so, sooo dark. everything is so heavy. people say it gets better, and to keep moving, but no light is getting in.
until it does.
Honestly really captures how life felt at this time. Light shined brighter and deeper. Colors were more colorful. Everything seemed connected in a perfect, beautiful way, just for me.
Only unfortunate thing is I had quit my job founded 2 businesses and was paying rent for 3 places at the same time and was about to enter a month long depressive episode🤦♂️
had a manic episode this spring and quit my job (healthcare provider), spent all of my savings, sold my car to buy a 2011 rav4, lost my apartment, started 2 businesses, travelled for a month and a half, and am now in my family's spare room and looking at the wreckage. thankfully wasn't hospitalized and got diagnosed and am getting treatment from a private psych.
credit card debt: both have a 27% APR
12k debt on CSP (19k limit)
3k debt on CFU
i have around $1,500 in checking and really not sure how to tackle this. thankfully my license and training is in high demand and once stable i should be able to make 80-90k pretty quickly while living with family.
not sure whether to just try and pay minimums for the next month or so until i start working or to try and get a hardship program or other debt relief assistance. havent been workijg since february.