, no more OCD, it's a home run. I wasn't doing anything super impulsive or having mania, so me being happy with my mood he kept me on lexapro. For 10 years I stayed on laxapro and everything was great.

When I was in my early thirties, something had changed. I was experiencing low moods, so my psychiatrist decided it was time for a med change. He once again said that he sees my type of symptoms often, and tried to get me to see past what I thought was only OCD and depression and understand it was bipolar disorder, or a mood disorder "not otherwise specified" and that needed to be treated. I always thought of bipolar is having extreme ups and I just never saw that in myself. Anyway, he added lamictal and it helped a little.

Fast forward another 3 or 4 years, and I decided I had enough and went off all my meds. I tapered really slow. I ended up with the worst depression and OCD you can imagine. Like I cant even describe how bad the OCD and depression was, there are no words. We tried every med in the book, including the combo that I was recently on, and nothing worked. Finally after two years of no luck, we tried the combo again and it semi worked. He then added serequel into the mix and that is was I am currently on now. 40mg lexapro, 200mg Lamictal, 100mg serequel, and 1mg klonopin for sleep and as needed.

I feel stable enough. Coming out of that 2 year episode, I feel lucky to be where I'm at now and happy that I have meds that are working for me. They don't work 100%, but they help a lot.

Here is the part that I just realized. This whole time, it's been predominately bipolar and OCD, not depression and OCD. I should have listened to him as he insisted over and over that I try different meds that are for bipolar but I wouldn't listen. And here I am now. 40 years old. Looking back, I've always been impulsive and way too happy, which led to hundreds of thousands of dollars of financial mistakes that has me in the absolute worst debt that I doubt I'll ever be able to get out of. My impulsiveness ruined every relationship I ever had. I could be married, I could have kids, who knows. My whole life was dictated by my mood disorder, and only now when looking back is it so clear. I was basically hypomanic for like 10 years and I just thought I felt good I guess. If I would have embraced the diagnoses of bipolar, let him treat me for that as he wanted, my life would be so much different, and better.

I don't quite know where I'm trying to even end up at with this post. I just know that if I had accepted and embraced the diagnosis and treatment my doctor gave me, I would have had an entirely different life. Now that I am almost 40, and actually on meds for my bipolar, I can see when I'm being impulsive and calm myself down. I understand when I feel sad that it's temporary and will change. I understand how this disorder works and what to do during the ups and downs. I see everything so clearly now. I am seeing this after 20 years of being medically treated for my mental illness. It's such a surreal realization.

I wish I would have realized all this 20 years ago. Basically had to hit rock bottom to realize what was right in front of my face. My life has gotten to the point where I have accepted things and the meds are working and I do feel pretty good. So there is that.

Wondering if anyone else has had a similar experience or just feels like their mental illness has ruined what could have been a great life. I know it's never too late to get back up, and I'm trying, but it sucks.

Hi so im 17m and I have not had a haircut in quite sometime, my hair is very outgrown and messy I personally stop cutting it because idk as like an act of defiance it sounds stupid now but I hate the way I looked and I would try so hard to make something that is ugly look good so I just said f it and kinda leaned into that depressed look. But things havent changed and are really bad and maybe shaving it while mix things up a little idk. Its pretty bad looking it isnt a good grown out hair today my brother told me that I looked like some character named L from deathnote I didnt know who that was or if it was supposed to be an insult but after looking it up yeah its pretty accurate lol. I asked a friend and they said it probably was a really bad idea- my question would it really be that stupid?

I know they say there is no difference but than again I have seen people say there is a slight difference.

I took seroquel (100mg) for maybe over a year until I realized how much less drowsy I was without it. I would take it as early as 7pm and still barely be able to get out of bed until after 11am. Now that its been a good several months without it, I see it may be worth going back on it simply to improve my worsening mood. I just really really REALLY dont want to. I cant deal with the drowsiness and it did not go away after a few weeks like they said it would. Im scared of how much more I'm gonna be sleeping and how tired Im gonna be when Im awake. Has this happened to anyone else? If it did how did you manage? I'm even considering staying off it and finding some other non med related way of improving my mood.

What are your thoughts and experiences with seroquel ?

literally no one likes me. what the fuck is wrong with everyone. what is so wrong and different about me???? hello??? fuck everyone. i just want to get high and enjoy life. i need to get out of here. i don’t care if everyone in the world hates me. i love fights!!! i’ll argue with you!! come on insult me, pick a fight. idc. i love when people insult me and are condescending. i love it!! i don’t know why i feel so hostile but i love it. i can’t wait to get high tomorrow and everyone call me an addict. fuck them. also fuck you. how dare you. i need that. you can’t just do that. im so angry and irritated and offended