Lack of scars making me feel fake
I tried to cut myself and I did, but it was very minor, not enough to draw blood. I also engaged in starving and restricting food intake. Nothing left a permanent mark and it makes me feel fake, like I never really struggled. I see people being proud of their scars as a sign of recovery, and I feel like I should’ve left a mark as something to be proud of. I’ve always struggled with feeling not real enough, not valid, etc. and it just sucks.