u/drycakechan

parents found out abt my SH

i fainted at school one month ago due to malnutrition and dehydration so i was taken to the counsellors office for sum reason and whilst the counsellor was checking my body and my arms she saw my cuts. i had to wait for like more than an hr cus she ws talking to my parents. she told my parents abt what she saw. the day i went back to school the counsellor wanted to talk to me but i rejected her impulsively after talking to her i lowk regret it now. and yesterday my aunt caught me in the act but she told my mom to check on me and she also caught me i promised her id never do it again. seeing my mom cry while helping me clean up was lowk sad. today she caught me breaking the promise too she ws more mad than sad. im still trying to understand what is so bad abt it and why be mad

if you hv seen my other posts, youll know my relationship w my dad is horrible. she keeps defending him. ik she cares abt me but she doesnt know how to handle things like this well at all so she ends up victim blaming or defending the abuser bc thats what she knows how to do. she never even stood up for me both stimes i was sexually assaulted. once infront of her. she just acted like she never saw that happening including everyone else. ik shes not the best person but i need someone wholl stand up for me. im gonna run away sooner or later

I gained weight

Ive been struggling with my body image for a while now. today i checked my weight and i gained a whopping >!6kg!< i feel miserable about it. i cnt stop crying abt it. ik its normal to gain weight in puberty but i cant get over it. i feel like my sisters are head over heels about it ive been feeling like they are all against me secretly and seeing them so energetic after they heard that i gained weight instantly frustrated me and made me sh again im almost the same weight as my older sister and counsellor too and that triggers me so much

Ive been struggling with my body image for a while now. today i checked my weight and i gained a whopping 6kg i feel miserable about it. i cnt stop crying abt it. ik its normal to gain weight in puberty but i cant get over it. i feel like my sisters are head over heels about it ive been feeling like they are all against me secretly and seeing them so energetic after they heard that i gained weight instantly frustrated me and makes me wanna cvt myself again im almost the same weight as my older sister and counsellor too and that triggers me so much

im sorry for posting my post in a recovery channel i did not dig in properly and thought that it was the right place. im sorry if i triggered some ppl dont give up

i realized my mistake thanks to ur comments. im sorry it wont happen again