Any kids thinking of doing it before they become 18?
I've always wanted to be younger. at 13 i wanted to be 8 at 14 i wanted to be 12 and now at 16 i honestly just want to be dead so I'll never age. I never really comprehended aging until i was 14 and still felt 12, and that is basically where the growing anxiety started. Children are just so much better, and they get a lot more sympathy. I guess i just don't want to let go of that feeling of purity? After I'm 18 I'll probably get a lot less sympathy, they'll think I'm still young but better for a 18 year old to kill themselves than a 16 year old. Perhaps this is ageism highly ingrained into society but i never see anyone else mention it so i kinda feel like i attention seeker. Something really spoke to me, and that was a class of 09 scene (i know, Trust me i don't feel any less cringe talking about it) it was the scene where nicole graduated highschool and she talked about how basically no one cares or cares a lot less about you once your a older/adult. It felt so real because it is...the second scene was jecka killing herself in the flipside with one of her last words being "atleast I'll die young and pretty" or something along those lines. I'm eventually, probably before my 18 birthday either jump off my house (luckily it is high enough to probably kill me) or just put a fork into a outlet and hope it does enough to electrocute me.