u/LittleRelationship13

over last weekend I learned some things about my dads past and how hes delt with situations by blaming his bipolar and not taking accountability for his actions, and even last weekend he was an asshole to my girlfriend and made her cry and not want to go over to my house ever again, and I was just wondering if i would be justified in that situation. Other things that hes done just to name a few are choking someone in my family then saying he never did it until he was sent to the psych ward which then he apologized. He apparently also has a trouble staying on his meds and just knowing the fact that hes done that is enough to make me nauseous.

Knowing all of that makes me fear for if I do have bipolar, ik people are gonna say that at least I know what the extremes of bipoalr are but what if I hurt someone I love and they dont ever talk to me(justifiably).

I am not afraid of what I am but what I could be.

Intelligence makes you understand and realize more of what's going on around you. You either recognize and think about things in your day to day life and you either ignore the questions of "what ifs" and the constant realization of mortality, or you go and numb and want to do braindead,whether that be drugs or alcohol. The reason that people get an addiction to drugs us cause it feels good and if you've felt pain and anguish from the curse of intelligence then the blank and empty from drugs and alcohol feels better than if you werent intelligent. Drugs feel better because of the lower base line happiness. So that influx of happiness from the drugs feels better and you crave the drugs for the calm.

Intelligence makes you understand and realize more of what's going on around you. You either recognize and think about things in your day to day life and you either ignore the questions of "what ifs" and the constant realization of mortality, or you go and numb and want to go braindead,whether that be drugs or alcohol. The reason that people get an addiction to drugs is cause it feels good and if you've felt pain and anguish from the curse of intelligence then the blank and empty from drugs and alcohol feels better than if you werent intelligent.Drugs feel better because of the lower base line happiness.So that influx of happiness from the drugs feels better, and you crave the drugs for the calm. Do you think that my thoughts process makes sence?

Intelligence makes you understand and realize more of what's going on around you. You either recognize and think about things in your day to day life and you either ignore the questions of "what ifs" and the constant realization of mortality, or you go and numb and want to go braindead,whether that be drugs or alcohol. The reason that people get an addiction to drugs is cause it feels good and if you've felt pain and anguish from the curse of intelligence then the blank and empty from drugs and alcohol feels better than if you werent intelligent.Drugs feel better because of the lower base line happiness.So that influx of happiness from the drugs feels better, and you crave the drugs for the calm. Do you think that my thoughts process makes sence?

Intelligence makes you understand and realize more of what's going on around you. You either recognize and think about things in your day to day life and you either ignore the questions of "what ifs" and the constant realization of mortality, or you go and numb and want to do braindead,whether that be drugs or alcohol. The reason that people get an addiction to drugs us cause it feels good and if you've felt pain and anguish from the curse of intelligence then the blank and empty from drugs and alcohol feels better than if you werent intelligentDrugs feel better because of the lower base line happinessSo that influx of happiness from the drugs feels better and you crave the drugs for the calm.

I realize that addiction is a real and serious disease and im not trying to downplay it.

Im not really sure if this is philisophical or no its just been stuck in my brain to the point of existential crisis

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What do you guys use. Cause im clueless here