This will be controversial
This post will be controversial but I want to share my experience with this and hope you won’t bury me.
I have anorexia BP subtype and my struggle with it has become progressively worse over the past couple years. For the past year I have not been able to keep down any food despite my best efforts. Anything I’d eat would trigger a B/P episode. It was taking a toll on every aspect of my life. I was a maniac, my head was fuzzy, I couldn’t concentrate on work, I was bleeding money which was giving me immense stress.
I have been reading about GLP-1s and how the obsessive thinking and food noise quiets down. I was really at the end of my rope and was willing to do anything to be able to eat and have a quiet brain. I did this for harm reduction, my intention to use this was never to lose weight and never to starve myself - it was to eat.
I live in a place where you don’t need a prescription to get your hands on the injections so I got it and tried it a little over a week ago. From the first day it was as if I was a different person. I ate, without thinking about it. I ate even when I wasn’t feeling hungry because I thought “it is time to eat, I should eat something” even if I’m not starving. And I made good choices, without effort and without overthinking and without the noise in my brain double guessing everything and agonizing me.
It’s as if I have a different brain or my brain is finally mine again. I can’t tell you how free I feel.
I am sharing this because I hope this finds understanding. I know the medication is not intended to be used by an underweight person. I know this can not be forever. But I was at the end of my rope and I was desperate to just be able to eat and keep it down. I was going absolutely insane and I was in so much mental pain.
BUT I have to say, intention matters. I did this and am doing this BECAUSE I want to EAT and because I couldn’t do it without it. I weighed the options and the benefits of this right now are worth it for me because I was doing incredible damage before.
I hope the post can stay up and I hope you won’t judge me for this.