r/bipolar2

i feel so good rn. sorry anyways, im not diagnosed with bipolar. and im only 15. not tryna self diagnose or ask for one. i just want people with bipolar to tell me if this seems like something thats worth talking to a professional about. when i take adhd meds and dont sleep, i feel euphoric and wired and good and hyped up and i feel so good right now. but i also have this underlying irritability. my whole body feels warm and buzzing and my head feels light and good. when im in these elevated states, i feel like life is worth living and im made for something bigger and i need to find out what it is. and im secretly an evil person. like i have a secret identity that i need to find. like i have a different life im supposed to be living. but i also feel aggressive. i wanna go out and do crazy things but i can’t. i wanna go out and socialize but people piss me off. i don’t want to sleep cause that means failure. i feel tired under all this but i try to gaslight myself into not feeling it. im prescribed sleeping pills but i dont take them cause i like feeling like this. i like not sleeping. last summer i was barley sleeping and energetic and social as ever. so is this just normal sleep deprivation or adhd ? i feel insane

I don’t have that sedated feeling luckily. Does it take a few days for the medication to kick in or something? I’ve heard most people feel heavy sedation from it. I’m on 5mg.

For the first time ever, I went to see a psychiatrist for suspected ADHD/mild depression. They prescribed modafinil and Wellbutrin (75 mg). After day 12, I had trouble falling asleep and got less sleep every day until day 17, when I only slept for two hours (I had stopped taking modafinil for a few days so whatever it was, was not Modafinil). However, I didn't feel sleep deprived and had more energy and a better mood than before I started taking the medication. I didn't feel like I needed sleep at all. I was frightened, so I stopped taking them. I slept fine the night of next day. I went to the psychiatrist again, and now I'm on a fluoxetine and Vyvanse combo. It's day 8.

I am concerned about whether I am susceptible to mania/hypomania.

I also experience some symptoms when I take 200 mg caffeine capsules. This doesn't always happen, but I would suddenly feel very euphoric. My mood would jump from fatigue and depression to extreme euphoria, and I would find everything around me so interesting. Sometimes I would laugh uncontrollably. Once, I remember laughing in the shower, sitting down and laughing again at things in my head. Sometimes I also talk too fast and have to slow down when I take them. But I always experience extreme euphoria.

Can we just brush both off as 'just side effects', or is it concerning? Since fluoxetine is an antidepressant, I want to know if I should keep an eye out for similar symptoms.

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder type II a month ago, and I guess this whole season is the worst time period I have been going through. I am a third-year university student, and I have been skipping classes like crazy this year. The first semester was okay; I managed to pass the exams thanks to a month-long hypomanic episode. As for the second one... I barely attended classes due to a depressive episode that has been lasting for four months. My therapist is working on the right dose of latuda for me (I have an awful allergy to lamictal, unfortunately), and I am struggling with daily mood swings, as if my episodes have shrunk and scattered over days. I am thinking of postponing my exams until next year. Has anyone gone through such experience? I would love to know what you have done in situations like this. Also, I would like to apologize for possible mistakes, since English isn't my first language.

how do you deal with it? i’m just coming out of the hypomania and now i’m realizing how much deep shit i’m in. this is a recurring issue with me. i barely have savings most of the time 🥹

Curious to hear what your days look like.

hi, any advice on what to do when 37mg latuda makes me insanely restless to the point i need to take 0,25mg xanax to function(well function is a strong word as xanax makes me so lethargic, not a great solution but it’s better than the restlessness)? todays is day three, do i tough it out and see if it stops making me restless with time or should i stop taking it (ofc talking to my psych first) and find a different med?

I hear people say all the time that what I have is a super power but how??? I hate that I’m bipolar. I’ve been diagnosed for two years now and I feel it’s only getting worse. I’m so done with people giving this narrative online that you should be proud to be bipolar —why would I be proud of it? It’s the worst thing to ever happen to me. It is crazy to me that there’s people out there that don’t have to chronically be alert about their mental health and aware of any symptoms of hypomania or depression. I had the WORST hypomanic episode of my life 5 months ago that lasted 3 months and I’m extremely depressed now. I’ve been put on antidepressant (aside from my latuda) but it’s not helping. Why would I be proud to have this ? I don’t think I’m inferior to anyone for having it nor do I think I’m crazy but people need to stop spreading this agenda that having bipolar disorder is almost like a positive thing because it’s not. It’s something we have to live with and have hope that we’ll feel better but I pray in another life I don’t have bipolar. I don’t mean to sound pessimistic but spreading agendas like these only lead to false diagnosis and makes our mental health issues underlooked because it’s “nothing to be ashamed of”

Edit: so many people are saying that they’ve never heard it but I personally have heard it from therapists, psychiatrists, online, and by people in conversations I swear I’m not making it up😭 also I have ADHD too so I know they say it mainly for adhd but I still hear it for both

It’s 3AM and I honestly don’t know how to feel right now. My sister came home and started complaining about how for the past three days I’ve been at home not cleaning or doing much. I tried explaining that my pills make me sleepy and exhausted, but she kept saying I was making excuses.

She even started questioning the purpose of my medication, saying that if I’m able to go to work, then I should be able to function normally at home too. She complained about a lot of things, and some of it didn’t even make sense to me.

Now I’m just sitting here speechless. I don’t even feel hurt, just empty inside and a bit angry that she spoke about my meds like that. People really don’t understand how mentally exhausting it is trying to function every day while dealing with your mind and medication at the same time.

I (28) am such a terrible person. I'm so ungrateful for all my husband (27) does for me. He works so I can be a stay at home mom. We have two kids, one of each, but I feel so incomplete. I wanted more but he had a vasectomy. It would've been irresponsible having more because we wouldn't have been able to afford another kid. My thought is he could've gotten a better paying job. A couple years later I had a hysterectomy because I was having problems.

My other issue is I absolutely hate my body and always have. When I'm at a healthy weight I see that what would be what makes me actually happy in my own body would be to have breast implants. I'm a size B cup, pretty sure not even a full cup, and have always been so insecure. Unfortunately I've let him tell me how he doesn't want that. He loves me exactly how I am but even he'll say it's shocking the few times I'll take my shirt off for him.
He's such a nice and sweet guy, but I'm so pissed about those two issues and I know I'll never get over it.

I truly believe him when he said he'd never remarry if something happened to me or I left him. He said I'm it. He would never move on that I'm the love of his life.

I hate this for him. He deserves SO MUCH BETTER but seriously he wouldn't move on. But how do I live with this?

I’m curious how many of us enjoy listening to heavy music during depression or hypomania, because I’ve noticed something about myself.

When I’m in a long or just depressive phase, listening to very heavy music somehow makes things feel easier. In the past, on lower doses of medication, heavy metal and phonk would actually trigger hypomania for me, but after increasing the dosage, that stopped happening.

I’d be interested to hear about your experience :)

I’m pretty hurt right now.

I’m in the emergency department for the second day in a row. I have an excruciating pain on one side of my stomach when I breathe in and am so unwell

I went to Emergency yesterday. They ran blood tests and urine tests. All normal. Instead of doing any scans they sent me home and said it must be a muscle injury (not exactly sure how given I’ve not exercised in the lead up to this pain)

They said come back today if symptoms worsen so they could do an ultrasound. I followed instruction as they have gotten worse. I can’t eat or barely stand up.

Of course they always ask medical history and medications, so telling them I have bipolar 2 and the meds I’m on is part of that.

I have been trying to push for the ultrasound today and told I don’t need it. They’re running a few more tests but keep telling me I have gastritis. I’ve had it before it felt nothing like this

I just overheard the doctor speaking with his manager outside my room

‘She’s got bipolar’

‘She’s got a stomach ache what else exactly would she like us to do’

I’m pretty upset. I feel like I’m being disregarded because of my bipolar even though it has nothing to do with this physical health issue.

I had a Gp visit a few weeks ago for prolonged dizziness. The doctor took it seriously but repeatedly asked if I was manic and had the mental health crisis team call me when I was literally not in an episode.

Before this I hadn’t seen a GP for any physical health issues for 3+ years outside of routine Pap smears, skin checks etc.

Has anyone had a similar experience?

I'm lucky. I'm pretty damn stable. I've been on the same cocktail of meds for over five years, my bad habits have been curbed, and I don't get big ups or big downs. I do still have ups and downs but the ups are more enjoyable than scary and the downs still suck but I can get out of bed.

I'm as close to hypomanic as I get right now and I can't enjoy it because I'm aware of it. I'm aware of the depression swing that happens next and even though my logical brain knows it won't be as bad as it used to be, it's terrifying. Because what if it is. I'm also aware that I could very easily trend up in a bad way. I avoid stores. Do everything I can to stay away from online shopping temptations. Even though I know I have a handle on it.

TL;DR I just want to enjoy having some extra energy without the fear.

im 19 years old, and many of my friends are aware that something's off with my mental health. that was before yesterday. i was diagnosed with bipolar 2 and i felt super energized and posted about it on my close friends story with all of my close, and somewhat close friends. i'm starting to doubt that decision though, not in an "embarrassing" way but in a way thats moreso like "what if the stigma gets to them or what if they take advantage of me knowing i have a fragile mental state". are these reasonable fears? i can't exactly undo it or anything, but was this a good decision? what are some other people's experiences with stuff like this?

not to mention, i have very high (and reasonable) suspicions of having autism. any sort of social cue they give off to me can either fly under the radar, or will end up with me deluding myself into thinking they're plotting against me or resent me.

Does anyone else become hyper focused on a topic/hobby based on one minor experience that lasts for around a month?

For example; I’m not even a huge fan of Star Wars, yet when I saw a few short videos explaining which brands make the best quality sabers, I immediately hyper focused on that particular hobby/topic for around a month. I was completely ready to drop $500+ on something I really didn’t care about a week later, but in the moment, I feel as I MUST have that object.

Right now I’m obsessed with chainsaws, which I’ve never bothered to even slightly research beforehand.

Maybe it’s bad money management, but I equally enjoy researching and becoming fully knowledgeable about the subject

I’ve been diagnosed for as long as I can remember (19/M) but I don’t really hear this being talked about often. I guess I just want to see if I’m not alone on this one. Thanks

Hi, I’m 28 and have been diagnosed with generalized anxiety 3 years ago with no luck on SSRIs. A month ago, my new psychiatrist put me on Venlafaxine (Effexor).
The first week was insane, I felt restless, was incredibly talkative, loved life, and couldn't wait for the morning to come.
After two weeks, I went back to normal. My psychiatrist today said he suspects a hypomanic episode and is tracking my sleep, though no official bipolar diagnosis yet.

I always thought bipolar shows up in early youth. Is it common to get a first hypomanic episode at 28?

I had anger issues as a kid, could that be related?

Has anyone else had an SNRI trigger a brief period of intense happiness before it calmed them down?

Idk what happened but lately my paranoia has just gotten worse and it literally consumes me. I have healthy relationships and I will still find a way to convince myself everyone hates me. God forbid someone doesn’t respond to my text for a few hours and I will spiral thinking they secretly hate me and are talking shit behind my back… if someone at work disagrees with me on something small I will literally freak out and think they think I’m stupid and incompetent. Literally no one is safe I even convinced myself my DOG hates me………..it’s so exhausting living with my brain