I'm so tired of being this...
It doesn't matter how hard I try to take care of my family and better myself for the better I constantly fail. Something or someone makes it blow up every single time I try to do anything. Get a job nope can't get hired anywhere, donate plasma ha ha nope, get loans, sale all my possessions, have a support system what's that, I even tried to go back to the game/hustle and I can't even do that. I am apparently meant to be a failing disappointment and I am tired of it. I have let my kids down more times than I can count that's the worst part of all. I have no one no way to make it and I don't know what to do other than give up. I haven't eaten in 3 days going on 4. Maybe I should have stayed with my abuser I was miserable but they were taken care of. If I done what he said I was fine I don't know what to do I keep praying and praying and praying but I am just tired of being this person who is stuck being a failing screwup