u/BarOne8872

Judge free zone here! I was recently diagnosed w biopolar II and had my first manic episode with psychosis a few months ago. Instead of being ashamed I thought I'd share in case anyone else can relate or finds humor in them (ik I do when I'm not cringing). Here's some of what transpired:

- called a hs classmate and told them we had a psychic connection
- dmed said classmate that the psychic connection told me their kinks (💀)
- told my family I was trans and went by the opposite pronouns (I am not)
- rubbed dirt all over my naked body "because the angels told me to"
- almost took a flight to another state (my family stopped me) because the voices told me my friend was in rehab and dying (they were in the same state and totally fine)
- had the cops called on me because I was ringing the doorbell of a random house over and over again and wouldn't leave

Lost some friends and feel like the person I was before my episode is a completely different person to who I am now but hey at least I can laugh at myself!

Feels silly writing this but it's genuinely how I feel. I haven't been sexually active since my first time in 2019/2020 and the guy I was with got frustrated trying to teach me to kiss (my first time was a peck and I hadn't been w anyone else) so he stopped trying and we just had sex. Since then I've been too nervous to date/use apps because I'm scared a guy is going to go in for a kiss and get upset I can't kiss well, or get frustrated trying to teach me like the first guy. Idk what to do y'all ik I need experience to get better but I'm too nervous. Anyone have advice or been in a similar boat??

For the past few weeks I've been having Vietnam flashbacks of the embarassing things I did during a manic episode a couple months ago. I find myself having to talk myself out of the embarrassment I feel ("forgive yourself" etc) and despite that I keep replaying the events in my head. How do you get over the embarassing things you did while manic?

Going back to school for pre-nursing and trying to get some prerequisites done. A&P is one that I'm scared of. I was wondering if there's anything you wish you knew before taking the class? Or if there's anything I should do to prepare myself?

It's just so pleasant to the ears and relaxing. I wish I could press a button and have the normal video I'm watching be turned into an asmr video

I'm on 5mg of abilify rn and the restlessness is too strong for me to bear. I guess I didn't think restlessness would mean I would NEVER feel well-rested. I do feel the constant need to move (I'm almost constantly shifting back and forth on my feet and cannot stand still) but I also just never feel well rested. I spend almost all my time sleeping when I'm not at work and despite taking long naps I never wake up feeling rested. I brought this up to my psychiatrist and she just told me to take it later in the day instead of right when I wake up and it hasn't helped at all. Wondering if anyone else has had a similar experience and found a medication that worked??

He said he needed a friend and so I gave him my instagram, I didn't know he thought of me as a potential romantic interest but I guess I'm just naive! Basically within a few days he's been really needy, calling it fate, and seems to bring up everything in relation to me ("I'm thinking of getting a dog once I get a dog mom to share it with 😉") and it's all just a bit much. I'm pretty awkward and anxiety ridden so idk how to react. How have you dealt with men like this?? I have a hard time being direct because I don’t want to hurt others feelings but it's been making me uncomfortable.

It's a 2019 MacBook Pro with battery issues, I was wondering what I could do to possibly fix it. Apple support told me they don’t make the batteries needed to fix it but does anyone have experience using a non-apple repair business to fix their MacBook (such as batteries plus)? I know apple wont touch it once a third party has but I'm at a loss as I cannot afford a new MacBook atm.

What is your experience having this placement? Are you unsatisfied with career? Directionless? Constantly changing it? Have experienced job loss? Are you self-employed? Trying to get an idea of what this placement entails.