I cant take it anymore, my boobs ruin everything. My bdd also ruins my relationship and it's all because of them. Even my boyfriend can't lust after me because I have small tits obviously but he had no problem lusting after big boob bitches. If theyre so ugly and undesirable, I might as well make them look horrific. After all its their fault and they need to be punished
Every time I hit a milestone, I'm really surprised that I've come this far... It feels good though!
I’m curious about whether or not sh-ing automatically means the person must have some sort of mental health condition/disorder.
I understand that ofc it increases the chances of having a mental disorder a lot if you struggle with sh, but is it something that means you definitely do have some mental condition you should be diagnosed with?
Like can someone with no mental health conditions/disorders or neurodivergence (depression, anxiety, PTSD, personality/mood disorders, ADHD/ADD, schizophrenia, OCD, ED’s, etc.) sh? Or is it like sh cannot exist without the presence of some mental illness?
tw, some brief mentions of sh, and passive suicidal ideation
im 15f, is my mom abusive, and what should i do?
for starters, i’m diagnosed with misophonia, and ocd, and my psychiatrist thinks ive got depression too it’s just taking a while to get my diagnosis.
i battle very severe misophonia, and i yell at my younger brother often to stop making the triggering sound. in response, my mother has:
- slapped me,
- beat me on my back numerous times to the point of redness but not scarring / bruising,
- she’s chased after me and held my wrist/arm and TWISTED it
- held me by the collar
- refused to let me leave the room when noises trigger me
- told me she wished she’d never given birth to us
- constantly hits me on my back or pushes me (no scars)
- has a very bipolar mood, can love me one second and yell at me the other
- a lot of yelling, and i mean literally 14hours out of the 16 hours im awake..
- ignores and invalidates my misophonia COMPLETELY
- threatens to slap me if i say the word ‘stop’ (i say stop a lot to my mum and brother when they trigger me)
- has made me block my dad once because she was mad at him and didnt want us contacting him (he was in a diff country for some work)
- has stopped speaking to me for 2-3 days bc i told her i wouldn’t take sides between her and my dad
- argues with me 24/7, i feel like she hates me but she still says she loves me?? like what bro
on the plus side, i thought id confide in my parents abt sh and being suicidal. my mum was very kind about it and supportive of my mental health (at that time, my miso wasn’t soo extreme then) and my parents got me professional help.
a lot of the time, my mom does act like she loves me. she is not neglectful. i get what i want, eat what i want, do what i want, etc but there’s always that of her yelling at me, insulting me, and occasionally slapping me.
she does apologise after slapping me but also it hurts. like my back hurts and im mentally unstable so all of this hurts emotionally too.
my dad is the chill parent, he’s genuine and sweet and compassionate and empathetic, but he also doesn’t say anything abt my moms behaviour, but tbh, i don’t think he rlly knows the full extent of it. my parents don’t really get alone well either anyway
my moms also been cheating on my dad and i’ve known since i was around 11, and i find that very unfair to my kind dad.
ive been suicidal too, my parents are somewhat aware from talking to my psych.
lately i’ve hated coming home because i’m afraid of yelling and arguing w my mom.
I’ve been really off and am sick of this and was wondering if there are any serious side effects caused by this?
I am fkn 40 yrs old married man. I work from home. I am impotent , no kids. I try to help my wife when ever i can around the house and outside.
I sweep, i wash dishes and clothes, i even cook sometimes.
I do all this by my own will, i want to help out.
But, sometimes, my wife says stuff so hurtful or ignores me completely, it just shatters me inside.. i self harm by banging and hitting my head. The blood rush calms me down.
I think about my death and funeral. I think about that a lot snd i cry . I am super emotional.
I know theres something wrong with me because men should be strong but Men are also supposed to produce children and i cannot.
I just want to end it all. I am exhausted. I am sad and depressed.
i dont know what’s wrong with me, i was feeling so sad and ugly today so i started cutting myself just a bit, not to make myself bleed but just a bit, then i got turned on so i went to porn
literally wtf why did i do that
Uh hola, la verdad, es mi primer post por asi decirlo en redit, soy malisimo/a haciéndo esto. Ni si quiera se que es un "Flair", recién me instale redit este año...
Bueno, pero solo dos cosas, como mierda hago para llegar a styros con una navaja de sacapuntas?
Siento que si no llego hasta ahí mi dolor es inválido y que no valgo...
Y, he probado con una navaja de sacapuntas nueva, filosa, y ya me saca sangre, pero igual siento que es insuficiente.
(he/him for us both) no shit-talking him or anything of the sort please
in forced recovery currently, i know where sharp objects are but im still getting body scanned so i cant cut
we were having a discussion about scar censorship, im very anti censoring healed scars and he thinks trigger warnings are needed and he talked about how real scars make him want to cut deeper so he feels more valid
i know he cant control his triggers but it makes me want to bawl my fucking eyes out, i was so close to accepting my scars and getting comfortable wearing shorts in public because summer is soon but it just set everything back for me
it makes me feel like my body is dirty and bad which i already struggle with from purity culture
its different than my eds too because i dont look starved anymore, im short and skinny but i dont think i inherently look malnourished, but theres no mistaking my scars for what they are and my body will always upset people
he said sorry and tried to comfort me but even the best possible scenario is so utterly depressing to me, i hate the idea of my skin triggering my favorite person
I'm gen scared that my dad will see it because he said he will out me in rehab if I cut myself again, I tried to stop for about 1 and a half month until I relapse today, I really want to hide it, I hate rehab and I hate the fact that they will take my phone away and I want to talk to my friends.
i know how to handle urges usually, but if i can’t prevent it, what do i do when the blade is in my hand? how do i stop it once it gets that far?
This is for research purposes, i have never cut deep enough that i did need it but it is a worry of mine and would like to be knowledgeable in what it would look like. How could i tell if its so deep that i would need stitches? Does it constantly bleed or would it stop?
Im a guy and im curious how old yll on here. I wanna know how old is everyone on this sub and where are you from? How long have you been struggling with SH and how have you dealt with over the years and what has worked for you? I wanna make some friends
This is my first time ever speaking about this, but at times I get so so sad and feel so helpless that my brain tells me to just snap out of it and slap myself ? I don’t remember the first time I slapped myself on the face but it must’ve been around 3-5 years ago and it only happened once a year probably. Recently it’s been once a week or maybe twice… I’ve been thinking about joining a martial arts club or something but not to master the skill really, I just… it feels crazy to say but I wanna get knocked out? A part of me feels like I wanna get beaten up cause I deserve it or something… I don’t know. When I slap myself it hurts for the initial second but it doesn’t really feel bad after that… I don’t know if I’m making sense and it’s so so shameful to even consider those thoughts especially that I’m a woman and I don’t believe in physical violence or anything, but it’s such a recurring thought to me and I don’t know what it means psychologically or physically really. Me wanting to get beaten up I mean… I still am in a dilemma since slapping myself is absolutely different than someone else slapping me per se or fist fighting or something, I should say I was hit as a child yes but mostly not on my face.
I want to get worse, like even worse or maybe get hurt really badly so the people that I want to care finally start caring but I dont wanna get worse either I just wanna feel better. But I miss her so much and I've been doing way worse since she left me idk why im so dependent on her I didn't even notice until she was gone
So far I only have styro cuts because I don't have to take any care of them. But I want to cut into fat and I was wondering if that requires a lot of care so they don't get infected and how long they take to scar.
i cut myself for the first time yesterday and then again today, but i cut on my thighs since i usually wear long mens shorts anyway. first of all, it was the first time ive felt in control of myself in so long. it freaked me out.
this weekend is memorial day and im supposed to go to a party, but its a pool party and i know im going to want to go swimming. i only have bikinis or short shorts, and my cuts are a little too low on my thighs. i cant let anybody at the party see them.
does anybody have any tips for covering cuts??? i need to cover them because its warm out now too and I would like to wear shorter shorts. thank you guys. lifes rough
Hi everyone,
I have a date with a colleague next week (we both work in the mental health sector). The weather is probably going to be nice and warm, so appropriate for t-shirts or tops. The thing is, I used to self-harm, and these old scars are still visible. At work, I obviously hide them, but now that I'm going on a date I'm not sure what to do. I also sweat quite quickly. So should I just wear t-shirts and risk him seeing the scars on our first date? Or is it better to hide them and be weird in my long sleeves (which might also be a sign that I have scars)
NB: I also have a tattoo on my wrist. What if he wants to see this tattoo and then he'll most definitely see my scars
Thanks for your advice!
I sh on the underside of my left arm, and right now there are two large bandages there.
It's hot today and I haven't worn short sleeves all year besides once, but I don't know what I would say if someone asks again.
What would I do if someone asks? Thanks
This sound horrible, I know, but for the last few weeks, I've been craving someone to break into my house and SA me. I want to feel useful to somebody, which I guess that makes sense on why I want it to happen, but like... I don't care if I give consent or not, I just want to feel like I can actually make people happy, even if it is just them using me.