r/bipolar2

My husband wants a divorce. I don’t really know how to handle it. I don’t have a therapist right now and I don’t know if I can find one now. I’m thinking a lot about ending things, I even started to plan it. But I don’t really want it, I just don’t see that life is worse it anymore. I just really need to talk to someone about that…

Yeah so i have bipolar depression for quite some time now and it's the same cycle every time. I'm aware. But at the same time i'm too sad to do anything. Maybe i should consult my psychiatrist and tell them i'm too depressed to do anything although i'm already on so many meds.

Something I am working on with my therapist is figuring out why I can't seem to accept my bipolar 2 diagnosis. I mean - I can tell a random cashier I have it, but when it comes to accepting it and being kind to myself, it's just not there. I always feel like I am "too much", a burden, faking, etc. She actually tells me I don't tell her enough, especially about my SI. Apparently I minimize like crazy. I don't really know where this comes from except my dad had bipolar as well and growing up my mom was simply mean about it. Very uncaring. Very condemning. And he ultimately died by his own hands. Maybe that's a clear cut "why" right there, although I didn't really even considering this connection until the last week or so. Do you have any thoughts? How does this work out in your life?

I may be experiencing a mild mania. I feel like I am not totally in my body, difficulty to concentrate and keep focus, increase in spending although everything seems rational and inside the budget, at least I tell myself that. What else? Racing thoughts and writing this will in bed because I can't sleep.

Also there is a feeling of tranquility, like things can't affect, a "who cares" attitude towards everything, vocabulary is compromised, I can't find all my words.

Part of me really wants this to be mania and feed the state, (no sleeping) probably a bad idea.

I’ve been on Latuda for about two months. I started at 20 mg and felt like my depression improved within the first week, but I had a depressive episode during the third week. I’m pretty sure I was hypomanic when I first started the medication.
I went up to 40 mg during the second month, but I haven’t really noticed a difference. I still have some depression, and my mood hasn’t stabilized yet. I’m also currently at 50 mg of Lamictal, titrating up every two weeks.
For those who take Latuda, how long did it take before you felt like your mood stabilized? Did you notice a difference after increasing your dose?

Hi! I’m a college student who’s been recently diagnosed and am taking 100 mg of Lamictal for bipolar 2, and I’m wondering about drinking while on it. I obviously still want to be able to go clubbing and have fun with my friends, but I’m a little nervous about mixing alcohol with Lamictal.

For those of you who take Lamictal, have you had any side effects when drinking? Do you avoid alcohol completely, or have you been okay having a few drinks?

Also I would like to mention I am not a causal drinker I only drink when going out with my friends so I don’t drink on a regular basis.

Well one experience for me when I was particularly manic is as follows. I haven't slept in days as I was full of energy. This was about the 5th day and I was driving home from a general doctor's appt about 35 Miles away from my home. I momentarily blacked out or micro sleep occurred. I hit an embankment and then flipped several times car finally coming to a rest on its side. I was conscious the entire time. I was not fearful at all nor was I in any pain. My legs were crushed from the knees down and I was pinned. About 25 minutes later the fire dept arrived. It took them a little over 3 hours to cut me out of the wreckage. The entire car was crushed. I was told that every seat in the car was crushed besides the one I was sitting in. I have pictures. Besides my legs I only had a small scratch on my forehead but no confusion. I felt the entire time that I was not alone. I was communicating with someone unseen but never verbally. It was calming and reassuring. I think my guardian angel was with me. I also think that perhaps I died on impact and was either restored or replaced by an entity that maybe took over my body, mind, and all of my thoughts and memories. I think that beings name may have been Aurora and maynot have been of this planet.

Anyways, I think I know have a keen sense of awareness that is stronger than before the accident. I should mention that although I am still bipolar, I am not longer manic. I feel connected with nature but especially the cosmos. I'm at such peace on a clear night just looking up at the stars. I feel a deep connection with animals and children. Strangers tell me their life story in checkout lines. I can't explain it. I can only say that I may or may not be the same person.

In a separate thread I'll talk about my recovery from the injuries.

Your thoughts?

I'm having a great time at the moment having an aperol party! If anyone would like to have a chat I'd really appreciate I'm a bit thin on the ground in terms of social contact not related to mental health at the moment! Tyia!

And if so, were you able to find an effective substitute?

I had about thirty lovely days on Lamictal (Lamotrigene) before it lost effectiveness. I was left with all of the side effects (poor word recall, nightmares) and could not get any of the positives back, even with a dose increase.

I'm hoping to arrange for a GeneSight panel before I start experimenting with meds again, but if anyone has had a similar experience, I'd love to know if you found a match elsewhere.

EDIT for clarification: I was on Lamictal for roughly a year. The 30 days mentioned above is how long it was effective; I continued to take it in increasing doses for months, unsuccessfully, until weaning off completely.

I’m living with ADHD and BP2 so I’ve been trying to get in for my regular stimulant re-up appointment. I’ve been out of XR Adderall for over a month because my prescriber was so booked up and my executive functioning has really taken a hit. I was supposed to have an appointment on Tuesday but I forgot. I logged on 8 minutes late and I’d missed her. I get 5 minutes is most people’s grace period but I’ve never missed an appointment once in 3 years of seeing her.

I emailed right away asking to reschedule and the response was that she was planning to drop me at our appointment anyway. I was planning to use her to get through the end of the year because my insurance plan is changing for next year anyway. More than anything I’m so livid that this provider who has shown zero respect for my care would just drop me after a single missed appointment. Things she has done before:

- No showed one of my appointments because her assistant booked me on a day she was out of office
- Eaten lunch during appointments
- Never remembers my prescriptions, dosages, schedule, or pharmacy
- Once did not send my scripts after an appointment so I had to chase her office down because the pharmacy had nothing when I called for refills
- Never sends my lithium lab requests despite repeatedly asking
- After begging for lab requests sent lab orders for a company that doesn’t even operate in my state

Those are just off the top of my head. I’m so angry that a provider who seems to be so careless about their job would act like I’m the hassle for missing a single appointment by a few minutes. Her assistant says she’ll send one more round of 3 month scripts but with her track record I’m not sure she even will. I’m hoping my primary care can take over in the meantime but I don’t trust her existing track record on any of this.

I prescribed lamotrigine and venlafaxine 3-days ago and while researching the side effects I already have ( wake me up three times a night and nauseous after taking it) even after taking Xanax to fall asleep as well as zapleon but all I'm seeing is people with bipolar taking it. For reference I have depression, been suicidal since I was 12, adhd,PTSD , insomnia and anxiety agoraphobia I have been household since July I'm actually gonna try to leave today. With all this being said I'm not a big fan of non psychotic mental illnesses I feel like their environmental factors that cause it but for my housing program and then I'm required to be on these meds prescribed. Just wondering if he thinks I'm bipolar and didn't wanna tell me to avoid hurting my feelings?

From what I have read AH is mostly congruent with manic episode in people with bp1 but although my recent diagnoses did not officially it come with a number, its was heavily implied that I have bp2.

Does anyone else hear like muffled voices or music that’s sounds like it’s in the next room when it’s not really there?

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I think I’m a bad person because whenever I do something wrong or hurt someone or lie about something I have a hard time feeling bad about it. I don’t understand why I don’t feel bad because I know I should and I feel ashamed to say this. I just think I’m a bad person even though I don’t do this intentionally.

Anytime someone speaks to me they say ahit like ,oh you have mood swings ,well yeah i do but not like people make it out to be ,they make fun of me and say things like are you on ur period again,oh here we go again, he's started it now ,how do people just not move on and live there pathetic lives without saying these stupid things,my wife is pregnant and we had to rush to the hospital yesterday and the nurse casually just said,

" huh ,hmm oh btw you've had a miscarriage, which is why you're bleeding and feel crap",to my wife , just casually as if it's nothing, I'm here trying to keep my fists in my pocket and trying to be patient and zip it so that i can support and grieve through this and be her comfort. absolutely stupid nurse and now all i can think about is that ,these people take life for granted,i just wanna shave all their hair ,chuck my fieces on them and let them drink it through a straw made out of wood with splinters sticking out.

The sheer audacity and and annoying voices some people make which they call "talking" doesn't really Ammuse me anymore,i just wanna draw a map that would give them a directions on where to find a a solid wall with a sharp metal bit sticking out of it ,so that they can quickly run into it without me having to explain anything to them , because that's how fast my mind is ticking right now ,i just cannot handle it ,but mostly can't handle people who are cold and inconsiderate and incompetent to carry out simple manners and be able to have normal conversations,like the good ol days.

In need of some hope and positivity as I have been so depressed and can’t take it anymore…